My eating disorder has ruined my life…
Posted by Ella in Addiction on Sep 29th, 2009 | 9 commentsMy eating disorder has ruined my life. I’m down to less than 100lb, and at 5’6 I know its too little. But I cant stop restricting my food and excersizing too much.
I throw up anything I do eat, I’m so afraid of keeping it in my stomach that my body automaticly gets rid of it now…
I am always getting ill, and barely have the energy to move, yet still force myself through my excersize routine.
Its caused me to fail my university course, and lose everyone I was close to once… My eating disorder because my only friend.
I tried to get help and was told by two seperate doctors that because my weight wasnt at critical (about-to-die) level, I couldnt have any help for it…
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What kind of help are you looking for? You should get into therapy. The only time “critical” comes into play is if you’re asking for inpatient help.
Oh dear sweet Ella… I write to you with a heavy heart. Although I don’t know your pain personally I know what it is like to be in bondage to something that seems like you can’t get get away from because its all you know. I want to encourage you first off by telling you that you are loved. Loved first of all by a mighty God. His son Jesus Christ came to die for you and set you free. Cry out to him. Cry out to him like your life depends on it because it does. Not only your temporal life but your everlasting life. You are loved Ella and you are worthy of being loved. He said he would never leave you nor forsake you. He would go with you to the ends of the earth. He is not far just cry out… Praying for you in Texas.
Hello Ella-
I am sorry to hear about what you are going through. I don’t know where you are located but this website will lead you to eating disorder treatment facilities (some are FREE studies) around the US. Alot of times eating disorders are a respond to something else depressios, perfectionism, etc. Good luck you are not alone in your world even though you may feel like it. I am sure someone in your life loves you and wants to be there if you let them, even if they don’t understand.
http://www.edreferral.com
Don’t worry…eventually you will die like we all do. You just want to get there faster than other people. It’s ok. This is YOUR experience. Do what YOU choose to do, that’s what you are here for.
She’s not trying to die faster, that usually isn’t why people have an eating disorder idiot. >:(
i understand.
my eating disorder became my best friend.
It took over my entire life, at the same time i gave up everything for it- passions, hobbies, friends, family.
it doesnt matter about your weight to go to treatment. i went to residential treatment, but i left early. i should have stayed. i need to go back and complete the program, my eating disorder is back and i am sacrificing everything for it. there is nothing id rather do than play with my eating disorder. it rules my day and i kneel at his feet. im sick. i need help. WE CAN GET HELP. WE CAN BEAT THIS
You can still get help, your doctors are ridiculous, my bestfriend had an eating disorder and almost died because of it and is now absoloutely healthy adn the best i’ve seen her in years! it is NEVER too late. If you want to get better you need to seek proper help, possibly as an inpatient. Don’t kill yourself for something as ridiculous as this. You are a beautiful human being who doesn’t need to succumb to the pressures of being thin.
Sweetheart, I understand completely. Doctors are complete asses who go by criteria that is so narrowminded they should shove it where the sun doesn’t shine. Overweight people can be anorexic, and bulimia is characterized by “normal to overweight.” But people imagine all eating disorders to be emaciated thin. You can beat this though.. There is help.
Try dailystrength.org
There are amazing people who are very understanding. It isn’t a place to find “support” in the sense of lose weight, but someone who is there and trying to overcome everything.
Uh-oh, sounds like you need a better doctor. If this keeps up, eventually your weight will become critical. You need to get help NOW. Good luck.