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    my transition

    I came out to my mom as trans two weeks before i tried to take my own life.

    I told her in my suicide note that one of the reasons i wanted to do such a thing, is because she didn’t accept me.

    When I woke up five days later, her opinion magically changed.

    It breaks me knowing the only reason she accepts me, is because shes afraid i might hurt myself.

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    I want out…

    I wish I wasn’t a parent. I wish I had not given in to my wife when she insisted on having a child. I wish I had big enough balls to take the possible consequences of that. I wish I had not agreed to a second child. I wish I could walk away but I’m not a deadbeat so I won’t.

    I am very unhappy with my life.

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    My Mothers scent

    My Mother died ten years Ago. I’ve kept her perfume and used it when i needed to feel close to her, to cry and feel like she’s right there.

    I opened the bottle for the first time in a long, long time today.

    But now i felt like the scent is mine. That it’s My perfume to wear.

     

    I cant decide between feeling like i’m stealing it from her, Stealing One of her most prominent memories, her Signature.

    Or am i honoring her, keeping her Close with me in My daily life. Integreating My sorrow and her memory into me. Carrying her Close, charing her with others around me.

     

    I dont know, honor or betrayal?

    Will the memory of her in the scent fade if i start using it?

     

    Is it wierd to want to smell like your dead Mother?

     

    I feel so very sad and confused.

    And i miss her so much.

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    B on the way

    I’m a teacher, since the pandemic I’ve been struggling financially. I have a 10 month old and another on the way. This year I started hustling, just edibles nothing too hardcore. I’m leaving for atlanta next year since my partner and I can’t afford another baby here and the risk of going to jail is just too much. I feel like I’m abandoning my family but I dont know what else to do since I havent even been paid this year. I feel that ever since the pandemic started my life has just been going in a downward spiral, I’ve lost control of everything. It’s like I’m screaming at the top of my lungs and nobody can hear me. Like I’m drowning in a tiny room that’s getting smaller and smaller with the roof about to fall onto me. I must admit that I’ve gotten the urge to just run as fast as I can till my legs won’t move and I collapse from exhaustion.

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    lost connection

    Honestly i am i dont like myself  i have half sibling to my mom and they have a great father which is my step dad tbh i am jealous at my sister because she got everything what she got she have a loving father and a great life i always get jealous that she grow up with a dad while me i never grow up with my mom because i grow up with my auntie while mom was working in abroad i hated myself becouse my sister have a high grade while me i can’t even algebra it was long ago when i heard mom  telling me that “she’s proud of me” thb i feel like i lost my connection to my mom and to my father and i even randomly cry at the middle of the nigh remembering how my father left because he choose his family plus dad is already married to someone i get it why dad chose his family but its killing me

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    Advice on sisters 65 yr old bf

    Ok I hope this doesn’t get too confusing but I seriously need advice please. My 25 year old sister who has 4 kids just moved her 65 year old bf into her house. This is hard to digest in itself but especially because this has been going on for over 10 years, which means he’s been grooming her since she was 14. So in my eyes she’s just moved a pedophile into her home with her children. I’ve known about this man for awhile but he’s been married for 40 years. Never in a million years did I think he’d actually leave his wife. So now that he has, my only concern is the children. The oldest is 7 and youngest is 4 months. I keep the baby about half the time. That’s just how it’s been, I love her to death but now with this man there, I’m finding it extremely difficult to send the baby back home. My dad is outraged, wants all of her kids out of the home and said I need to just keep the baby, never take her home. My dad will take the oldest and the middle two will go to their dad. Now, even though she’s been with him for 10 years, none of the kids are his since he’s unable to have children of his own. So he has no right to any of them. Up until 6 weeks ago me and my sister were talking all day every day then she just suddenly stopped and I didn’t know why until I showed up at her house last night and he was there. It was the most awkward thing ever and I felt disgusted every time I saw him touch one of the kids . The 7 year old girl has already been molested at 3 years old so I’m so very worried about her as well. I just don’t know what to do, how to approach it with my sister, if I really should just keep the baby like my dad wants me to, if I even have any right to since he’s never been charged. Another thing is he has a niece who accused him of molesting her since she was a little girl but she never pressed charges. Any insight is appreciated. Advice?

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    Life Is Terrible

    So, I’m 21, and I’m disabled and I still live with my parents. And I have 1 older brother who I love dearly who is married & moved out.

    And he has a child. 

    And sometimes I wish I could’ve been like him. Mental illness sucks. And I have it, and it makes sad I never finished high school or went to homecoming or prom. And I know that sounds silly. But who cares. I just wish I didn’t have to be on meds, or that I could live on my own or but no, I’m useless. Despite my love for my parents. I sometimes hate the fact I’m stuck with them. I would love if I could be with my parents but also be on my own. But that’s not possible.

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    Newborn brother

    FYI: I’m a female, in my middle teens.

    My mother is many times divorced and she started dating my step-dad last summer. Everything was very sudden – they got married in spring and told me that they’re expecting a child. That came as a big shock to me.

    (FYI: I already have a sister, few years younger than me.)

    My parents have asked me before they were expecting: Would I like another sibling? I said a hard “no”. The reason is, I have spent my childhood and early teen years babysitting my little sister. I have never liked children and I couldn’t imagine having another sibling.

    Early this year, they announced that they are expecting. They told me that they wanted a child because a) My mom wanted a son, b) My step-dad did not have any children. I was shocked and did not want to have another sibling – one was more than enough for me. My parents even asked me whether they should keep the baby. I really wanted to say ‘no’, but I knew that they would hate me forever. So i just plainly agreed.

    Fast forward today. The child is due fall. I really don’t want this new child. I can’t do anything about it. I know I will never be able to love my brother because of many reasons. a) It is a boy, and I really, like  really don’t want a brother. b) I know that my sister will have to give up her teen years to babysit this child like I did and I will never forgive my mother. c) I never wanted this child – my parents were so quick in their relationship. If they had waited a little bit, I probably would accept this child, but I will never be able to.

    Thankfully, I will move out in a few years. Do you have any ideas to help me cope with this child? I won’t accept him, but the least I can do, is cope with him.