I’m a complete fake
Posted by Anonymous in Alone on Apr 10th, 2010 | 4 commentsSince I developed an eating disorder I have become fake and a liar. I don’t love my family, I don’t like my friends either even though I know they love me.
I’ve attempted suicide twice during the past year.
I can’t cry anymore, I think i’m sort of numb.
I’m 14 and have never admitted to any of this, I’ve become a very good liar. I’ll probably continue this way until i’m finally discovered.
Thank you for reading stranger.
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Apparently you’re not very good at suicide. It seems like you just want some attention. And by the way–if you’re on birth control, sometimes it can give the “numb” feeling, that’s why I quit taking it and I’m much happier.
You really should seek counselling/therapy.. your still so young (sorry to sound patronising) When your in your teens, everything is amplified, both the highs and the lows… ride it out hun, things will come into perspective as you get older.
I’m sorry. People will tell you this is just a phase because you are a teenager. They are wrong. It’s not like dying your hair and wearing different clothes – it’s suicide. What is wrong with craving attention? The fact that you are craving it means that somehow you are being neglected. Go and get help; if you commit suicide then there will never be the opportunity for things to get better.
Don’t try to kill yourself anymore. I know personally that’s hard very very hard to deal with the numbness. But it’s harder the moment you’re dying. That very moment you know that’s it. And it’s a hole lot more scarier when you realize that there’s nothing more for you but blackness. Life’s tough yeah, every breath it’s hard, but you do change, life does change, specially when you’re young. You hate to be a liar, so don’t lie to everyone, go get someone even a professional if none of the people that love you are capable to deal right now with the lies.
A stranger that honestly cares