RSSI can’t believe him
I feel so alone nearly all the time.
I go on chat sites and talk to strangers to help me forget. I use these people to erase the lonliness I feel. When I’m filling my time talking to strangers who tell me I’m sexy and gorgeous I don’t feel so alone.
My mother doesn’t take me seriously when I agree that I should go to counselling or whatever. She just thinks I’m being sarcastic and insolent.
I have to fight the urge to start hurting myself again.
I have someone who takes away the lonliness. He’s lovely and sweet and kind-hearted. He says he loves me and he wants to be with me.
I can’t believe him because I don’t understand what he sees in me.
And I don’t want to be hurt again.
Only 2 other guys have told me they love me. One ended up telling me he didn’t love me and he never loved me, after months of letting me think he cared for me. The other said he’d love me forever. Let’s just say i no longer belive in the word forever.
Forever doesn’t exist and all guys lie.
I don’t want to think this but I can’t help it.
I don’t want to be alone anymore but I’m too scared to let anyone in.
saffy89 on July 22nd 2008 in Alone
Shhh... said on 17 Aug 2008 at 6:19 am # Quote
You get one life to live…
How do you want to spend it?
Taking careful chances? Or wondering what it would have been?
Needle & Thread said on 18 Aug 2008 at 1:11 am # Quote
Go for it! Not all guys are the same, you’ll know that he loves you by his body language.
You said yourself that he’s kind, so what are you waiting for?
Everyone has suffered heartache in their life at some point in time, trust me, if you think all guys are scum, you’d be far off.
So I agree, you should take the risk and be happy - do it for yourself.