I was sexually assaulted by my best friend a year ago. He told me it was because he loved me. I’m too lazy to consider it sexual assault so I just say I was raped. Now I can’t even hear thr word rape while watching my favourite crime shows without immediately going into a flashback. My friends tend to make rape jokes and I pretend it’s ok but I’m dying inside. I can’t even tell my current boyfriend because I don’t want to worry him.