I want to hurt people/myself when I’m too happy

Whenever I get overly excited about something, like overreacting, I tend to want to just cut myself, stab myself or someone else. I’ve choked people before out of happiness, but I was younger, about 10 years old. I really just want to stab people when I’m happy, or even when I’m not. Sometimes, when I’m feeling too numb to the world, I feel like cutting myself or hurting myself in any way, not in a suicidal way, just because I actually like it. For an example when I smoke I want to burn myself with the cigarette, or when I see a beautiful knife on a store I imagine how it must be good to feel going inside the skin of someone or my own.

3 thoughts on “I want to hurt people/myself when I’m too happy

  1. I feel the same way. Its some strange sort of non-sexual sado-masochism, I think. I have a lot of thoughts about killing people or myself, even though I never actually want to go through with it.
    I’ve dealt with it by imagining in detail the experiences, instead of actually doing it. I’ve also had the fortune of being in an anatomy class rife with direction labs, so I can cut up as much as I want to.

  2. Your thoughts are troubling. Please speak to a psychiatrist about this and detail your thoughts and hoped for actions. Wanting to harm yourself and others may be a sign of psychosis. Take care now.

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