Im Sorry Leslie

Posted by You know who. in Alone, Regret on Jan 21st, 2008 | 3 comments

When we first made Love, I was married but unhappy. I moved out and planned to leave, but I thought I needed to give my marriage one more chance to work, or I would always have questions. By the time you allowed me back into your life, I found out that my wife was pregnant, but lied to you about when she was due, I lied to you about so many things, but we began to make love again, and you told me that your ideal would be to be married to me and raising OUR children. I hate that you were with Mike, and I felt like I needed to do or say anything to make you fall in love with me again and leave his abusive ass behind. He treats you badly and you accept it because at other times he treats you like I want to. I have left you alone, as you asked, because I hurt you so badly. I will go on in a loveless relationship because it is best for my kids, but I cannot get you out of my mind. I treated you wrong, I lied GOD did I lie! But I wanted you to know that I regret hurting you. I could have made you happy, I thought I could explain away the lies, but I couldnt. You are with Mike this weekend meeting his parents, and I know he will ask you to marry him. . . dont do it. You will find someone to love you like I did (DO!) , but treat you better than he OR I did. You are a wonderful person, but Mike will only make you feel miserable about yourself. You will regret it. I hate what I did to you, and I miss being with you and talking. I miss being close, I miss making love with you. I wish you only happiness but I wish you realized Mike is WRONG WRONG WRONG for you.

Run Away

Posted by Getting Lost in Alone on Jan 14th, 2008 | 4 comments

I often feel like running off and starting fresh. I don’t fit in with any particular group here. I just want to start new in a town where no one knows me. These daily problems I face are slowly killing me inside and no one knows. Everyone assumes I’m fine by the smile on my face. Little do they know that the smile is nothing but a band aid covering a wound that cannot heal.

yup..

Posted by anonymous=\'( in Alone on Jan 13th, 2008 | 1 comment

wow .. I didn’t expect that there is a site like this .. any way, now i can admit to myself who i am .. ever since childhood i noticed that im different from other male gender .. because i like more playing with the girls than the same sex .. I already admit to myself that infact im a bisexual .. but to my friends and family? they didnt know .. i am thinking about what will be their reaction .. im trying to be normal but i cant help myself being attracted to both sexes .. thats all .. whew ..

nails

Posted by Anon in Alone on Jan 5th, 2008 | 4 comments

sometimes when i’m alone…i cut myself vigorously with this rusty nail i found outside my house. it hurts…but in a good way…you know kinda like when you get beaten on by your teacher…anyway i do this cause i’m emo….

It’s so lonely…

Posted by No One Really Cares in Alone on Dec 30th, 2007 | 3 comments

I know a lot of people, but I don’t really consider them my true friends. Around this time of year it gets depressing to hear all the fun places and activities these people do. No matter how hard I try, I just can’t seem to fit in with anyone I know. Everyone always thinks of me as a funny and upbeat person, but I only use that as a mask to hide all the misery I’m in.

No one seems to really understand what I go through. The one person who could really help me wouldn’t talk to me anymore if they found out how I feel. My life is one big wound covered by a band aid. I’m hoping one day, someone will tear it off and help me heal. I have so many friends and i’ve never been so lonely in my life.

Suicide

Posted by Jane Doe in Alone on Nov 28th, 2007 | 2 comments

About a year ago I tried to kill myself. I felt as though nobody loved me and that my life was worthless.I was getting bad grades and was being sexually abused by my neighbor. I also ws having feelings toward the same sex, and I knew my parents would disown me if they found out.I felt like I had nothing to live for and just wanted to “checkout early”.I was already on medicines for depression and ADHD but they wernt helping so I was taken off them.But they were still in my cabinet. So on that night I took about 45 antidepressants and about 30 ADHD pills and waited to die. At about 2am my mother heard me throwing up and took me to the hospital.She didnt know exactly what I did but she knew it was bad. It was too late to pump my stomach so I was put on an IV and given charcoal to make me have diarreha. The doctor said if I would have come in an hour or so later I would have died. After 2 weeks in the ICU I was taken to a mental instutution for another 2 weeks. Since then my life has straightened out and I’m doing 100% better than before,but I have had to live with this secret and it feels so good to get it off my chest.If you are contemplating suicide please talk to sombody.I know you think nobody cares but trust me alot of people would be heartbroken if you were gone forever.
Thank You for Listening,Jane Doe

I just want to kill…

Posted by D. in Alone on Nov 22nd, 2007 | 14 comments

I really wish to kill someone.
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lonesome

Posted by Anonymous in Alone on Oct 27th, 2007 | 1 comment

lately i have noticed i m developing a sort of allergy to my relatives and family members . being v.distant and indifferent to them . i dont talk to any of them voluntarily n dont even feel like coz i dont like formal relationships . i like 2 b among carefree people who r basically my frienz where i can totally be informal any myself .so mostly at family functions i find myself lonesome.nothing to do .no interest to talk with any1.i wish i could go far away from all of them .atleast distance wud bring in positive changes.

aloneee

Posted by Anonymous in Alone on Oct 7th, 2007 | 2 comments

i dont have anyone..feel like going away from dis world :(

alone

Posted by Anonymous in Alone on Sep 22nd, 2007 | 10 comments

i have no friends. not one. and i haven’t for years. my family says i should "lower my standards" but the fact is i find most women dumb and poiintless, and i am at an age where it is hard to have male friends because of their wives. yeah, i sound bitter, and i’m sure that doesn’t help. i used to be nice and caring, but like most men, enough relationships with women have made me bitter about them. did i mention i don’t really mind anymore?