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About a year ago I tried to kill myself. I felt as though nobody loved me and that my life was worthless.I was getting bad grades and was being sexually abused by my neighbor. I also ws having feelings toward the same sex, and I knew my parents would disown me if they found out.I felt like I had nothing to live for and just wanted to “checkout early”.I was already on medicines for depression and ADHD but they wernt helping so I was taken off them.But they were still in my cabinet. So on that night I took about 45 antidepressants and about 30 ADHD pills and waited to die. At about 2am my mother heard me throwing up and took me to the hospital.She didnt know exactly what I did but she knew it was bad. It was too late to pump my stomach so I was put on an IV and given charcoal to make me have diarreha. The doctor said if I would have come in an hour or so later I would have died. After 2 weeks in the ICU I was taken to a mental instutution for another 2 weeks. Since then my life has straightened out and I’m doing 100% better than before,but I have had to live with this secret and it feels so good to get it off my chest.If you are contemplating suicide please talk to sombody.I know you think nobody cares but trust me alot of people would be heartbroken if you were gone forever.
Thank You for Listening,Jane Doe
Jane Doe on November 28th 2007 in Alone
Puzzled said on 30 Nov 2007 at 2:36 am # Quote
Why didn’t you tell your parents about the abusive neighbor? If you are under age that person could be prosecuted. Did he or she force you?
It isn’t unusual for young persons to have feelings of unworthiness and you should get help if needed, especially from your family. Your school counsellor should be able to help, too.
christina said on 14 Dec 2007 at 3:46 pm # Quote
Hey…it sounds insane, but I know almost exactly how you feel. Same circumstances except you can change the neighbor to my uncle. It is just so awkward that I read this and felt as though I wrote it.whao. Stay strong.