what goes around comes around

i’m scared that you’ll leave me for her again.

I Miss Myself

I have a beautiful baby girl, another baby on the way, a wonderful husband and I am somehow miserable. I love them dearly but I miss my old self. I miss being on my own, independent with no one depending on me. I feel ashamed to be unhappy.

Pregnant again

I cant believe Im in this situation again.I already have 4 kids. My baby will be one next month.And Im thinking I cant do this..I work long hours..My husband hasnt been able to find a job.I cant do this..My insurance is already kicking my butt.Cant get any assistance Because they say I make to much money..I feel like Im going to hell for thinking about a aboration..I really dont know what to do.

Indeed.

Even though you’re not a great person most of the time, even though you treated me worse than anybody ever has, even though you have a new girlfriend, even though my friends and family hate you, even though you aren’t at all interested in me anymore, even though you valued everything above me

I’d still do anything to get you back.

i was young

about 10 years ago, i used to like to get naked around kids, i only did it a couple times, but im done with that now, i never touched the kids, they are like my brothers and i just happened to be naked around them, i was also about 13 years old at the time

em ty

I have always felt empty. i wish i could be “normal” enough for a man to love…i long to have a family of my own…i feel somehow that this will never happen. i will die old and alone…although i am still young, guys tend to use and abuse…i guess i’ll spend the rest of my days living in the art i never make, the music i’ll never write and songs i’ll never sing.

this void i’ve had for many years. the more the years go on the bigger the whole becomes. i swear i can feel the emptiness right in the pit of my stomach.

my dad

I grew up on a sheep property in the central west of NSW Australia> when I was 12 years my Mum who was very attractive and a happy wonderful mum developed Cancer and within 3 months had passed away. I helped out with dad as best as I could and we naturally became very close. I had always, when worried or frightened came into Mum and Dad’s bed for comfort and when mum passed away this continued. When I was 15 years it was such a time, I had developed into a women quickly and came into Dad’s bed it was a cold wet night – we talked and talked he was a strong man and as we talked I could feel his manlinesss close to me as he held me. I made love to him for the first time- it just happenned. Dad did have guilt feelings but for me I felt no guilt for what happenned as it was the most incredible experience for me. It continued for another 3 years from time to time only when either one of us needed each other. I went off to Uni became a teacher met my husband had two lovely children and lived a wonderful life. Recently my dad passed away I miss him dearly he was a wonderful dad – a wonderful caring lover and a real man – not all incestuous experiences are wrong and I have never had any guilt feelings about what happened between us those many years ago

I hate being a mom and a wife!

Why did I do this to myself? I hate my husband! He has cheated twice on me and I can’t leave. I am a stay at home mom of two kids and I don’t have any work experience. He works nights and weekends and I stay with the kids 24/7. We don’t have any family that live in the same state so I never get a break. I HATE MY LIFE. I gained 30lbs since my husband started being unfaithful. I try to make myself feel better by eating and it is only making feel worse. Is there anyway out of this hell? Don’t worry, I don’t plan on killing myself. I just wish I had options.

Caught my wife for the second time

My story is long. My wife and I met when I was engaged to another woman. I deceived both of them so that they knew nothing of each other for a while. As you can imagine my wife had some trust issues with me at the beginning of our relationship, but I know I’ve shown her how faithful I’ve been. She set the boundaries for us by stating that being unfaithful was the worst thing I could do to her.

A year or so ago I found some old emails where she was chatting to some guy, obviously flirting but didn’t go too far. I took it badly but forgave her as we were going through a rough patch and as he lived in another country I was not threatened.

Over the summer we had a really hard time but we managed to scrape through the hardest challenges to our relationship thus far. Things got a little better after that but just recently she has been telling me that she is unhappy and didn’t know what she wanted in her life, but couldn’t say exactly what the problem was. I lost my job and it hit pretty hard and she tells me that she panicked when I sat around for a week or so feeling sorry for myself. I turned it all around though have a new job now and things are going better. Then the crying started over the last week, with her stating that she was unhappy.

This morning I found more emails from a co-worker of hers. They have been training in the gym together, been shopping together, met for coffee and such. I got mad and confronted her and she confessed to everything, said she was unhappy as she knew she was hurting me and was trying to end it. She was so relieved that I had found out and it had come to an abrupt end. I do believe her when she says that nothing sexual happened but the type of things they did together and the way they chatted really hurt me and I’m struggling to come to terms with it.

In a way I’m glad I found out now as I’m not sure where it would have led but I’m really having trouble figuring out how I’m going to trust her again.

She says she likes the person but the feelings she has for me are far greater and she only turned to him for someone to talk to when we went through a rough patch, then it went a bit too far and she got scared, she called him and ended it immediately after being confronted. She admits that she has been happier with our relationship over the last few weeks but has been riddled with guilt about this other guy and was planning to end it today when they would meet.

I’ve seen so many emotions today, anger, sadness, despair the works but just need some unbiased perspective on what to do now.

Any help appreciated.

Thanks

Scared

I have a phobia of getting fat. I even have nightmares sometimes

What to do ???

I’m a married 41 yr old guy who seems to be with the wrong woman and have known this for years. she has become a drunk and has no care for the household and our daughter who has lost all respect for her as well. She has made our home a very depressing place to be. I have found myself seeking other women/girlfriend just to feel that warmth of a women again. Our daughter doesn’t want to live there anylonger if she is here. And I seem to stay away more at our lake place just to be away from that seen but hate to be without my daughter. I guess what i’m wondering it must be time to end this terrible marriage. I belive at the first of the year i’ll ask her to leave this house so my daughter and i can live in a better enviorment with less stress. She’ll probably pull the suicide card out again like she tried a couple of years ago with my daughter there. More drama !!! I wish she would just disappear so I and my daughter can move on and I can find someone to love while i still have a little youth left in me. Any thoughts or advice is welcome.

Baby

I’m 29 years old, pregnant, and terrified of having a baby!
I am scared of losing my life and identity.
I feel completely trapped and guilty for feeling this way.