i want to cut again
Posted by anonymous in Addiction on Jul 29th, 2010 | 7 commentsi’ve cut since december 09
my parents found out around march and that just made me want to do it more
even thought they told me not to i still did secretly
i have stoped for almost 2 months now
because this guy started liking me and i told him about it and he doesnt want me to ever do it again
i love him so much and i dont want to hurt him
but i really want to cut
i want to feel the pain again
i need to feel the pain again!!!
:’(
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Listen cutting is a bad thing, i know you think it will take all the pain away but it doesnt, listen hun maybe you should consult your problems rather than try to cut them away, i know about this stuff because i got my bestfriend to stop cutting herself.
Self harm is an addiction. One only you have the power to kick or keep.
I’ve self harmed since I was twelve and the farthest I gone without cutting is six months. I was rushed to the hospital around the time I turned fourteen. I’ve been to therapy and it didn’t work for me (It works for others that open up. Because of the shit that has happened to me, I don’t trust anyone so they couldn’t help me.) And now I’m about to try anti-depressants. I used to be against them because I wanted to be happy on my own but I hate being depressed and I’ve given up on being genuinely happy.
I have absolutely no one to talk to. Find someone who you can trust and confide in them.
One thing that helped me not to cut is music. I blare it in my headphones so I can’t hear anything around me. It helps me a ton. I haven’t cut in a few weeks.
I used to self harm everyday but I’ve managed to now only self harm when thing too unmanageable.
I hope I helped :) [BTW, I wasn't trying to preach to you but tell you my story. I hate when people preach about how bad it is because it makes me feel horrible and want to self harm. I know how hard it is to talk about it to people you know.]
you know why you want to cut? so you can post on websites like this about how deep and mysterious you are. you want people to see the scars. you want the attention, not the pain. your acting like a child, cutting yourself is not addictive, expecially when you have been doing it for what 6 months like you have? im sorry your 15, and i know thats a hard time for everyone but grow up. your embarrassing your parents.
I used to work in adolecent psyc. hospital. Something that helped teens who cut is….place rubber bands on your wrists. When you have a desire to cut, pull back on the rubber bands and let it snap aginst your wrist. The minor pain simulates cutting but without the harm, or risks. Talk to someone because you really need some help. And please ignore morons like David Davidson above. He has no idea what you are going through.
I completely understand what you are going through. I start cutting when I was in the fourth grade because 2 of my very close family members beat and raped me I am now 18 and I am looking for people just like I was(and sometimes still am) so that I can tell them my story and I can help in any way possible. I know it is a horrible thing to do to yourself blah blah blah I’ve heard it all before from everyone I know…but one day I realized it truly is a horrible thing to do. There is people out there who care about you and love you and don’t want to see you hurt. I understand it is hard and sometimes you have to grin and bare it it sucks I know. I have been clean for a year now and it is still very hard for me to not cut when I get depressed. I now turn to God, music, and drawing. I have found my outs for the pain so I can try my hardest to ignore the pressure of wanting to cut. I hope you can do the same, not for anyone else but for the sake of yourself. I hate hearing about other people having to go through hard stuff like this and I want to be helpful towards them. like silence said IGNORE David Davidson because he doesn’t know what you are going through and he needs to just shut his mouth and mind his own business. My dear, please find help for yourself. Live a wonderful life be happy don’t worryy about past regrets look at the future and what you want to do what you can to become and strive for that goal. Don’t let anyone tell you how to live your life and don’t let anyone be the one to tear you down.
the first girl i ever loved was a cutter. It reached critical mass when she did a report on it for school and acted like it was a typical thing. Her friends started telling me more. It bothered me a great deal. I even wrote a song about it, “and i see your scars, even though you keep them covered, well burn me with cigars, cuz burns are covered.” my point being it is a painful situation to seem powerless around such activities when you love someone. think of what it does to the people who love you. I hope you find a better way to cope, life is hard for everyone.
There are other outlets…. Try writing when ur angry or upset…. One time I got so angry at my parents for the things they do the things they don’t do and I wanted to try cutting i knew it would make me a hypocrite becuZ I always lectured my best friend in the world abt her cuts…. But I was nearly seeing red I was so angry…. So I got out a paper and started writing… I didn’t care abt the handwriting I didn’t care if it made sense I just wrote about everything that was making me angry and what I wanted to do abt it…. It ended up being pretty brutal writing and words…. But by the end of it I was smiling and my tears were gone :) if tht doesn’t work try cutting something besides urself… Like a pillow or a stuffed animal or something :) I hope this helps