Fear

My husband really wants a child, but I really hate pain – seriously, I panic even if I cut my finger on a paper. I feel nausea when I see a single drop of blood. I’m really afraid of giving birth, and I tried to tell him, but he just wouldn’t understand. We’ve (or, rather he has) been trying for a whole year now. The … Continue reading Fear

Worse

I hate this.. I’m losing control of my emotions, my rage is overwhelming any other feeling in my body. I used to be scared of myself, scared of my thoughts but now, I don’t even feel it anymore. I used to be disturbed by my dreams and wants but they don’t even phase me anymore.. I just want to be normal but my mind won’t … Continue reading Worse