Lonely and worried
Posted by T.G in Alone on Jun 19th, 2010 | 4 commentsI try so hard to be nice to everyone. I want everyone to like me. And yet, when they have parties or go to just hang out, I’m never invited. And then they all act like they feel bad when i ask them about it later. If they feel so bad, why don’t they just invite me next time? They always act to so happy to see me and they tell me how funny I am and how nice to be around I am.
I’m so scared that there’s something wrong with me that everyone can see but me.
Like I have some sort of social defect that no one has told me about. I’m a mellow person. Not overbearing at all. I just want to know what I’m doing wrong. And I want to know how long I will be this way. If I’ll ever find a husband who will ever truly love me or if he’s just settling because I’m nice.
I’m interesting. I have a very good taste in music and movies and I don’t tell too many stories. I’M NOT BORING! But I am weird? Do I come off as judgmental because I don’t drink or smoke like most of my friends? Even the ones who don’t smoke don’t want me around, though.
I just want friends. The kind of friends who will stick with you through anything. Just a small group of 3 or 4 girls. That’s all. I’m not ugly, I don’t smell, I’m not mean. Why can’t I find friends? WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO?!?
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hi lonely 1st you lost one thing from your life ((trust)) you must trust in your self first this the problem when i read your letter i feel that you don`t have any problem you must feel your self look inside you if you find any thing wrong tell your self but honestly i feel that you are a good person and you have a good personality really trust in your self and you will be fine never mind about what the people doing or talking about you but feel your self and try to find the true friend no body complete search you will find may be not in your country may be outside may be in your house like your brother or sister or your mom just get off this bad idea from your mind you are nice and good say it to your self i am a good one
I have to agree with you… lonely you seem like an amazing person and if they say they’re so happy to see you.. chances they are.. believing in yourself is key. :)
When I read your story, it almost brought me to tears, I feel exactly the same way. EXACTLY. Im in this group of friends that always have outings together but if they dont need to use my place, I am rarely if ever invited. I had a ‘best’ friends who i also realised talked to me because sthey could use me. But now I cant offer, ‘connections’ they never talk to me and i have to start conversations. Now I feel so alone in uni. :(
I’m so glad I’m not alone, then.
I too entered college this year and I feel like I try soooo hard to make nice with everyone and I get nothing in return. Like I said, I’m not a weird person, I don’t dress funny, I’m not ugly or bad to be around! Its just like, I have a hard time keeping friends. I thought it would be different in college and it’s not. My new friends even don’t invite me places and I don’t know why. I like to party (although I don’t drink or smoke) and I’m not judgmental at all of those who do. I don’t brag. I don’t whine. I must just be an unlikeable person…. I don’t know. I just wish I had someone to assess me for a day haha and tell me what the hell is wrong with me!