Pregnent with a “Recovering” Addict’s child

Posted by in Alone on Mar 15th, 2011 | 1 comment

My boyfriend used to be additced to opiates. He’s been in and out of rehab a few times since he was 17. We got together a little over a year ago and I didn’t know much about his past. I found out more and more when I hit three months pregnent and he went to jail. He missed all of my second trimester and came home. I went a couple months thinking everything was okay and all better, that the past was the past and now we’re moving forward to make the baby that’s coming soon’s life better than our parents made ours.
Three more weeks and I’m going to be a teenaged mother. And just when I think everything’s going great – I come acrossed a text in my phone looking for tabs from an unsaved number. . . I thought he was done with it. I was so proud of him for so long thinking he was doing so good. . I feel like I do everything I can to make him happy and it’s still not enough.
My mother is into drugs && I always promised myself I would never do so much as smoke weed when I become a mother. . . I love him so much, and he’s got such a big heart but I just can’t put my baby through the pain I faced growing up.
Before he went to jail I would always have money missing. And it’s been two months since he got out and I was just starting to trust him with my money. And now all of a sudden my women’s intuition is telling me something’s wrong.
I’ve never wanted anything more than to be a good mom. And now that the situation is rapidly aproaching I’m petrafied.
The least I want to do is give her a good home life. . . Even if I can’t give her everything in the world like I want to.

All my friends stopped hanging out with me when I started to act like a “mom to be”, they stopped answering my texts, wanting to hang out, and most of them stopped talking to me. The few I do have left I don’t trust or just wouldn’t understand.

I’m hurt . . . And I know the more I show it – The more he’ll hide what he’s doing

. . . God help me, I know you’re there.

One Response to “ “Pregnent with a “Recovering” Addict’s child”

  1. i hear ya girl says:
    March 16, 2011 at 11:14 pm

    I went through a similar situation. Since i was just a couple months pregnant, I knew in the back of my mind that the relationship wouldnt work but i stuck it out until i simply could take no more…four years down the road. All i wanted was a happy family and all he wanted was the money from my bank accounts each week to support his drug habit.
    People wont change unless they really want to. Drugs make people do horrible things. He may tell you what you want to hear, just so youll put up with his crap but the more you allow, the more he will push you.
    I know how scary it is to become a single mother but i also know you can do it. Mothering your child will come naturally to you. I suggest that you make him recover on his own. Make him prove that he is willing to be a man and help raise this family you both started together. You dont want to raise your child in that sort of environment…
    Also, i think the response youre getting from your friends is typical. Mine did the same as well…

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