Lonely
Posted by Anonymous in Alone on Jan 12th, 2010 | 3 commentsI never was like this but lately I’ve been feeling so insecure. I only have a handful of friends which I know love me but I am afraid to meet new people. I say I love meeting new people but it’s not true. The whole time I am getting to know them I am always worried whether they like me or not. I am too generous at times and am always worried about getting advantage of so I keep to myself in every way. I try to be very extroverted but I know it’s all fake which bothers me. I always think everyone I meet hates me until other wise assured. I dont know why I care whether someone likes me or not but I am jealous of people who have a ton of friends. When I feel sad or lonely, I tend to push my true friends away. I even moved to get a fresh new start but I am more scared and even more lonely. I want to just accept myself the way I am without changing but what I want seems impossible without pretending to be someone I am not.
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Why are you so hung up on what other people think? In the end the only person whose opinion counts is you!!!!
Sounds to me that you need to learn to like and love yourself 1st. Stop being a needy self centered witch.
Be part of something bigger than yourself. Don’t worry about any of the crap you seem to dwell on.
Finally get some therapy
Insecurity is a feeling all humans share. We create self-imposed barriers and lock ourselves within them for fear of being hurt or causing pain. The important thing is to stop being concerned with others and begin to inspect the self. On firmer footing, you will lose your sense of insecurity. You should realize that your extroverted “fake” self is simply an extension of who you are, don’t feel like it’s a bad thing. Just don’t let it carry you away. Also, close friends are few and precious, so don’t push them away on a whim.
Being emotionally and instinctively self-centered is the nature of people, unfortunately. Learning to overcome that is not something many people can do.
i feel the same way.