Secret Confessions

I used to cut myself… I am trying not to do it but its really hard not to. Mainly because of all the pressure that has been put on me. And I hate where I live b/c my mom and stepdad. My dad moved away from me about 5 years ago and he is the best thing to me and my bf whom I love so very much is moving away in about 3 or 4 months. I am afraid I might start cutting myself again. The guys at my school aren’t making it any easier on me…. I fear cutting again but I don’t think I will beable to stop myself from it. I don’t know what I am going to do…

I accidentally hit a car in a parking lot and drove away.

Im so mad that I cant do anything about all the money problems in my house I hate how my mom wont use common sense when I tell her dont but that I have how no one wants to use common sense im 16 and im scared something bad will happen soon

I’m gay and I feel so awkward in discussions about the immutability of sexuality. Everyone expects me to say that I’ve been gay as long as I can remember, and I feel like I’d be betraying other gay people if I told the truth that I vividly remember being totally straight as a child.

My greatest fear about coming out of the closet in real life is that I might find myself straight again once I do. I often wonder if I can ever find satisfaction.

iam feeling depreeseed iam 14 years old girl and always my bro keep having sex with me atnigh….whatishould doicant tell anyooooonnnee plz answeer me and my mom is treating me like a dog and treat my bro better although i didnt do anything wrong like when i teell heriwant new cloth she tells me no u r a dog andnot girl to have clothim sooo depressed by what she is doiinnngg iwill kiill my sellllfffff

My dear friend of many years, who I’ve known over the internet, is coming to visit me for the first time next week. Last night we had phone sex; the anticipation is too much. I recently got out of a really bad relationship of five years. I feel like his coming down to meet me after all these years is going to determine whether I really feel what I feel for him or not, or if it’s just a fantasy. I want him. But I don’t want to ruin the friendship or seem like I’m on the rebound. I’m scared that others will think I’m wanting to do this way too soon. I’ve kept in contact with him throughout my previous relationship. I want him. Badly. But I am so scared.

I just love my girlfriend, but everyday i’m afraid that she cheats on me.. I feel obsessed with such negative thoughts.. Sometimes i feel that the fact that i’m not a man will make her feel some thing missing.. But now its been like more than a year we’ve together, and i say that she could have had ample time to realise it..
I just love her… she makes me feel so good..

Yesterday, I overdosed on vitamins and almost killed myself.
and the scariest thing: I’m not glad to be alive.

I used to say that ’suicide is not the answer’ but after every thing that’s happened over the past year… I’m not so sure anymore. Yeah, I’m terrified of dying but it just seems like the only opition left.

No one knows about this except for my best friend and she lives in a different country.

My favorite band and best friend are the only things keeping me alive at the moment.

I know how cliche this sounds but no one really gets it. I hate myself beyond belief and I’m 99% sure I can’t get into any sixth form and my life and all the dreams will be ruined.

suicide just seems so appealing right now. Sometimes, I wish I didn’t have those two things keeping me here so that it would be easier to go.

I’m 17 yr old girl and I am attracted to girls. I don’t like to refer to myself as a lesbian or gay. I am a virgin but I just would prefer to be with the girl that I work with over a guy. I’m just not attracted to them. Everyone knows she likes me but I deny being a lesbian. But I never say that I do not like her. I actually think I love her. She is amazing. I mean we flirt around all of the time. There was even an instance where I wanted to kiss her, but I couldn’t find the courage. I believe that she knows that I like her, but I don’t think she will say anything until I admit it.
I also have this fear of my family. They are strictly against any form of homosexuality. My sister would literally try to kill me. She has said it jokingly, but I know that she means it. She thinks that it is disgusting. My mother and grandmother would probably try to pray the demons of homosexuality out of me! It kills me to know that I “will” be disowned if I ever pursue this relationship. I just want to be with her.

I have an eating disorder, Ive managed to keep it from all my friends and family and I even have a secert myspace I use to recieve pro ana tips and talk to other ana’s it scares me though. And IM really afraid of someone finding out.

i have been with my boyfriend for nearly 7 months, and it is my longest relationship by far, but since august he has been in hong kong for a gap year. i managed to raise the money to go see him for 2 weeks, and im going in about 5 weeks
but i get irrationally scared sometimes
the past 3 months have been so hard already, and recently we nearly broke up because we kept arguing, but we solved it the day after luckily
i get scared because if these 3 months have been this hard, what about when i come home and have to be away from him for another 7/8 months - over twice the time ive struggled though to date
and i get scared that it will changed him. hes in the year group above me so im doing my last year at college - high school for american readers - living with my mum, without a job etc, hes working nearly everyday, in a foreign country with completley different cultures

im afraid that when he comes back he will be a grown up while i’ll still be a child

im afraid that he’ll outgrow me

im afraid he’ll change his mind and find my immatureness annoying instead of cute

im afraid he’ll stop loving me and leave me

im afraid i’ll end up like my mother, alone and unloved at 45

i need his love to be happy
i need his love to survive
i was so close to hurting myself when we nearly ended. i dont want to find out what’ll happen if we do end

i love him so much it phsyically hurts sometimes

I’m pregnant and I’m scared. I never ever wanted kids and this kid was not planned. I have not told anyone. I hate that I’m scared to tell someone. My mom will be dissappoted in me and I don’t want that. Im afraid that I’ll grow to hate this kid because I dont want him/her, but I can’t bring myself to get a abortion.

ME AND MY FAILY ARE GONNA BE MOVIN TO TEXAS END OF NEXT SUMMER AND IM SCARED BECAUSE IVE HEARD SO MUCH NEGATIVE INFO AND I DONT KNO WERE OUT THERE IS SAFE TO MOVE TO BUT WE HAVE TO MAKE THIS MOVE THIS IS THE AREA WE CAN ONLY AFFORD WHAT SHOULD I DO I DONT WANA BE AROUND ANY VIOLENCE

I’m afraid I may be a gay.
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