Secret Confessions

I knw i love this guy…hes kind and cute and caring….all these things made me like him…i even liked him more because he cares for me…were just friends hes got a gf….i knw im on the wrong track but…I’m still hopin that he would love me back….

I hate to say it, but I hate my best friend’s boyfriend. I want her to be happy, but not with him. Not when he sees me as a constant threat, not when he tells her not to be friends with me just because I make her happy too.

He wants to be the only thing in her life, and I want him to be gone.

Anytime I try to tell her that it doesn’t seem like a healthy relationship, she tells me that I don’t see them together - of course I don’t! He doesn’t allow her near me when they’re together! He literally drags her away and brushes me off.

She’s not going to college so she can wait for him when he goes into the armed forces.

I can’t even tell her what a mistake that is without “trying to ruin they’re relationship.” I’m not a threat, I’m a friend.

I can’t stand seeing her date anyone that actually lives here because I am jealous.
I feel so alone the majority of the time.
I want to be more like her.
I wish she didn’t see our friendship as an obligation.
I don’t like seeing her happier than I am.

i hate my bestfriend,she is so much prettier than me,so much more popular than mee.but thats not even the worst part,not to long ago she was the frumpy fat girl who everyone hated and now everyone likes her,everyone wants to be her and everyone wants her…and its never fair…is there somthing wrong with me? i have lost respect for myself because not only do i hate my bestfriend who i have been friends with since second grade but i’m willing to do anything to be better than her…=[*

My best friend, I love her to death but she is very selfish and for the past year has been trying to hang out with this younger crowd of people, half of which are still in high school I know none of these people are he “True” friends, Although I’ve known her for much much longer than any of these kids, she treats them with way more validity than me, and when she goes out she hardly even invites me anymore and when she does she hardly ever introduces me to the people who I haven’t met yet even if I’m right next to her when she’s carrying on a conversation with them, It used to be we’d go out together and invite people, now she goes out with others and hardly invites me. I am a loyal person and hold friends very close, we are much older than this crowd and she is swept up in this whole high school popularity contest at nearly Thirty years old( sorry to say but it’s kind of pathetic ). She treats me differently as if she has a new life and I am just some reminder of a old boring life she has tried to leave behind. Mind you she has child and an abusive ex-husband, I was the only one their for her when they split, I just feel that she is not really my friend anymore I don’t think I could ever truly talk to her when I’m going through something, at least not without her judging me and criticizing me afterwards. She is also a compulsive liar and tells me outrageous exaggerations, ones of which she should know that I know she’s lying about. ugh its so annoying

I told my best friend I had feelings for him. I know he used to like me but he was so young at the time and it took a while for me to realise how deep my feelings were for him. He said he didn’t want to lose me as a friend, wasn’t sure of how he felt. He confessed he might have feelings for a girl we work with, a 15yo girl…5 years younger than him. He said she made him happy. I tried to pretend I wasn’t hurting but now he can’t even look at me. Everything is falling apart around me and now I dont have anyone to turn to. I miss him..every day I miss him and I wish I had never said anything.

I wish I knew who I was deep down. In reality, I’m only a guy who trys to please others…

When my friends are down, I’m always the one who they come to if they want to vent, or need advice. So when they come talk to me, I always need to be happy, and secure of myself, so the negative feelings don’t rub off on them. Half of the time, I feel like total shit, and can’t even put up with their crap. I have no idea how I do it. I just wanna die, I’m so bogged down with their stuff.

But then, when my friends are OK, and they ask how I am, I can never tell them that I’m not doing well. I don’t want to bog them down with my emotions…they have too much going on. So yea…I take everything in, but don’t have anyone to talk to.

Sure, I’ll tell people that I know I can come to them if I ever need help or advice or just want to vent, but I can never bring myself to do it when the time comes down to it.

It’s all been going downhill recently. Worse and worse. I’m more depressed, more emotional, more suicidal. I want to show this post to my friends, so I can get help…but then I’ll just scare them away from me. They’ll be afraid of my past, that it’s coming back.

But this isn’t what I went through when I was younger…and that kind of scares me. Because I (now) know how to deal with what I was dealing with then. But this is new. Different. Unique.

And I can’t take it anymore. So if any of my friends see this…please…help me.

I have a lot of friends. I love them all, really. They’re great.
I love how we’re all so different, but still have so many things in common.
Selfharm and depression is something we’ve all been through, and talked about,
but the problem is that I still get depressed sometimes. I think they do too, but they don’t admit it all that much.
I have this one friend that told me to call her if things get real bad,
but I can never trust her to be there or get the small hints I drop,
because I could never just say that I feel bad.

The problem with my friends is that they are too distant. They have other friends that I feel they trust more than me, and you might say I’m jealous, but it bothers me a lot. I want someone for my own, my friend. The kind I can call or visit any time and know that they won’t mind. Truth is I had a friend like that once, but life split us up.

I just want one friend that I don’t have to share.

I hate you. I cant believe what you did. You promised me. You swore on your life. But you broke that promise. Now people dont see me the same. They all think I have a problem. And its all your fault. I thought you were my best friend. Thanks alot.

how do you tell your friend that you
don’t wan tto come to his moms because the hous is so filthy. they seem to be immune to the smells all the animals
running around they are a cool friend and would do anything for me but i can’t take
the filth

i met my best friend in my 3rd yr of high skool and we’ve been close since then. during our first yr of college she got pregnant and she only told her parents at 7 months. as u can imagin they were angry and still are to this day(its been more than a yr)..though her mother speaks to her now .but anyway.. i allowed her to stay with me and my mom and bro because of her family issues at that moment. but living with her hasnt been easy AT ALL!!! seems i liked her better when we werent spending every day together(bad friend huh) my mom doesnt like her either.. and allows her to stay at home only because she’s my friend. i want her to leave the house now cause nobody can stand her anymore.. she’s demanding,likes everything her way,expects u to bend for her,MESSY and sooo much more.. i dont know what to do. i mean..she’s still my best friend and i love helping to take care of the baby…but i want her to leave..her mom doesnt even mind her coming back home,though her dad does. WHY DOESNT SHE WANT TO LEAVE???WE CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE

I’m not inconsiderate. You tell me you don’t want me to be me, because you don’t want to hear the truth about your ex, who won’t come back to you, you are just refusing to accept it - which is understandable since you loved him, but then when we talk you tell me you don’t want me to not be myself, but i know you don’t because you won’t be able to handle the truth. I mean what do you want me to do? I don’t mean to shout at you, but there’s nothing more i can do. Yes i know you’re depressed, but it doesn’t mean i am going to put my happiness on hold for you. I shouldn’t have to do it for anyone, i try not to mention it too much to you because i know you are fragile but i can’t not talk about it when it’s all that’s going off in my head right now. When you were saying that our other best friend wasn’t depressed, how would we know? We’d both started going out with the guys she liked. That HURTS. A LOT. You wouldn’t know. And she has cut herself and thought about suicide before, so how would we know. I hope you get better soon because i can’t keep tip toeing around like this and i hope your ex decides to letyou go. Finally so you can move on.

i’m straight… but then why do i want to possess her like that…

i hadn’t talked to her in two years…
i was waiting for her to make a call or write a letter…

then, one day i just went to her sis’s house and got her no. from there…
i sent her some angry messages…
she recogniged me…
and then she called…
she cried…said she was sorry…told me that she loves me… she said that she wanted to call me but didn’t have the courage to do so…

these 2 years messed me up…
i was thinking that talking to her would make it okay…

but it’s got worse…
hurts like hell all the time…
what’s wrong with me…

i don’t know her…
i never did…

she’s got a bf now…
she’s been having a lot of fun…

then, why was i making my life hell??
what’s wrong with me…
it was her mistake…
she was supposed to call me if she was feeling sorry…

y did i call her??

i wanna hurt her bad…real bad…..!!!
but i’m such an idiot…
i love her so much…

I recently ran into an old friend. We never dated because the timing was never right — I was in a relationship when he was single, he was married when I was single. Now he’s single again, and I am happily married with three kids. The problem? I can’t stop thinking about him.

I know I should put my energy into my marriage instead (My husband is wonderful, handsome, successful and famous), yet all I can think about is my old friend…both sexual and just plain romantic fantasies. I wish I were single so we could just go to the movies, or on a drive together. I keep thinking of ways to run into him again.

I know I need to stop this foolishness. I feel guilty, but I can seem to stop the daydreaming…

I’ve been very close with a friend of mine for over a decade, now. It’s actually the epitome of what a “best friendship” is. Because of that, when he started dating this girl, I expressed my reservations but was very supportive of him in every way. Eventually, they got married and I’ve always been very sweet to her and never express anything to either of them.

But I can’t deny the truth that everything about her bothers me more and more. From the irrational behaviour and beliefs, to the general white-trashy attitude, to the idiotic certitude in the face of overwhelming evidence to contrary positions.

I don’t know what to do.