i hate the internet but i hate myself more anyway.
Posted by i should be sleeping since i have a 7am class tomorrow in Addiction on Jun 20th, 2010 | 6 commentswhy am i up in the middle of the night making a confession.
i should be sleeping. i should not be compensating my time doing things that will ‘distract’ me from reality.
but it always ends up that i do.
and i hate it.
why the heck is it like this? i couldn’t stop. don’t tell me to get counseling or stuff. that requires money. i don’t have plenty of it. and getting help from friends? friends wouldn’t understand. they are much too busy with their own problems.
i need to stop. i should. i guess i really should.
i hope i do.
but the problem is, whenever i face the laptop, cellphone, computer. i couldn’t stop. i couldn’t.
but i can stay away. it’s been 3 days since i last faced a computer and i survived. but i decided to watch the glee season finale today and what was meant to be 45 minutes of internet became 5 hours.
and that’s already my usual time.
i have to stop this. but it’s easier said than done.
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I also distract myself from reality using my computer. I really don’t like to leave my room or think about the real world.
So you’re not alone, and neither am I.
This one is tricky.
Have you tried going outside to a park? Being in nature?
If you can, try this exercize every day.
Go for a walk in the most natural setting possible.
Go through your five senses….
What do you see?
What do you taste?
What do you smell?
What do you hear?
What do you feel on your skin?
noticing things….. just to give yourself a break from the “instant gratification” that electronics can bring.
There are plenty of other mindfulness exercizes, but this one is particularly good for people who are online a lot.
just stay strong and be mindful that you will and must stop at all cost…..
I see this was posted quite some time ago. Hope you’ve kicked the habit since. Anyway, I was addicted for 8 years. Once managed to go seven months without porn. Then fell right back in the hole.
Truth is, I only managed to get out of it because helped me. But you probably don’t want someone preaching at you right now so here are a few things that have been helpful to me.
1. Replace the habit. When you get that rush that makes you want to do something you’ll regret, go for a jog.
2. Don’t put yourself down all the time. The moment it’s over, you probably start cussing or get depressed. That’s just a warped way of making yourself feel better. Start looking at the positive things in your life and yourself and work on them.
3. Try and make some positive relationships with people. Hang out somewhere instead of going home to your lonely bedroom where your only distraction is the internet. Eventually you may find someone you trust enough to talk to. Took me ages to do that.
Hope this helps.
Umm, does no one else see the irony here? I’m supposed to give him advice on a website for ways to stay away from computers? That’s like saying to an alcoholic, let me buy you a beer and then I’ll help you…..
make a schedule. make a list of things that will occupy your every minute and give yourself time restrictions. make sure these things are outside and far away from your electronics. follow this religiously until you feel you can make 5 minutes for the computer or tv but keep to the schedule. eventually you will get used to life without it. this schedule will be your new healthy and happy life