ive been lying to my parents for 6 years

how do they not realize it doesnt take that long to get a 2 year degree. ive dropped so many classes over and over because i used their money to support a lingering drug problem. im addicted to everything. i cant help it, smoking drinking masturbating eating anything that feels good, i lie constantly, wtf is wrong with me. im always mad and tense, maybe i should just tell them.

I’m in love with my bestfriend

I have been married for 10 years. Somewhere down line I stop loving my husband. We had some problem about 6 years ago and our marriage never recovered. The last year or so, for me has been awful. I can’t tell him the truth because I don’t want to hurt him or my three boys. My heart is no longer in this relationship anymore. And to top it off about year ago I came back in contact with friend mine from school. And I have feelings for him. Sometimes I think those feelings came from me not being happy in my marriage. But we stop talking to each like we were because we felt it was best , out of respect for my marriage.I think about him all the time. My heart feels like its missing something cause we hardly ever talk anymore. I care so much about but him. he doesn’t know how much. He knows I care but not to this degree, I love him. It’s unconditional love with no strings attached; it doesn’t matter if he doesn’t love me back. I just want what makes him happy. I’m sure I sound crazy but I’m in love with my bestfriend.

i had to get out

my parents loved you, even after we spilt up. even after i told them you would beat me. they still ask about you and think i should give you another chance. i gave you enough chances and all i got in return were three broken ribs, a broken nose, a black eye, and a daughter who will NEVER see her father. i hope one day they will forgive me for leaving you, but i just couldnt take it anymore.

Dont do it!

Never have an affair!!! It might be fun and exciting while it lasts (once you get past the guilt. And no matter how much you justify it, its not right!!!
I talk from experience… We were never found out…and nobody knows, but now I have to go through the hurt of a failed relationship all on my own…no shoulder to cry on, nobody to help me through it. The fall is hard!! And not worth it. I wish i could take it all back!!!!

Just say sorry…

I single handedly made you who you are today. I am the one who made you more social-able. I am the one who introduced you to all the friends you have now. Yes, i fell in love. But we were best friends, no way would i have been that stupid to ruin our friendship, even though i knew you cared for me too. But we were in high school….and she betrayed me. She lied to you, and you believed her…why? I was your best friend….we told each other everything…she ruined us. I hate her for that, and i hate you for not trusting me. Now, 6 years later, you are still friends with her, going to her wedding…I hate you both. I just want an apology, then i can finally get over you, and I can stop feeling guilty for thinking about you even though i am happily married.

I m ……………

I am scare of failure. Everybody around me is assure of my success that makes me scare. Though there are people around me but among them I feel all alone……Like a scared kid.

Lonliness

I dont think anyone loves me the way i love them. I love my friends so much and i doubt they love me back. I was alone a lot when i was little and i dont ever want to b lonely again. I need someone to love me too.

I felt so bad about msyelf

I got into my first car accident today while driving to school. And it was my fault initially. Luckily, no one got hurt. I felt so bad about myself. My mom had work her ass off just to put me in school and everything. I’m a full time college students and got a job in school. But the check wasn’t that good since I could only work 10 hrs a week because of my heavy schedule. Because of the accident, my mom got to pay in order to fix the car or there wouldn’t anyway I could get to school.Plus, it going to cost a fortune to fix. I never did anything that could help her out except doing good in school. I felt so useless and guilty about myself. All I did was bringing troubles into her life. When she found out that i got into a car accident. she wasnt saying anything but walked away. I wanted to cry so much but tears didn’t come down. There was not anyone that I could honesty shared my feeling with. I know that people got worst problems in their life but i think i need to get positive, stay strong, things happen for a reason. but sometime i just want to know that reasons.

should I move on?

I was in a relationship for almost a year about 2 weeks shy. during this relationship my boyfriend was abusive and broke my rib on one occasion and left tons of other bruises other times. he always said sorry and I believed him bc I knew he had mental problems. he told me how he wanted to get married and have kids. when I became pregnant on accident we decided to get an abortion bc we didn’t have the money to raise another child. about 2 months later I had an initial herpes outbreak and he said he didn’t have anything and wasn’t cheating on me so we just agreed not to blame it on either one of us bc we didn’t know. we fought about petty things bc of stress and broke up one time for a week and got back together. we were together a few months after that and one night we had a bad fight over petty things again and we split up. I regretted everything as it was happening and just wanted to be with him. We have been split for a month now and i felt I was my happiest with him he seems like he wants nothing to do with me anymore and I cant bring myself to just say good bye. I love him and still want to be with him, I don’t know if I should move on.

the flame has gone out

I come home after a three day absence and you don’t even kiss me. Then you accuse me of spending money ??? The trip was a Parental responsiblity-and I was the only parent that could go.
Now we move on to the house being a mess, and your check being three hundred dollars short (again). Sometime I think I evoke my own pain and problems…….

Where is the love we once had?? the quite nights of sharing dreams and holding hands?? Can we ever get that back?? Probably not.

I’m not sure I can keep doing this:

You are like having another child.

You are moody and expect to be rewarded for everything. Every other person in the world works a 40 hour a week job, and doesn’t act like it is the end of the world.

I am weary of protecting you, we both know you could have renewed your contract with your last job, but instead of doing that, you quit. You quit and let us struggle for over a year to make ends meet, put food on the table, and even pay the rent.

I am sick of you talking down to the kids, especially our daughter.

I am tired of watching your acting skills playing out in real life. You try to say whatever you think will make you look good publicly, and yet so much of it is lies:

You do not snuggle.

You are not patient with the kids.

You are angry.

You are not affectionate (unless people are around).

You are so very much your mother’s son with your passive aggressive and directly aggressive bs.

I *will* leave you if things do not get better.

Friends

The last few months of my life have been a downward spiral into sadness and depression. I have hurt too many people in these months so that i have lost about half of all my friends. I have no hope left and all I have is a horrible feeling of hopelessness in my life. My whole demeanor has been happiness on the outside but i don’t know how much longer i can keep up this whole charade that i have been playing. My grades aren’t slipping but they give me more satisfaction anymore. I’m done. Depression isn’t giving up its just saying that I have been strong for too long and i am done with it.