Destiny?
Posted by Robert in Alone on Feb 8th, 2009 | 4 commentsI feel as though all the most important people to me, with real meaning for my life, don’t feel the same way. I feel I disappointed my mother, and that dad isn’t too proud of me. I fear my wife will one day listen to me and see she really is a strong person, and will leave me, and take our son with her.
I wasn’t always the nice guy growing up, and I think those vibes are haunting me now. I will pay for the people I hurt, and my payment will be loneliness.
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If you let go of your old habits of hurting people and learn how to forgive and love yourself, then things will get better. Don’t let circumstance decide who you are; be the person you want to be and although the start will be difficult, with in a month or two you will have gotten used to the new you that you love. Your wife loves you and she isn’t as critical of you as you are of yourself. Self examination is a sign all good people must have. The fact that you wrote this shows that you have that quality. Let bygones be bygones.
so have you messed around behind her back? If so I hope she gets smart and RUNS as fast as she can to get away from you!
First off, ignore ‘just like your wife’.
Secondly, talk to those people, if they are disappointed/worried/upset about something you have done then find out how you can mend their view of you. Tell your wife how you feel and work it out otherwise you will find your guilt expressing itself in other ways like yelling, anger, bad sleeping and generally pushing others away.
The fact that you admit and care about how you acted earlier in life shows that you have grown up since then. If you still feel guilty about how you treated certain people then find them and apologise in person or via post. You may find out that they had forgiven you long ago.
I feel as though karma is following me as well.
I can never forget things that i want.
so your not alone