Secret Confessions

About a year ago I tried to kill myself. I felt as though nobody loved me and that my life was worthless.I was getting bad grades and was being sexually abused by my neighbor. I also ws having feelings toward the same sex, and I knew my parents would disown me if they found out.I felt like I had nothing to live for and just wanted to “checkout early”.I was already on medicines for depression and ADHD but they wernt helping so I was taken off them.But they were still in my cabinet. So on that night I took about 45 antidepressants and about 30 ADHD pills and waited to die. At about 2am my mother heard me throwing up and took me to the hospital.She didnt know exactly what I did but she knew it was bad. It was too late to pump my stomach so I was put on an IV and given charcoal to make me have diarreha. The doctor said if I would have come in an hour or so later I would have died. After 2 weeks in the ICU I was taken to a mental instutution for another 2 weeks. Since then my life has straightened out and I’m doing 100% better than before,but I have had to live with this secret and it feels so good to get it off my chest.If you are contemplating suicide please talk to sombody.I know you think nobody cares but trust me alot of people would be heartbroken if you were gone forever.
Thank You for Listening,Jane Doe

I really wish to kill someone.
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lately i have noticed i m developing a sort of allergy to my relatives and family members . being v.distant and indifferent to them . i dont talk to any of them voluntarily n dont even feel like coz i dont like formal relationships . i like 2 b among carefree people who r basically my frienz where i can totally be informal any myself .so mostly at family functions i find myself lonesome.nothing to do .no interest to talk with any1.i wish i could go far away from all of them .atleast distance wud bring in positive changes.

i dont have anyone..feel like going away from dis world :(

i have no friends. not one. and i haven’t for years. my family says i should "lower my standards" but the fact is i find most women dumb and poiintless, and i am at an age where it is hard to have male friends because of their wives. yeah, i sound bitter, and i’m sure that doesn’t help. i used to be nice and caring, but like most men, enough relationships with women have made me bitter about them. did i mention i don’t really mind anymore?