Just bitching

My mom is getting on in age. I fluctuate between petrifying fear of losing her and annoyance at her constant maladies. Not much can be done. Arthritis. Pain in her knees. Pain in her heels. I feel horrible hearing it. Her quality of life is suffering. I tell her to stay with me. It she doesn’t want that. She doesn’t like my husband that much … Continue reading Just bitching


Not one day goes by where I don’t pray I die in my sleep. I do not enjoy life anymore, the moments I do do not last long, and I end up feeling worse. I’ve tried so many things, but I keep coming back to how disappointing life is. I’d give anything to go back to childhood. I feel entirely broken…. Continue reading Life