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how do i tell them?

How do I tell my family and friends im bisexual? Im scared of what they will think

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Ms.Unknown on October 31st 2008 in Fear

scared of intimacy

The idea of having sex really scares me…my friends tell me how beautiful i am, but when i look in the mirror all i want is to look like someone else…

how could anyone love me or bear to look at me naked when i cant like my own face!

perhaps its because i was fostered and adopted lots of times that i cant learn to love myself….how can i when so many of my ‘parents’ couldnt bring themselves to love me?

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anonymous on October 21st 2008 in Fear

Lost

So here I am 25 yrs old fresh out of college with “the world at my feet” so to speak. Yet as much as i realize that I am blessed to be where i am i feel like a failure and i feel more than anything alone. I feel completely overwhelmed at the thought of having to repay these student loans which i resent having because I blame my lack of a proper support system for having to take out the loans in the first place. I feel frustrated because I worry that I will never marry or have a child or buy a home. I worry that I will spend the rest of my life living paycheck to paycheck. Worst of all though is the alone feeling the feeling that if i disappeared no one would realize it. Family that is to screwed up to care, friends who are to absorbed in their own lives to call. And a boyfriend who suffers from his own traumas, I dont want to be a burden but I am tired of feeling alone and I am at a breaking point. I would never hurt myself because I realize the senselesness in that, but I just need to somehow get myself back on track before i lose it.

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Anonymous on October 20th 2008 in Fear

I Think I Might Be Pregnant

i think i might be pregnant.
I’m a 17 year old roman catholic.
My gran would disown me. So would my dad.
I don’t know who i have to hold my hand while i make the decisions to get myself through this.
The condom broke; a mistake, an accident that couldn’t have been averted. But i still feel dirty. And I still feel like it’s my fault.
I live in Dubai, where there are no abortion clinics or contraceptives due to them both being against Islam. Nobody knows. I feel like the only person in the world.

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Kelly on October 18th 2008 in Fear

Darkness

I hate that I’m afraid of the dark. I’m 32.

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Anon on August 2nd 2008 in Fear

oh god.

i have always wanted a kid, but recently i am single and i had sex with someone that was a one night stand after breaking up with my bf…now im worried i may be pregnant. im about to take a test but it might be too soon. i always said i would never abort, but if i am, i most likely will. i dont wan tto be that girl who doesnt know who the father of her child is.

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distressed on July 19th 2008 in Fear

HELP

i have been lying to everyone at work they all think i am married to some rich guy when really i’mnot i’m in alot of debt and stay at home i just wanT everyOne to like me
i have no friends and that’s sad people are fRIENDLY to me but never invite me out all i wanT is a true friend i have a GREAT BOYFRIEND HE LOVES ME BUT THIS LIE I TOLD
I HAVE TO KEEP UP WITH IT EVERYDAY WHY DID I DO IT I HATE MYSELF I LIVE IN A FANTASY WORLD THAT I INVENTED TO ESCAPE MY LIES

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ANONYMOUS on July 11th 2008 in Fear

I’m scared

I’m scared to even type a real confession. I spend my life and career listening to others’ deepest secrets and fears, but I’m too ashamed to share my own.

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Anonymous on July 6th 2008 in Fear

Cutting…

I used to cut myself… I am trying not to do it but its really hard not to. Mainly because of all the pressure that has been put on me. And I hate where I live b/c my mom and stepdad. My dad moved away from me about 5 years ago and he is the best thing to me and my bf whom I love so very much is moving away in about 3 or 4 months. I am afraid I might start cutting myself again. The guys at my school aren’t making it any easier on me…. I fear cutting again but I don’t think I will beable to stop myself from it. I don’t know what I am going to do…

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FearedofCutting on June 24th 2008 in Fear

Accident

I accidentally hit a car in a parking lot and drove away.

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anonymous on June 13th 2008 in Fear

money problems

Im so mad that I cant do anything about all the money problems in my house I hate how my mom wont use common sense when I tell her dont but that I have how no one wants to use common sense im 16 and im scared something bad will happen soon

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scared on May 6th 2008 in Fear

Uncertainty

I’m gay and I feel so awkward in discussions about the immutability of sexuality. Everyone expects me to say that I’ve been gay as long as I can remember, and I feel like I’d be betraying other gay people if I told the truth that I vividly remember being totally straight as a child.

My greatest fear about coming out of the closet in real life is that I might find myself straight again once I do. I often wonder if I can ever find satisfaction.

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Anonymous on April 10th 2008 in Fear

plz answwwer iwill suicde

iam feeling depreeseed iam 14 years old girl and always my bro keep having sex with me atnigh….whatishould doicant tell anyooooonnnee plz answeer me and my mom is treating me like a dog and treat my bro better although i didnt do anything wrong like when i teell heriwant new cloth she tells me no u r a dog andnot girl to have clothim sooo depressed by what she is doiinnngg iwill kiill my sellllfffff

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depressed on March 21st 2008 in Fear

So scared.

My dear friend of many years, who I’ve known over the internet, is coming to visit me for the first time next week. Last night we had phone sex; the anticipation is too much. I recently got out of a really bad relationship of five years. I feel like his coming down to meet me after all these years is going to determine whether I really feel what I feel for him or not, or if it’s just a fantasy. I want him. But I don’t want to ruin the friendship or seem like I’m on the rebound. I’m scared that others will think I’m wanting to do this way too soon. I’ve kept in contact with him throughout my previous relationship. I want him. Badly. But I am so scared.

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anon on March 7th 2008 in Fear

I love her..

I just love my girlfriend, but everyday i’m afraid that she cheats on me.. I feel obsessed with such negative thoughts.. Sometimes i feel that the fact that i’m not a man will make her feel some thing missing.. But now its been like more than a year we’ve together, and i say that she could have had ample time to realise it..
I just love her… she makes me feel so good..

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Aristophane on March 6th 2008 in Fear