my bipolar brain
Posted by sux to be me in Alone on Dec 7th, 2010 | 7 commentsI think i am bipolar i have been thinkin this since i was in high school but now that i am in college i have been feeling this more and more…this feeling really sucks because everybody around me feels like they are doing something. sometimes i do feel like they are the problem but at this point i dont think i would be crying all the damn time becuase they hurt my feelings. my emotions are all messed up and evrything that happens i feel is my fault. I really hope im not but in all honesty i have really given up on somethings.just sitting here i started to cry this is not normal in a 19 year old. i should be out with my friends right now having fun but yet i am here typing and crying like a old ass woman. this is not the life i planned for myself but this seems to be the hand dealt to me which sux might i add. i cant understand why this happens, but i mean i always get the shitty end of the stick anyway so whatever. but this my confession, i want to tell my friends but i feel like they would judge me..even though we are supposed to be close its not like i trust them enough to ever tell them that.whoever reads this and pray for me and my life. please thanx ;)
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You’re not alone in what you’re feeling. Please seek professional help, it will help you feel more understood and will help you manage your symptoms. Blessings and please try not to be so hard on yourself
You may have some depression like most people your age go thru but it’s usually caused by the fact that you don’t know where going and you don’t know how to get there.
You might find some sympthy here from some other people like yourself but part of the problem is that your self absorbed and too concerned about what your friends think.
Those people are going to go their own way when college is over and you will be making new friends.
The important thing is to set some goals for your career path and your life. Get busy your just wasting time.
I was where you are twenty years ago. I wish someone had told me what do do sooner.
Good Luck!
You need to get help I promise you’ll feel better I was diagnosed at 17 and got treatment. I’m 22 now and can manage my symptoms without meds or treatment. The ups and downs if untreated will ruin friendships, family, and start to do poorly in school and if you work. You school may have free counseling I’d try there first. I wish you all the luck it’s been five years and I have a normal life I hope you will find your own path. Ps if they are your friends they’ll support you regardless =]
I am by no means a professional in psychology but your description of what you are feelings sounds like depression to me. In order to be bipolar you must also experience the highs called hypomania or mania. And the manic episode is not the feeling you have when the depression lifts and you are back to your normal self. Mania is way beyond that with symptoms including promiscuity, excessive spending, delusions, grandiose thinking, etc. Albeit not all bipolar individuals experience these symptoms when manic but some of them must be present to be diagnosed as bipolar. I reccomend that you seek help from a school counselor or therapist. Good luck.
i feel the exact same way. i wonder if its bi polar, pms, anything for an excuse. im 19 years old myself. you really need to talk to someone, that usually helps me.
Bipolar is not just sitting there crying. you sound like you have depression. get help either way.
I was diagnosed with bipolar I when my oldest child was an infant (he’s 6 now). I’m still dealing with this crap even though I take lithium and bupropion. And I’ve been in therapy for 3 years. I don’t see how this “help” is really helping me. It’s the same old, same old.