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I’d never tell myself I’d rant off some random site I felt off Google, but I need this off my chest. I’m extremely alone and I want to die sometimes. The only thing that holds me back is I’m afraid of it hurting my family. I don’t know why they would want someone as worthless and bitter as myself, but they do care about me a lot.
I grow attached to people extremely easy, especially females. Only problem is is that they are a) Not Single b) Find me to be Awkard and Dumb or both. I find myself to be going in this endless cycle of constantly thinking about someone then wanting to kill myself because of how lonely and depressed I am. Sometimes I think medication would help, but I don’t want a drug messing up my mind, making it the reason I’m happy. I don’t want that medicated numbness.
I want to be different, I hate the way I am, the way I think. Maybe I’ll be useful one day, but for now, I’m utterly useless.
Vin on May 18th 2008 in Alone
Someone! said on 18 May 2008 at 4:10 pm # Quote
Here’s you can try for yourself:
love yourself again. it won’t be easy. it’s a long process ahead. you can slowly love yourself by like find a hobby that you really love and are passionate for! Think positive things. Look for positive and beautiful things! Take Care of a pet.
talk to other people. slowly meet other people until you are comfortable enough, you gradually increase the number of interesting people to be added in your life. no one in this world is an island. you can start first with your family… then your relatives… then the rest of the world!
Pray. don’t underestimate a prayer.
i feel your pain said on 19 May 2008 at 1:15 am # Quote
I felt the same way but I’m getting help now you have to take it one day at a time I know its hard but you will make it maybe you should talk to a professional Iknow you don’t want the medications but try don’t give up on life I didn’t
Kelli said on 21 May 2008 at 12:34 am # Quote
Dear Alone,
First off here is a big ((((HUG)))) for you. I hope you can find the good qualities in yourself because they are there.
b) Find me to be Awkard and Dumb or both
We all have faults and are certainly not perfect. People searching for “perfect” will never find it. You are awesome and special and definately deserving of love.
Hope you have an awesome day!!
me said on 01 Jun 2008 at 9:15 pm # Quote
You need some really good friends. They are out there. Girls, too. Anyway, much love. Don’t give up the fight. Find more allies.
cassandra said on 29 Jul 2008 at 3:48 am # Quote
look i know its hard to see good in things when youve been let down so many times .ive been through it myself .there
are lots of people out there just like
u dont give up dont hold things in so much get back up on the horse apparently
you have some good qualities so dont let that one girl bring you down life is hard just keep looking for light even if it does seem dark at first .Big hugs…..