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I Want To Go Anorexic

Posted by in Confused on Jan 24th, 2010 | 16 comments

I hate my body, and I haven’t found any other way to lose weight. Every day after I eat I want to go and throw it up. I’ve been trying to go anorexic but I dont want my parents to find out, or my friends. Im 13 going on 14, our teachers are going really heavy on trying to teach us how bad it is to get that disorder. But I want it, wish I had it. Then kids wouldn’t make fun of me. I wish I knew how I would feel and react after purging becuase I dont want to deal with the guilt of what I would be doing, but I think Im just going to do it. And get it over with.

Raped

Posted by in Confused on Jan 23rd, 2010 | 8 comments

I was raped over two years ago and I was a virgin at the time. I am having a hard time getting over it.

Confused

Posted by in Confused on Jan 14th, 2010 | 3 comments

My boyfriend and i have just recently broken up (around 2 months ago) anyway he got a new girlfriend a month after that. and of couse i was heart broken and i missed him so much i even did so much to try and get him back. but he was still a good friend and we never hated eachother. so i decided that id just try to just be his bestfriend and nothing more. he came over to my house a couple of times even while he was with the other girl. and on the 2nd visit we did stuff. he said he missed me and well things just happened. and i like it and he does too. but is it wrong? well now he’s broken up with his girlfriend and were both single. and he’s been over alot and we’ve done alot together but i dont think he wants to get together with me. so i thought but us always “doing stuff” to eachother that this would help us but i dont know anymore. so today i made a big decision to tell him that i dont want us to “do stuff” while he’s over anymore because it was hurting me. and it does, it makes me miss him so much and saddens me that we’re not together. i dont know what will happen next, but i hope it turns out ok and that my decision doesnt affect our friendship.

I’m in love with a man nearly twice my age

Posted by in Confused on Jan 11th, 2010 | 29 comments

I’ve known him for 5 maybe 6 years. What started out as a friendship has grown in something completely unexpected. But the fact that we are about 24 years apart is disturbing to most people. It’s ok with me because when I am with him the age just doesn’t seem to be an issue. We have so much fun and are perfect for each other. The age difference keeps me from telling about him to other people because I don’t want to deal with the reaction they will have. My closest friends know about him and have accepted it without question but I can’t make new friends without keeping this a secret. He’s my parents’ age but he looks a lot younger so when they see him they don’t think about it too much. But if they don’t know him and ask me questions, I always feel like I have to lie about everything. Over time I have gotten comfortable about it but I am still not as comfortable as he is. He has kids that know and like me. I have had a lot of getting used to but I am still embarrassed that people are telling me I can “do better”. I wonder if I am attractive enough for a guy my age? But even if I could, I don’t want to be with anyone else but him. I am just so confused.

Dreams (Good or Bad) ??????

Posted by in Confused on Jan 8th, 2010 | 3 comments

I am sure i’m straght because the thought of being with a guy just makes me feel amazeing and I have a crush on a boy at school.
But lately I been havein dreames about this girl at school In the year below. I know she is straight as she has a boyfriend In my year.
I really do like guys but everytime I see her I get the same kind of feeling about her as I do with guys. When we sit near each other to chat with friends I cant help but think about her in my dreams which get weirder and stranger everytime I have one.
After these dreams I cant help but think about her and about how fucked up I am.
when the dreams first started I bearly even knew who she was I bearly knew she exsited.
I’m 17 and think i should be beond the age of silly dreams but in some way i am disapointed when i have a night without them.

Im so confused abuot what to think
I dont know what is going on in my own head
please someone hlpe me!!

I’m going to hell

Posted by in Confused on Jan 8th, 2010 | 3 comments

I’ve been playing with someone’s feelings. This person thinks he loves me and I love him. I don’t feel anything for him. I’m only having fun. I know it’s wrong but it’s very addictive. I’ve tried to stop but I can’t and he’s so infauted. I don’t feel guilty but I feel like I should.

Carreer vs. Pleasure

Posted by in Confused on Jan 5th, 2010 | 7 comments

I want to be a teacher.

I love the smell of marijuana on my skin.

I’m having a hard time deciding which one to hold onto.

Pregnant again

Posted by in Confused on Dec 31st, 2009 | 3 comments

I cant believe Im in this situation again.I already have 4 kids. My baby will be one next month.And Im thinking I cant do this..I work long hours..My husband hasnt been able to find a job.I cant do this..My insurance is already kicking my butt.Cant get any assistance Because they say I make to much money..I feel like Im going to hell for thinking about a aboration..I really dont know what to do.

I LOVE HER

Posted by in Confused on Dec 24th, 2009 | 4 comments

I am a girl, i like a girl who has a girlfriend. No one knows i like her, because no one knows i like girls. This is ripping me apart inside because i don’t know if i like guys two so i can’t tell anyone. but i don’t know because i have never kissed either sex. I am so confused but all i know is that I LOVE HER. i have never had a proper conversation with her, she is in one of my classes and sits on the other side of the room so have never had the opportunity, but i have pretty much turned into a stalker. I am so in love, all i want to do is see her all the time.

Body Angst

Posted by in Confused on Dec 9th, 2009 | 1 comment

I’m smart, funny, talented, successful, well-loved by friends and family. But none of that seems to be as important to me as the fact that I hate my body. I work out and try to eat well but I will never be thin, unless I starve myself, which is something I’m not prepared to do. But I can’t help but think that men would treat me better if I were thinner…The last few guys haven’t worked out and I can’t help but think that if I just weighed 15 or 20 pounds less, things would have been so different. And everyone thinks I’m so confident, so I can’t tell anyone how much I hate the way I look. The pressure is overwhelming.

Making Babies

Posted by in Confused on Dec 2nd, 2009 | 7 comments

I want a child so bad it hurts. I’m single with almost zero prospects of a serious relationship. I’m only 23, but I have medical issues that can make it hard if not impossible to have children, and as time goes on, the chances lower.. I’m thinking of stopping my birth control and having an “accidental on purpose” conception. I will never trap anyone into anything, but at the same time I can’t take a child away from a father, even if he doesn’t know the child exists. I never imagined I could do this, but as time goes on, I’m seriously considering it..

This Is Wrong

Posted by in Confused on Nov 27th, 2009 | 4 comments

I have just moved house, i’m 19 years old and i consider myself a lesbian, i met my neighbour and found out she’s a single lesbian mother of four. two of her sons live with her.she’s become one of my closest friends and we speak every day.

i’m starting to have feelings for her younger son, who is 15, nearly sixteen, but looks a lot older. i would never, ever act on this, but it’s just doing my head in.

he comes to see me every day, and i can feel his eyes on me, he stands close to me and looks at me in a way he doesn’t with anyone else. i don’t know what to do, because when i’m not with him, i’m thinking about him, and when i am with him, we’re getting closer and closer.

thankfully i have a lot of self-control, but it just confuses me.

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