Secret Confessions

I want to humiliate my uncle, one who comes next to my father, in front of other family members, publicly till he starts hating himself. The thought of killing him had also crossed my mind at times, after a long drawn-out session of torture but just humiliating him enough so that he is not able to see me eye to eye ever again is sufficient, and to live with that humiliation for the rest of his life would give me immense satisfaction

I wish you would just give up your rights as a parent… All you do is lie to our children on the phone saying your going to come get them and you never do come.

I hate you and I bet our youngest will to, she doesnt even know who you are.

Sometimes I wish you would fall off of a tower when your at work, atleast then the girls would get social security. Because your a deadbeat and dont pay child support.

I HATE you hate hate hate hate hate hate HATE you. I want to punch you in the face, I want to light you on fire!

You are a worthless peice of crap, how could you cheat on your pregnant girlfriend while she is on bedrest? I almost DIED having your child and you abandoned us… I bet you wanted me to die.

Why can’t you just give up your rights so we can all move on and be happy now?

You suck. I hope you develop erectile dsyfunction.

i constantly have dreams where my brother and i are in a sexual situation. it disgusts me but i dont know why i have them

My mother’s birthday was last month and that day all the family had a good time together.
When sleep time came, i wasn’t sleepy cuz i had drank lots of coffee, so i just lyed on my bed.
After more or less 1 hour i started hearing noises like sighs or moans, so i got afraid. Then i heard my father’s voice whispering something and my mother’s giggles. Right after that, their door was closed, but i could still hear everything that was going on there…
I know that they are married and they can do whatever they want to, but still i feel so unconfortable when i’m with them…
Now, I think they are noticing that i’m acting different toward them and I don’t want to tell them anything about what I heard…

i am 19 yrs old. one night i woke up from something very..well..i felt something on my bare foot but could not figure out what it was..(did not want to move cuz it was the middle of the night) well turns out that it was my brother (17)..he was rubbing his penis on me. i didnt know what to do. i just laid there until he eventually went back to his room(he didnt know i woke up).i cant tell my mom because i think of what kind of effect this will have on her and the rest of the family. i cant tell my bf for obviousw reasons..he comes into my room at nights,sometimes i wake up, and i dont do anything. ill pull my foot away and act as if i am waking up so he can run back to his room. i hate him for it. how can he do this to me? during the day he acts like nothing but at night.. i just dont know what to do. im scared. i act as if everything is ok i have conversations with him as if i have no idea what is going on but i am well aware. i feel as if i am living a twisted life with this deep dark secret that i can never tell anyone about..ever. i just..really dont know what to do. what does this mean? is he some kind of pervert that will lead a secret life and eventually go on to hurt other people? or is he just a curious virgin who wants to know what it feels like to rub on someone. the latter is what id like to believe just to give my lil brother the benefit of the doubt..but im scared of the first. im scared if i dont do anything about this he will get worse and do things to other ppl. but im scared of telling my parents because of what could happen..im scared this will haunt me for the rest of my life. i just dont know what to do

oh god where to begin! i was born in a middle class family where my mom worked all day to make ends meet. my dad being a very strikt teacher, always stayed at home and we led a millitary life. we were locked in our house all day, except for schools,as our parents were outside. so, mixing with our neighbours and having a regular chilhood was out of the question. we went to school but as i was shy, i made a few friends. after graduation i married the boy next door and my parents were strictly against it. i had to go through a lot of turmoil to get them to agree. finally after 7 years of dating, i married my beloved. we have two kids and every thing was right but last year he told me that he slept with a hooker. he begged forgiveness but i had no other chioce but to forgive him. after that he has gone through many psychological problems and sleeps seperately. he claims that he has back ache but the doctors found nothing. so, here i am ,sleeping in the other room with my two kids for the last 4 years. i feel cheated an stabbed in the back. i feel really tempted to cheat on him but i could not. i tried to cheat but the touch of another man touching me feels yucky. he also stays aloof saying he is sick. i am sooo alone. i feel like the only parent to my children.i feel like running far away from him.

I swear if I stay here for one more week I’ll go completely insane. See my boyfriend thought it would be a ‘good idea’ to come and visit my mother, I told him time and time again that I didn’t think it would be a good idea; I mean don’t get me wrong it’s not that I don’t love my mother but I moved away to a whole new country for a reason, it’s just a bit impossible to live with the women she’s always butting in and is always trying to boss me around. Well even though I didn’t want to at the end I gave in and now where here at my mothers house we’ve been here for only a week and I already want to leave but we had promised her that we would stay for two weeks… well now he sees his mistake and keeps telling me that he can’t wait till we’re gone so I guess this occasion calls for an “I told you so”. I just can’t wait till I’m able to leave, It’s just that me and my mothers relationship works better at long distance.

My mom and her chipper-ness and exuberance annoys me. Sometimes she’s my best friend.

My dad is an alcoholic and smokes even though he knows that my mom and me absolutely HATE it when he does.

My aunts are clueless

I pretend to like my grandmother

My grandfather (I) is a retired teacher and most likely knows more than I do education-wise but everybody knows when he has no CLUE what he’s talking about and I feel embarrassed for him

My other grandfather is a FLIRT in every possible way. He sleeps with this married chick half his age and everyone in the family, even a couple 8-year olds know it

And I’m obnoxious. I admit it.

YEARS AGO I LOST MY SISTER SHE WAS BRUTIALLY MURDERED IVE ALWAYS SRUGGLED TO MOVE ON 22 YEARS HAS PASSED YET IT STILL FEELS LIKE IT WAS JUST YESTERDAY! I HAVENT TALKED WITH IT TO MY FAMILY BECAUSE ITS REALLY JUST BEEN NEVER DISCUSSED ITS ONE OF THOSE ISSUES OF BRINGING UP A TRAGIC EVENT HOWEVER I STILL FEEL SO MUCH SADNESS AND LOSS.

I cannot forgive you for the places you sent me when I was young just so you didnt have to deal with the “PROBLEM CHILD” You sent me away like a dirty sack of laundry!! You told everyone I was a uncontrollable teenager. The truth was, I dated BLACK MEN and you hated me for it!! You let your husband push me out of the house, he called me names, he treated my younger sister so much better then me. I was the outcast!! ANd still am!! Your husband heard me on the phone late one nite talking to a friend of mine He said I called you a bitch, Truth is I probably did!! He tells you what I have done and u take me to the bus station and buy me a ticket to my friends house and you leave me there…..all b/c I called you a bitch!! I was 17. You gave up custody of me when I was 15 to the state ..you signed a finns petition…you said I was unstable….. U sent me to live in Foster care!! You sent me to Rivendale(Rivenhell) all b/c you cldnt contol the fact I was dating black men!! I never did drugs ….I never drank….I just had BAD TASTE IN MEN…..so u sent me away!! And now iam 31 and you still treat me like I am the worst person in the world..u judge me…critisize me…..say iam not a good parent..and I still want ur approval!! At the same time I hate you for making me the nontrusting person that I am today, the person who hides behind her laughter!! The person that has a hard time even CRYING b/c she cldnt show her emotions around you and supressed them for so long that its hard to be this soft person that I want to be, and I hate myself!! Its affected my relationships with my friends and relationships Ive had with men!! Even My daugher will suffer b/c of the person I am inside…

About six month ago I really hate my mother and I really wish she would die soon, sometimes I want to kill her by my self.

But now….. something change and we go along great.

I really wish it stay that way.

WHEN MY FATHER WAS A YOUNG MAN HE WENT OUT & GOT SEVERAL WOMEN PREGNANT I WANTED TO KNOW MY SIBLINGS WHEN THEY WERE YOUNGER NOW
I DON’T IM 32 & COULD CARE LESS TO KNOW
THEM AM I WRONG ????

im 17 an bi sexual. some people accept me for me, but there is one person who hates me for telling him i am bi. that is my father he is not into god either he just hates me. my 18 year old sister can be bi but i can’t. what is he gonna do if my baby sister is bi. hate her to. why can’t he love me for me. instead i ruined his life when i found out i was prego at age 15.(the first and last time i had sex.) all i know is that he hates me and wants absplutly nothing to do with me and i think it is bull shit. some one tell me what to do please.:( :(

My parents were missionaries. My dad is a pastor. They’re supposed to be good people. I wonder what my church would say if I let them know that my dad has broken three of my ribs, two of my teeth, and given me a concussion. I hate smiling during his sermons like a hypocrite. I hate him. I hate that I hate him. I wish I had the strength to forgive but I can’t. I hate who he’s made me.

i know this sounds like i’m whining
but i’m 31 and i support my whole family
no one ever says thank you i work at night which is even more stressful there are 2 other able bodied adults whom could work i don’t care where burger king mcdonalds at least help me but they don’t I ‘m treated like an outsider I often stay in my room
alone they never tell me anything until it’s too late I moved back in to help out
I love my family but if i knew this was gonna happen I would have kept my apartment
they have no idea how upset i feel and if i try to express my feelings they make me feel guilty Im so stressed and tired I on meds for depression and anxiety I know there has got to be something better I do have a loving boyfriend and his family adores meand they don’t under stand why i put up with this i don’t know I just wish I knew what to do any suggestions