Worse than they know
Posted by Anonymous in Alone on Mar 1st, 2010 | 3 commentsI’m in Therepy weekly to deal with my depression. i’ve had it for 5 years now. i just got to the point where i signed my self up for therapy behind my parents back. i eventually told them about it under my shrinks advice. But the thing is i havent told anyone including my shrink about the suicidal thoughts i have cause im afraid ill get put in the mental hospital like they did to my sister a couple years ago. they let her out a couple days later but she only got put in for being melodramatic. im afraid if i tell them i get suicidal at times theyll put me in there for weeks.
It also kind of makes me sad that i was that depressed for 5 years and not one person noticed, or if they did they never cared enough to ask.
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You should definitely tell your therapist that you’re thinking of suicide. They could put you on 24 hour suicide watch, basically you have one of your close friends or relatives come to where you go to therapy and they sign a thing saying that they won’t let you be alone for the next 24 hours or however long you want it to be. It’s only a temporary alternative but a lot of the time if you’re thinking about suicide, you may do it as a spur of the moment kind of thing.
My advice, though. Please don’t ever do it. You have no idea how much it will hurt everyone around you. It’s not worth it. I’ve lost two people close to me to suicide, and it’s the absolute worst thing you could imagine. Stay with your therapist and work it all out.
I can relate. I’ve been suffering from severe depression for 3 years now. I just want to die, but I would never kill myself because my religion forbids it and I don’t need another reason to hate myself and to feel like God hates me. Like I said, it’s been 3 years and not one of my friends have noticed… I guess we’re not really friends… I hate myself… But please be strong with me. I need someone like you to be strong with me. Someday, we’ll be okay. It just has to be true. It just has to… I believe in you. You inspire me.
Yes, please hang in there with us.
It might help to find something small that you enjoy that takes your mind off the rest of the day. For me, it’s the show Bones heh…
It can make the day more bearable.
You have to have faith that you won’t always feel this way, and it will make you stronger then.
I mean, aren’t you currious to see how everything ends up? I am..