aliens

The first time i was taken i was 9, back then it was a huge shock to me becuase it was simply traumatic. but now i feel content about it. wether people like to admit it or not. This universe is vast in size more planets galaxies and stars that you could ever imagine. and out of the billions of years it has existed i know its perfectly reasonable to say other beings are out there, some are way more advanced than this planet. 2 people can still be human but completly different . there are bad people and good. and its the same with them. there are the bullies murderers and sick minded. and then there are the gentle kind and understanding that wouldnt harm anyone . being abducted is to much of a poweful word. depending on the situation. most of the governments like the America, England and Russia are the main ones in this situation. all of them met with an alien craft in nevada. becuase american intelligence recieved a binary code that could be converted into language with notification of a meeting to discuss an alliance. and mainly appeasment becuase of many of the crafts that earth has shot down. they would help us bring humanity to piece and help us technologicly if we would give up our nuclear arms. becuase humans are childish and not capable of weilding weapons with out killing each other. after all it is what were famous for. But our governments disagreed and came to another understanding. if they were given permission to take humans for medical research becuase of there Reproduction problems they have that i know millions of years of dependancy on technoligy caused and if they returned the humand safly and unaware of what happend. in return they would help us technologicly. But humans are not changing . there not listning, the only way forward as a free upstanding powerfull race is if we stop all the killing of eachother. like i said at the start since i was taken as a child and have been taken on an average once a month. some months skipping. im trusted by them . and they are more peacful and beautiful than you could ever imagine. we really do need there help in bringing humanity peace. but it cant be done with out people helping. they cant do anything without the worlds nuclear weapons still at the governments disposal . they are more willing to kill all of us . than be helped. And they are only in power becuase we let them be. there will be an upcoming party election in britain for nuclear dissarmourment in about 3 years. i havnt heard news on america just yet . but im sure the same wil be happening. this resistence is real and will bring human kind above its petty problems. So please keep an open mind. and look up to the skies. were closer related to them than you realise . they have helped me more and are more of a family than anyone in my life and ive never felt more at home. thanks.

Does it make me less of a woman?

I’m 29, happily married, happily teaching grade one, settled down, at the point where everyone is expecting me to have a baby. But I don’t want to have kids. But how can I go around saying that? Everyone will judge me, thinking I’m a terrible person. Also, it will upset my parents and in-laws. It’s not that I don’t love kids (obviously, since I teach grade one), I don’t know if I’m mentally healthy enough. I have an eating disorder, and I suffer from depression. But I can’t go around telling people all that, now can I? Also, I love my freedom. I want to see the world, live in other countries. I don’t want to be settled down in a small prairie town, toting my three kids off to soccer practice. Am I a bad person?

Selfish Thoughts

I have a great husband and three beautiful children. Sometimes I want to go back to being single and child free. The worst part is I went away for a week not that long ago and didn’t miss them much….

And I’m not the only one…

I don’t believe my stepson is my husband’s biological child.

They look nothing alike. And there is a family “joke” going around that my stepson was really fathered by my husband’s 2nd cousin – as they favor each other so much. (This joke is not very funny, especially when you take into account all the flirting that goes on between the ex-wife and the cousin, even though they are both married to other people.)

Even as a baby, my stepson has never even had a glimmer of resemblance to my husband. But did he look like the cousin? SPITTING IMAGE.

My husband’s ex wife is not totally stable, and I would not put it past her to have cheated.

I feel like a terrible person because I love my stepson with all my heart. I love my husband with all my heart. But the snide remarks are too much. I want to know for sure.

But then…what would I do if I found out that he isn’t my husband’s child?

I’m only a child…. Do I deserve this?

I’ve tried to tell my mother about the abuse i’ve suffered for years but she only tells me to shut up and stop being stupid. So many times she’s seen it firsthand from my grandmother to me, but she tells me that I deserve it anyway. I’m not brave enough to tell anyone and when people ask me where I get some bruises, I tell them it was from roughhousing at dancing school. When I see all my scars all over me, I can remember every time she hurt me. She has tried to kill me a couple times, cutting a vein on my hand with a piece of glass, or when she would hold my head under the water until I stopped screaming. I have nobody to turn to. I wish I had the courage to tell someone that will actually believe me.

screw up

i believe that im the sole reason of anything bad in my life. i can screw up the best situation so fast. im sure im the reason my marriage is having problems cause i cant let things go. im such an idiot.

Horrible

I heard my mother having sex with her boyfriend.

sad state of the past

my mother died when i was 12 she hung her self in the shower cubical in hospital after being admitted after a car crash including myself,it was deliberate .
My uncle hung himself a yr. before after a drunken fight with his girlfriend ,she found him hanging in the shed , she thought he had gone for a walk to cool things off.

there father ( my grandfather) raped the both of them from age 3 to 16 , my mother fell pregnant to him and naturally aborted she did not know until she found the baby ( the size of palm ) in the toilet bowel .

heavy i know but true .

Dear Auntie:

I think you are a selfish, biased, ungrateful, rude, hypocritical bitch. I do not like you now, and cannot remember doing so in the past. The friendship boat has sailed for you and I, and indeed is not coming back. You know me as well as you know the queen of England, yet you have somehow taken it upon yourself to try and identify who I am as a person. You do not understand me, nor I do understand you (except the fact that you breathe complaints). If you had not had children with my uncle, I would most certainly approve of a divorce, because I have never liked the idea of you being relate to me. What kind of family member tells a suicidal person to get over it, because “the world isn’t going to wait for you”? What kind of family member ignores, disrespects, and walks all over another family member? No “family” member of mine that’s what. You treat me as if I am an invisible, second class citizen, and if I were to never see you again after today, I would sleep in peace.

Girl on the inside

yes. i accepted that years ago which he told me, but what i couldn’t stand is his self-centeredness and his no care attitude in this house!

i want to tell you all the details, but i prefer not.

there are times i want to take a slight revenge of his attitude. he becomes SO NICE when he asks favor from me or when he is together with his “friends”, but can become SO GROUCHY and MOODY the next when he is here at home. (obviously, he is much more happier with them.)

one day, he’s have to tell the whole family about his secret. he’ll breakout. he’s already 20+ and he still thinks he can fool other people easily why he still didn’t have a girlfriend.

i didn’t know what i did. i try to give him a warm smile whenever he comes home and stuff. but it all fails.

why can’t he just tell our parents that he wants to move since he has a job? all his money are spent on his “friends” anyway. he couldn’t even spend a penny in this house, unless you try to sweet talk him.

lots of people have a slight hint he’s gay! all they need now is that confirmation from him that he is a girl on the inside.

I love my kids but hate my life since being a mom.

I have dedicated my life to being a good mom since having my three boys. They are all very strong willed which makes keeping behaviour very challenging. No one would understand this if they have compliant children. This temperament is something they are born with and it is not derived from parenting. No one understands this and when they see three unruly boys, I am automatically blamed as a poor parent. I have been given parenting tips from moms who have one child and it is a girl. I have always done my best to overachieve in life and accomplish really good results. I have tried many different strategies and doctors and I just can’t seem to make it better for our home. They are really rambunctious boys. I am beside myself. I at many times think that I hate being a mom, but I love my kids. And yes, I have seen a doctor and I am on antidepressants.

I Miss Myself

I have a beautiful baby girl, another baby on the way, a wonderful husband and I am somehow miserable. I love them dearly but I miss my old self. I miss being on my own, independent with no one depending on me. I feel ashamed to be unhappy.