Im misserable….
Posted by Sad-one in Alone on Oct 6th, 2010 | 4 commentsi hate my life! my mom is an alcoholic, my dad is too, and he does drugs, im only sixteen! how am i supposed to coe with this! no one beleives me, i want out. i cut to make the pain go away, but it only works for a while. im starting to drink more and more because im so miserable and i want to drown my sorrows. its not working and im going to end up just like my parents. i dont want to be like them! i need help and no one will listen!
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I’m sorry, you don’t deserve this pain. My growing up years were bery difficult and unfair too. It affected my whole life. I didn’t begin to get help util I was almost 40 years old.. Please don’t wait as long as I did. Could you find a 12 step meeting in your area? Such as Ala-Non, Narc-Anon, Ala-Teen? Please. You don’t need to do this alone.
Who is no one? Teachers, counslers, friends, parents of friends, principals, cops, child services, they are all here to help. if whoever you tried telling didn’t listen just keep talking until someone does! You don’t have to follow in their footsteps and the first step is to put down the bottle and put up the blade. You don’t need them to live your life. it is your’s and no one can change that. You choose your desitny, with God’s help it could be a great one! I’m praying for you.
Talk to your doctor about your self-harm, ask him/ her to fix it for you, or help you fix it, tell your mum to go to rehab, tell your dad to go to rehab, help them tidy the house, cook etc., concentrate at school and do your homework. Do fun things with mates from school.
This is the plan.
My family life was totally out of control. Everyone in my family has been to jail or prison for a huge variety of reasons and none of them good.
My words of experience to you are – you dont *have* to be like them if you chose not to be. You are not your mom or dad. You can love them in spite of their weaknesses.
You have made it this far. You only have 2 more years til your a legal adult and you can move on with your life – with or without them.
Hang in there – You will be OKAY !
Make a plan about what you want to do with your life after HS and start working towards that. Delve into it – as it’s your life and you need to be setting yourself up for your own success anyway! The busier you keep yourself, the less you have to deal with them and their garbage.
You can tell them to go to counseling/therapy/AA – but they wont until THEY are ready. You need to concentrate on yourself!
Stay Strong for yourself – and Good Luck!