I’m a new mum….lost my first child in my divorce….I love both my children but regret them. My boyfriend treats me like shit but I’m afraid to leave him and be alone so I stay. I have really low self esteem….no I hate myself. Had a shitty childhood, was molested by my moms catholic priest but never told n e one. I resorted to alcohol and drugs through my teen years and although I was placed in a rehab I gave up drugs but still drink. I try…but nothing seems to change. I want to give up….unfortunately I’m too much of a coward to end it myself.