Lost
Posted by Anonymous in Alone on Mar 29th, 2011 | 18 commentsI feel lost… I have no one to turn to anymore. I’m only 14 but I can honestly say I wish I was not alive. I’m scared of killing myself, because if I do, who will care? Sometimes it feels like no one will… And I have no one to turn to. My relationship with my parents is the one thing that can always bring me to tears. I spend too much crying, and the times I’ve used alcohol to escape, works… But only because for a few hours I can forget that I hate myself and my life. I’m not suicidal, but I want someone to talk to… Someone to open up to who I can relate to and won’t judge. I don’t want therapy because i don’t want people to know I’m struggleing with myself. I know my best friend will alwaysbe there for me, but she’s perfect and I’m scared to show her I’m weak.
And I’m really scared to post this….no one will care
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Sweetie, tell your best friend. You’ll be surprised.
It does get better hon, I promise that.
They never said it would be easy, they said it would be worth it.
Hang in there.
You’re going thru a lot of changes, mentally and physically. You are facing a new set of challenges in life. School doesn’t always equip you well, and your parents may not either.
Don’t be suicidal; talk it out. Everyone has issues, even your perfect best friend.
It will be okay…
Talk to your friend it is almost always better when you just tell someone how you feel. And if you don’t feel like telling your friend do talk to someone at your school. I did and it helped alot. You are important. You matter. You are loved don’t forget that.
your comment made me understand life is like netball, at first you need time to realize your strengths and try hard to gain more. There are times when you feel like you let your team down and you’ve lost the game but it doesn’t mean it’s over yet ’till the whistle is blown. There is always still hope, doesn’t matter how far you are in the game. You might even surprise yourself and win. It takes time and effort to succeed and you have to want it. Focus.
Remember, life isn’t over ’till the final whistle has blown. Good luck and i hope this helped! have a good life.
yes everyone has their challenges, even those who we view as “perfect” The mind, body and spirit all changing in you, trying to figure out who “you” are.
Escaping with drinking only make those things last longer before you figure them out. Because in the end your stuck with yourself in your head.. Are Teenage years great, parts of it is wonderful, parts, not so wonderful, Just look and accept that everyone around you is having the same feelings, emotions and thoughts are you are. Some escape in sports, or music or art or studies, others in drugs, drinking and sex. How you feel as a 8th-9th grader and how you will feel as a 11-12th grader will be much better because you will know some of those answers your asking yourself.
Be good to yourself and others!
You are no alone. I have suffered with depression since I was 11 years old, and I’m a lot older than that now. It is nothing to do with weakness – I served in the army for 7 years, have run marathons, have a degree, etc. There are lots of causes of depression including a slight chemical inbalance in the brain (the cause of my clinical depression).
It’s tough, but there are always people who care. Talk to your friends – it’s amazing how much they care and are willing to listen. If you don’t want to talk to a therapist (which isn’t always bad) google some Cognitive Behavioural Therapy sites, such as mind gym. They help you understand why you feel a certain way.
I’m not going to lecture on alcohol, I abuse it when I feel very low still so have no right to tell you not to. But realise that it’s only a crutch for a short while and doesn’t resolve, only delay.
Keep the faith in friends, keep going and if necessary, have a word in private with your doc.
Hugs!
honestly i feel the exact same way.
i hope it not only gets better for me; but for you<3
I promise you are loved. I also think if you open up, you will find support.
Life can be hard. I wont lie to you. But life also has moments that are good. One thing a counselor had me do was to keep a journal that I could only write good things in. Each day i wrote down the good things that had happened. Even if they were silly and little. It really did make me feel better.
Hugs
Good God you’re 14 years old girl. In ten years this will be a foggy after-memory. Don’t waste this time being depressed. How bad is it, really? You have no real responsibility. You’re still young and malleable.
your mean to say that. When you’re 14 and you feel alone, that IS a big deal and they need help, support and love, not criticism. Few years later they might see things in a different light, but now is hard and if you can’t support a 14 year old, then at least keep quite.
Hold on, don’t give up on life. I can relate to you, been there, I haven’t had supportive parents either, few friends, it will get better. You will become stronger. NEVER GIVE UP!!! NEVER. Remember there is one who loves you unconditionally his name is JESUS.
i feel the exact same way as you and i think you should talk to your friend because your friend cares , unlike mine ..
Honey, there is always going to be someone that cares whether or not you are here. Suicide is definetly not the answer. Things may seem dark and horrible, but they will always turn around. You just have to be patient. I know from experience. Things have to get bad before they get better. Have faith. It may be hard but trust me, it will get better.
I totally understand what you mean. I’m 15 and my relationship with my parents is fine to them, but they have no idea how much pressure they put on me or how they never listen. I cry everytime i think about it too. but that doesn’t mean they dont love me. I feel like i can’t talk to anyone sometimes, like my best friend wont understand, so I don’t tell her. but I should. tell your friend, or tell God, he loves you even though it might seem like he’s not there, He does things we dont understand but they have a purpose, and he knows how you feel. and sometimes I DO feel like dying, but I know that’s just a feeling, I have to think with my brain and not my heart, and that there IS a light at the end of the tunnel we call the teenage years. I though you might wanna hear that you’re not alone a lot of us go through these things even though few admit it. I can really relate to you and even though I know you’re not suicidal just remember that the solution to a problem is to solve it, not to just erase it. be confident in yourself (without becoming condescendent) and tell your parents how you feel (unless you’re like me and mine). I think that will help you a lot
Dear Lost,
I am a 52 year old mother of a son that is now 24 years old. When he was your age he held a loaded gun to his head, in front of me. I was so scared. He had alot to overcome but guess what, he lives in Fla. now and he is doing wonderful. Everytime you have a bad thought about yourself it is Satan putting it there but God is there to talk to. God is who helped me through my terrible ordeal with my son. You are so precious and special in his eyes. If you want someone to talk to, you can email me. Be strong.
hang in there! Lifes a bumpy road!
I can relate, somewhat. I’m 14, and my relationship with my parents is not the best. If someone judges you, their not worth a second glance. Your friend is not perfect, and if you believe she is your bestfriend, talk to her. She will help you through hard
I feel ur pain if I die I also wonder if anyone wil even care
I remember when I was ur age I had huge problems My life was miserable i was LOST !! one day I felt like there something on my chest and I couldn’t breathe I was soo sad I was soo hurt But suddenly I saw this guy talking about god and Islam , his words really inspired me that thing on my chest just went away I felt happy and relieved I felt alive ! then I started to learn more and more about Islam oh God this religion is a RELIEF after I became Muslim everything just started to get better in a magical way I’m just happy all the time for no reason
and don’t worry you are not alone , Allah is always with you , he’s the most Merciful :”"”")