RSSSix years ago
Six years ago, my best friend’s brother raped me. I was fourteen. He was nineteen. He held a hand over my mouth and then, after, he told me that I deserved what I got. He said not to tell anyone because no one would believe me anyway. I never let anyone know. I kept going over to her house and smiled into the face of the boy who stole all of my firsts. Even now, I can’t tell anyone because I know that it would kill her to know what her brother is like. I will never tell because I love her too much to let her know that her life is not perfect.
Kirsty on June 24th 2008 in Alone
me said on 24 Jun 2008 at 12:03 pm # Quote
Oh my god! 6 yrs and you haven’t told anyone? You must feel awful. Poor you. Her brother is a jerk! He should be in jail, you have to tell someone. Or maybe he’ll do the same thing to some of her other friends. Maybe you friend will de crushed, but you don’t want him to rape more girls, right?
Good luck,!
carlo said on 24 Jun 2008 at 11:34 pm # Quote
you my simpathy is with you and i feel sorry for what happened to you but somehow im just wondering why do you have to keep it a secre, you were rape and it is a capital offence, you have to fight for what is lost to you, your silence might temp him to do it again and again to you. if you really love your friend then dont just sit there trying to pretend as if nothing had happened. be honest and tell her the truth as they say “the truth shall set you free”. be brave to fight.
Ms.B said on 28 Jun 2008 at 3:18 am # Quote
Please tell someone. You have been living with this for so long and its gonna consume you and make your life hell. Its like your traped in your own jail. Its also possilbe that he may have done this to other girls before you. Please tell someone.
Strider said on 08 Jul 2008 at 7:55 am # Quote
Don’t play the martyr too much anymore. I can relate why you don’t tell but you should no longer fear for the same reasons. If you see the rapist still, whisper in his ear that he has a small ****- even if he doesnt- say it. Then everytime you see him just hold your fingers like an inch apart and mouth the words ‘tiny ****’ to him when no one can see.
Don’t give him an opportunity to get you alone so he can threaten you, stay around your friend so if he does she will see it for herself. If he does threaten you- record it and call the police and tell him if he comes near you shoot him with the ******* gun you get and if all of that seems too much - post here and I will go beat the snot out of a fuckwad that rapes a 14 yr old.
Anonymous said on 07 Aug 2008 at 7:37 am # Quote
just think of the other girls you would save.
Needle & Thread said on 13 Aug 2008 at 11:09 am # Quote
It’s good that you’ve taken the initiative to start somewhere and utilising the website. Thing is, telling someone might be beneficial. Not only is it damaging to your health to keep it in, but I agree with Anonymous. Old habits die hard, and chances are that you’re not the only one.
Javin said on 28 Sep 2008 at 2:29 pm # Quote
By not telling anyone, you are directly responsible for any other women he has raped, and continues to rape. It’s your fault. I hope your conscience is good with that.
Anon said on 02 Oct 2008 at 7:00 pm # Quote
I think that the worst thing about rape is loosing control over your life. You lost the power to make decisions like who to give your ‘firsts’ to. The best thing to do in my opinion is to reclaim yourself. What he did was his own fault not yours. Admit that something bad happened to you and fight it. If your bestfriend loves you she will understand. You have to do this for yourself and believe that you deserve better. Being raped did not make you lesser person if you overcome it. I hope you find strength to reclaim yourself.