I’m sorry BFF, I’m having an affair with your man. I was with him first, you knew how much I loved him, I didnt care then we were having an affair, behind his previous girlfriends back, but when I moved away coz I couldn’t have him I never wanted him to be with you. Although I was the bigger person, and gave you the go … Continue reading Sorry BBF
I have considerable research on psychology and serial killers. I have noted psychopathic tendencies in myself. I have noted similarities between the childhood “checklist” of a serial killer, and my own youth. I know the signs, so I know what to hide. I know how to hide them. I am well liked. I have many “friends”. People see me as sweet, quiet, deep, and intelligent. … Continue reading Am I Good at Hiding, or Does No One See Anything Anyways?
Truth? I only go to school & work hard so I can get away from home. I have been abused in every way possible since I can remember. My mom knows and still puts her husband before me. I saw a social worker; She promised to show up and never did. I called the suicide hotline but the man on the other end spoke over … Continue reading I’m not who you think I am.
I’ve been with my wife for ten years. We’ve been through hell and happiness, thick and thin. I love her with all my heart. She is a special person, but I have to admit,although we are best friends, I have not always been the best person to her. I can’t not forgive myself, for I am only human and we learn from our mistakes and … Continue reading I’m learning from a big mistake
I hate my mother. she always gets herself into these shit abusive relationships, she keeps saying she’s going to get a job, but never does. she only gives a shit about herself, and she doesn’t even care that the guy she married turned into a huge asshole, who has huge anger management issues. and now he’s moving out, and we’re going to have no money, … Continue reading poor.
I suppose I can pose this as a question. I often wonder if I’m crazy. Not in a schizophrenic way. But rather, through my experiences and memories–my personality isn’t normal. I recognize that my personality isn’t normal if from nothing else besides what I find my self saying to other people. Most of the time my friends will tell me that I usually say weird things in public or say things that I should keep to my self. But I don’t see it as peculiar like they do.
I’m a 21 male and I’ve read in psychology books that psychological disorders usually start to occur through the mid-teens and fully develop in the early 20’s. I wonder if it is a psychological disorder that is wrong with me, or perhaps I am just the outcome of my past. (My wondering is the question i pose)
Continue reading “Curious is the quarrel of my mind.”
I remember you breaking as you told me what the anonymous cyber-bully had sent you. It was full of hate, making you feel worthless so they could feel stronger. Better. They were pathetic, hurting others as they hurt. I listened to you, with guilt and regret. Even though you’ve forgotten it, for it’s been years, I wince at the clarity of the moment. That cyber … Continue reading Dear M,
Im lost. im confused. im broken. but you’d never know it. im the optimistic friend, im the sholder to cry on, im the one they all confide in. I cannot cry nor show pain. I can no longer save everyone else. i need to be save. someone save me. i was raped between the ages of 8-13. i was abused by a dunken mother until … Continue reading when will the sun shine?
Dad, you and I have begun to argue day in and day out. Whenever we argue you conclude with “I measure my success by being a good provider for my family”. That is great dad. You were truly a great provider, thank you! You paid for my college, my rent, my phone bill; even some trips abroad! But these are the 10 things I wish … Continue reading Reasons I hate you, Dad
I agreed to try and make this work because I felt guilty you’d had an accident. That you loved me so much and i wouldn’t give you another chance. I wanted to get our family back together. I wanted to believe you could be a man of your word after 9 years. And soon enough, you started braking promises, lying, being mistrusting and distrustful. Manipulative, … Continue reading I love someone else