Cold paranoid wife – help

Posted by tooyoung in Confused on Aug 28th, 2008 | 2 comments

I’m so paranoid of people looking down on me, and if I sense that they’re thinking that they are better than me I just hate them and try to avoid them.
My husband isn’t one of these people, he’s so honest and emotional. The way he can describe his love and care for me is overwhelming, I simple repel when he’s emotionally intimate with me. I think it hurt him a lot, and I feel bad about it, but sometimes it’s easier to not care at all. I haven’t been saying any romantic words to him for ages because it all feels incredibly uncomfortable and fake. I know I should also show him that I need him but I can’t stand that either. I don’t think I can be emotionally demonstrative and intimate with any man, not just my husband. I think I don’t trust men. Please help.

What did I do

Posted by Jillian in Confused on Aug 26th, 2008 | 1 comment

I desperately missed you suddenly, after so many years, tried to find you and thought I failed. After long months of thinking you were happy and married and had too much of a life to be bothered with me, you get in touch. I could have been knocked over with a feather. Another month passes and I finally get to speak with you, my muse, and it is beyond great.
Do you know the last time I have talked to someone all night long? I told you the truth, I wasn’t single, but I also was on my way out. I laughed and flirted and it was incredible. I go to work exhausted but happier than I have been in a long time. Then you ignore me. And ignore me. And ignore me. Did I miss something? So I write you and ask if you want to talk again later in the week. You get wierd and say very cryptic things. I’m not really hurt just confused. I tell you that I am confused and just needed some support at a rough time and you “drunk mail” me.
Now no news. What did I do? I didn’t leave him for you, quite frankly it has been long enough that I feasibly don’t know who you are anymore. I was miserable and we were not married. I hate that I cannot get you out of me for a moment. I hate that we are so far apart, making it impossible to simply corner you and find out what the hell is going on. I don’t give two if you have someone, despite your avowal that you did not, as long as you are happy! What is wrong?How can I fix this besides giving you space like I have been? It has been weeks now and I don’t know what I did.

not so sure of my self

Posted by beatifully broken in Confused on Aug 25th, 2008 | 13 comments

some times i wonder if i like girls. i often get turned on by watch lesbian porn or by watching a picture of an exploited female. dont get me wrong i like guys alot, i’m 16 and i’ve already had 6 real boyfriends, and i have kissed dem cuddle with them, everything except lost my virginity with a guy. but i sometimes feel like i would want to do thing with girls like i’ve done with guys. i dont want to be a lesbian because i’m afraid of what others might say or how my family wound react to it. i dont really kno if this is just a stage i’m going through, where i want to experiment or what but at times i ‘crave’ making out with girls touching them and being with girls. but i still very much likedoing stuff with my guys….

I Really Loved Her

Posted by I hate my life in Confused on Aug 6th, 2008 | 3 comments

I loved for the first time in my life and the girl cheated on me… I gave her everything, everything I can but still she hid things from he… I wish she died.

I hate my dad. He married three times… Divorced the third one and is still married to my mother and my step mother. I really hate him for kicking me and my mom out, but I love him a lot because he never kicked us out of his life.

I hate God… Everything always tends to go wrong with me… But I love him, he protects me always…

I hate myself, I am always having a fight with my split… I have no one else to talk too…

I want to end my life but I have no courage.

Past Performances

Posted by Anna D in Confused on Jul 30th, 2008 | 4 comments

Before my marriage I was in a long term committed relationship with another man. During the final three years of that relationship, my boyfriend and I were very heavily into swinging. During those three years I performed every sex act that you can think of, on more partners than I can count, both male and female, usually more than one at a time. At the time I was a more than willing participant, in fact many of the things we did were actually at my instigation. When we finally broke up (something that had nothing to do with our lifestyle), my participation in those activities also came to an end. I am currently a happily married woman with two young children. My husband, my family, and all of the other people currently in my life do not know anything about my past. Something, I know that my husband, who is also the pastor of our church and has very limited experience in the bedroom before me, would never understand. While our sex life is very satisfying, there is still a little part of me that wants go out and party like that again

Too Ticklish

Posted by anonymous in Confused on Jul 29th, 2008 | 21 comments

I am a female, single, 26, and work in a professional business office. I am an insanely ticklish peron over every inch of my body. I find when I date men, really nice men, when they find out I’m ticklsh(doesn’t take much), they want to make me their “tickle toy.” They always want to see how ticklish I am and tickle me out of my mind.I am good natured and easy going so I don’t get mad, I just laugh my head off. I laugh so much I can’t beg them to stop. Feathers tickle me terribly, and once they discover that, they want to test every inch of me. It drives me insane. One guy I dated tickled me all night long with a feather, I was going nuts! My relationships all start out great but as soon as they can get me giggling or sqirming it just escalates from there. I guess its my fault for not being firm enough, but its hard to be firm when you’re rolling around howling like a banshee. I just don’t understand why guys are like that, they always try to tickle me to death.

i don’t think i really love you

Posted by strange times in Confused on Jul 24th, 2008 | 2 comments

i don’t think i really love you. i mean i would be stupid if i did knowing the kind of person you are.
you cannot and will not ever stop trying to meet other people . you will always chat on the internet with stupid people and flirt and make sure you rub it in my face.
i just really want you to love me and then turn around and hurt you like you have hurt me so many times since we have been together.
vindictive
yes !

Its complicated..

Posted by Believe..Xx in Confused on Jul 16th, 2008 | 6 comments

I love her.. I’ve loved her for the past 2 years.. i know she loves me back.. but its been difficult.. She went off with this boy, and ive tried soo hard to get her back, she’s cheated on him with me, but i dont think she wants a relationship with me anymore.. I want to shout and scream and confess my love for her to the world.. but i will be judged.. the only thing wrong with us at the moment is my anger, her leaving me for this boy has triggered off my anger in a massive way.. i hit her almost everyday, but she doesnt understand why.. I hate hurting her because i love her..

Please some one help me!!

Not Scared Enough

Posted by Anonyminibus in Confused on Jul 13th, 2008 | 1 comment

There are things I do… bad things, which I fear to mention even here for legal reasons.

The problem is, I am not scared enough. There is very high risk involved in what I do; not of death, but of an utterly destroyed life. I feel like if I were discovered, my life would drop into an abyss of loneliness and despair, and that case may well drive me to suicide if it were ever to happen.

However, I continue my actions. This is no drug, with no addiction, simply something I like to do. And I know I need to stop, but my willpower is strange in the way that I can go on and stay on a diet for eleven months straight and lose almost 110 pounds, but I cannot stop this simple thing.

And I just needed to vent.

All confused about my ex

Posted by anon in Confused, Love on Jul 11th, 2008 | 7 comments

I am 34, divorced, a single mother, and am middle class. After my seperation I dated someone (live out bf, who i wanted to be a live in) for about 3 years, off and on. We had a somewhat turbulent relationship. I was still sort of getting over my ex husband for part of the time. He helped me do that. He helped me feel i could make it on my own. Eventually he said he didn\’t feel important but i felt we had come a really long way and were better. Anyhow he broke it off finally for reals.

A few months after i met someone else and started dating this guy. What a super nice and sweet guy too! We are now living together an aside from somewhat boring sex and him being pretty busy with his life (writing a book and stuff), we have NO issues.

I asked my ex bf out for a drink and one thing lead to another and yes we had sex, and we did so about once a week for a month.

I have completely realized i still love my ex. I told my ex, and he seems to be scared to go out with me again.

I feel i have to end it with my partner and he didnt do anything at all to deserve this… I am afraid to do this because my child is rather attached to my new bf. Also because i love him, i am just so confused feeling that my ex is really the “one”. And whats even nuttier is that my ex does not seem to share these sentiments.

I could go on, get therapy, maybe anti-depressants and start to ignore my ex. We are no longer having sex. I feel if i tell my it will hurt him so much and thats so unfair. Also i could make a life with my bf, he is a good guy allt he way around. PErhaps i should just forgive myself, stay w. bf and get some meds to help me get over my ex? I am kind of pretty confused.

I am not an evil person, and i do not want to hurt people! I am not writing this to be judged but to sort of get a sense of what to do. Break with bf, live alone yearning for my ex, and hurt my kid and this sweet man? Make a huge play for my ex since i truly truly love him!???And hurt all? Or just forget my ex?

in love with a collegue

Posted by Lou 28 in Confused on Jul 8th, 2008 | 2 comments

Im driving myself crazy thinking about a collegue.. He started the company about 6 mths ago and we got on from the start. The last few months we have been closer and by that i mean he emails and rings me constantly, compliments me and i often get eye contact with him. He is 10 years older than me, but that doesnt bother me. Anyway my problem is that, that is as far as it goes.. Every end of the week we go our seperate ways till its monday again when all the emailing and stuff starts again! I have fallen for him big time and think about him constantly, but dont know how he feels? Does he just see me as a mate? Some of the things he does are definitely flirty? But why hasnt he asked me out? Im shy and dont think i could handle the rejection if i asked him and he said no? I know he is single as he told my friene he is single and looking for a girl friend! Help! X

I think im in love

Posted by anonymous in Confused on Jul 8th, 2008 | 4 comments

I think im in love with my best friend who is a girl ,im confused because im straight and have a boyfriend and she has a boyfriend , but for some reason i think about her all the time i have this huge sexual desire for her , sometimes im at her apartment and she comes out of the shower and sits next to me in her towel and all i want to do is …..you know. anyway her boyfriend is a total jerk who cheats on her and he moved away to another state , so now she spends all her time with me , i have been trying to see her less so this feeling can go away , but its hard , she calls me all the time and spends soooo much time with me i dont know what to do , i should not love her but at the same time i want to cause she is soo amazing im sooooo confused.