I’ve smoked pot everyday for 14 years and I’m a nurse.
I have ****** up so many times at work. The issue is that no one knows the things that I have let slide. I have let certain licenses lapse…licenses where we are currently doing business. When this blows up…I will lose my job..and friends that I have had for 20 years. My problem is – I have had plenty of time to fix the issues…instead I let things keep going wrong…and now it’s too late. What is wrong with me?
In the hole world, just my step-brother knows about this, and he thoght i lied when i told him, apart from him, nobody knows about this.
When i was 15yo, i hade sex with my little cousin 10 years yonget than me. I have never forgive me about this. I cant look my selft in the mirror without thinking to get rip of me. I have done so many things, thinking that i’ll end up dead about it, but i always fail, eather for my cowardness or for pure coinsidense.
i know you people want me to tell in details how it happend, but i just cant, if i write it, ill remember it, and then the horrible felling will come again so i wont do that. The only think that i can tell its that it was not forceful (kind of concented) and that i dint penetrate her.
I tell this because its that i want to move on, be happy again . Since that happen, i havent felt that my laff was not actualy real, like i dint want other people to concerrn too much about me, because i dint want to be a load for my family and frinds.
to the nurse who held my hand and told me eventualy it would be okay, as i lay there losing my baby,thankyou. today would have been my due date – and you were right, i am ok!