I am embarrassed to take all of my kids in public with me!

Posted by Journey in Alone on Jan 24th, 2010 | 2 comments

I have five kids and I feel embarrassed going to the store with all of them. I am divorced and would like to start dating….but I have noticed that men do not approach women walking around with a whole bunch of kids. Now my kids are all well manner, well dressed and very nice looking….I just feel like people look at me like something, is wrong with me because I have so many kids.

Now I would never hide from a man my children, once I got to know him and felt he was worthy of meeting my kids…. and that we had the possibility of having a long term relationship.

I am a nice looking and educated woman….that just feels that men who see me with my five kids, will think that I am either an easy piece of ass or that I am desperate for a man and therefore will except anything from a man.

I am very picky and will not accept just any type of man….I just feel like men…don’t need to know how many kids I have until we truly have a connection and a future. Basically…I would get detailed about me and my life after they pass the interview and the background check.

I am curious to know if other people have ever felt this way???

SUICIDE BRUNETTE

Posted by Suicide Brunette in Alone on Jan 15th, 2010 | 17 comments

I AM SO TIRED AND SO DEPRESSED. I CAN’T SATND ANYTHING ANYMORE. I JUST WANT TO STOP THE PAIN.I WANT TO DIE. I DON’T WANT TO BE HERE ANYMORE. I’M TIRED OF BEING SAD.I’LL PUT AN END TONIGHT. :(

Lonely

Posted by Anonymous in Alone on Jan 12th, 2010 | 3 comments

I never was like this but lately I’ve been feeling so insecure. I only have a handful of friends which I know love me but I am afraid to meet new people. I say I love meeting new people but it’s not true. The whole time I am getting to know them I am always worried whether they like me or not. I am too generous at times and am always worried about getting advantage of so I keep to myself in every way. I try to be very extroverted but I know it’s all fake which bothers me. I always think everyone I meet hates me until other wise assured. I dont know why I care whether someone likes me or not but I am jealous of people who have a ton of friends. When I feel sad or lonely, I tend to push my true friends away. I even moved to get a fresh new start but I am more scared and even more lonely. I want to just accept myself the way I am without changing but what I want seems impossible without pretending to be someone I am not.

waking up with wolves

Posted by zombeh in Alone on Jan 10th, 2010 | 1 comment

I have severe trust and abandonment and jealusy issues

Ironically the only women i ever connect with and really feel anything for are women who i know will cheat, play, leave and hurt me.

em ty

Posted by Red in Alone on Dec 29th, 2009 | 4 comments

I have always felt empty. i wish i could be “normal” enough for a man to love…i long to have a family of my own…i feel somehow that this will never happen. i will die old and alone…although i am still young, guys tend to use and abuse…i guess i’ll spend the rest of my days living in the art i never make, the music i’ll never write and songs i’ll never sing.

this void i’ve had for many years. the more the years go on the bigger the whole becomes. i swear i can feel the emptiness right in the pit of my stomach.

Baby

Posted by baby in Alone on Dec 25th, 2009 | 7 comments

I’m 29 years old, pregnant, and terrified of having a baby!
I am scared of losing my life and identity.
I feel completely trapped and guilty for feeling this way.

Alone

Posted by Girl in Alone on Dec 24th, 2009 | 1 comment

I feel lonely. I’ve been hiding it from other people and let them see a new “improved” me. I am a shy and quiet person, and I want to change that image form other people. I am not much of a people person either, and I am longing for friends. I do have a boyfriend who loves me as me, but sometimes, I want too to have friends. It doesn’t matter to me if I have less than 5 people whom I can call true friends.

I envy other people with so many contacts and friends. I’m willing to change little by little. Day after day.

I want to prove to them that I can change. That I am one of the best people they’d meet. I’m happy with my boyfriend–my best friend, lover and soulmate, but there are times I am longing for a friend too. Whom i can hang around with, call in good and bad times, someone who accepts me as ME.

I’m thinking of joining a club in our town for a fresh start.

what is this

Posted by m. in Alone on Dec 11th, 2009 | 1 comment

i do not even feel like finding out what the future holds for me.

why

Posted by invisable in Alone on Dec 9th, 2009 | 3 comments

why has everything been going down the tubes for about 5 years now. i have small happy spirts , but it always ends. never stays. everything in life is so temperary, my friends, family, and happiness!!! my day goes as fallows….wake up , school,eat lunch alone, work till about 8 then go home finish homework, my chores, then cry myself to sleep…why is this my daily routine.

not willing to put up with BS to have a man

Posted by ME in Alone on Dec 6th, 2009 | 0 comments

I’m 40 years old,been married 3 times,now divorced for the 3rd time,2 grown girls and a grand son.They live in a different state along with the rest of my family.I have no close friends outside of work.I am very social at work but when I get home I just want to be left alone.I’v had so many relationships with men that I am sick of them,all the relationships that I have had have been physically & mentially abusive on their part,I have been beat to the point by my first husband that I lost 2 children.The others stopped working and expected me to support them.I am the kind of woman who doesn’t take BS and kicked them to the curb.I am not willing to put up with,drugs,hitting,cheating or any of the other BS just to have a man.I’m afraid I’m gonna be alone for the rest of my life.I would never tell anybody this in person.

I still check my ex-boyfriend’s emails

Posted by Anonymous in Alone on Nov 7th, 2009 | 3 comments

I know I shouldn’t but I can’t help myself. I want to feel connected to him in some way, I want to know what’s going on with his life and I want to know whether he has replaced me. I guess, I really want to know whether we could be together again.
I know it’s sad and I know that I should move on but I can’t stop myself.
I wish he would change his password.

I want to be me again.

Posted by Sick of Life in Alone on Oct 13th, 2009 | 10 comments

I hate me life. I dont know what I want to be and I hate the fact that Im not in college yet because I have a son with autism. I hate the fact that my husband isnt supportive of me and I hate the fact that he’s cheated on me with his best friends gf. I hate the fact that when hes stressed i encourage him to smoke weed. I hate the fact that we always budget in a bag of weed and beer for him while I get nothing. I hate the fact that Im 25 and in love with my husband and I’s best friend. I hate the fact that Im trying to lose weight for my husband and myself and I still wish someone would kidnap me. I often fantasize about someone cloraforming me where I walk and carving Isnt she pretty on my stomach.Or carving beautiful into my forehead. I think about this all the time. I also think about something happening to me so I can see if he actually cares. Dont get me wrong I love my husband and my kids im just sick of having to be happy all the time and being everyone’s support system. I want to be selfish. I want to have the life I dreamed of for me when I was little and I want the bitch he cheated on me with to DIE! I want to stop being suspicious and sick to my stomach and I want to feel like me again not some depressed bitch. I want to cry rivers and drowned her in them. No one knows how depressed I really am and Im tired of hiding it, my husband thinks depression in an act to get attention. But Im really sad and for alot of good reasons. I sometimes fantasize about killing myself because it sounds great. If I werent here he would get to finally see what its like to be me. Going to all the therapies Dr’s appts and the day to day struggle of making ends meet with one income. I want to be happy again.