The hardest emotion for me to express is anger and guilt.
People would usually say that the hardest one is love, but in my case, that’s false. It’s really hard to express anger for me because I’m just so afraid that I can lose control with it. That’s why every time I’m angry, I’m just silent about it. I don’t tell anyone about it, and sometimes, I even cry myself out because of it. I can’t do anything with my anger to anyone, to be honest, and I’m both proud and disappointed about that fact.
And as for guilt, well, let’s just say that even after I know I’m guilty for something, I’m still pretty shit in showing that to the people around me; and that makes me look like an asshole who can’t empathize with other people.
I really wish that I can fix myself.