I was wrong

I lied to my boyfriend and both of our families and said I was pregnant and then had a miscarriage…..

I’m living a lie

For the past several months, I did some soul searching. My wife and I, our marriage was doomed from the start. We are such different people. For the past ten years of my marriage, I lived as a celibate. Now, we do not even give each other hugs and sleep in separate rooms. We’re waiting for our kids to go to college so we can end this acting gig.

I miss human touch and companionship. I’ll never get my thirties back that I spent without intimacy.

I’m living a lie. Everyone thinks we have a great life with nice kids and financial security. I never thought my life would turn out like this.

Lonely?

I read other people’s MySpace and Facebook comments and get sad, because nobody talks to me that much.

I miss you, Grandma..

When I was 10 my grandma got diagnosed with sirosis of the liver but it was really pancreatic cancer. I got scared and thought that it was contagious and that I could catch it and I refused to visit her for a little bit. I feel like this is the biggest mistake of my life and nine years later, I’m still regretting it and missing her.

sex addiction?

I love my girlfriend…. but today i slept with another woman who she considers to be a very close and trustworthy friend. and i get online and have sex on webcam. Up until 6 months ago, i’ve never cheated on anyone. ever. why now that i’m in late 30′s? I am a gay woman and i am even having webcam sex with men sometimes. Perhaps i have developed a sex addiction… i don’t know….

Vegas Stripper

I have been a stripper for over 10 years now. I started when I was in graduate school. After graduate school I realized I was not going to find a job that paid me as much as I made dancing, nor find a job that I enjoyed as much as dancing. So I figured I might as well capitalize on being a stripper while I still had the body and looks. Within three months I saved up enough money to put down on a house. That was the best investment I ever made. I also helped out my father with his finances, paid off as much as I could on student loans, and traveled a bit. When I finally did decide to “settle down” and get my career started, I chose to enter the teaching profession. However, even once I began teaching, I still continued to dance….the money was so ridiculously unbelievable. I didn’t want to, nor saw the need to stop. I started going out to Las Vegas to dance though….more money, clubs were open 24/7, you could work when you wanted, and less chance of running into someone I knew. I often times used some of the money I made in Vegas to buy supplies for my classroom. I taught for five years and danced on and off during that time as well. I decided to go back to school full time to earn another degree, this time in nursing. I of course started going out to Vegas a lot more to finance nursing school and to pay for my mortgage and other fixed financial obligations I had. I am a RN now and am trying to ween myself from the dancing, but I will confess, it is so hard to do, not just because of the money, but because I honestly do enjoy to job, especially after being cooped up in the hospital all night. Anyways, as I’m sure your wondering “How old are you now?” Well I’m in my 30’s but I look really young and do take care of myself, so I still do well when it comes to my secret life as a Vegas stripper.

This Is Wrong

I have just moved house, i’m 19 years old and i consider myself a lesbian, i met my neighbour and found out she’s a single lesbian mother of four. two of her sons live with her.she’s become one of my closest friends and we speak every day.

i’m starting to have feelings for her younger son, who is 15, nearly sixteen, but looks a lot older. i would never, ever act on this, but it’s just doing my head in.

he comes to see me every day, and i can feel his eyes on me, he stands close to me and looks at me in a way he doesn’t with anyone else. i don’t know what to do, because when i’m not with him, i’m thinking about him, and when i am with him, we’re getting closer and closer.

thankfully i have a lot of self-control, but it just confuses me.

damn religion and love

My boyfriend of almost seven moths has no real religious preference and i dont think he would leave me but I am Terrified to tell him that i am a Pagan of almost seven years. The only people who know are my best friend, my dad, step-mom and my ex boyfriend. I dont know what to do anymore but i cant hide who i am forever.

Found out

A few days ago, my younger sister and I found extremely incriminating evidence that our mom is cheating on our dad. I don’t want to confront her, and I don’t know who I can tell. I can’t tell my teachers because of who my dad is, and my friends recently deserted me. And I don’t trust anyone else enough to tell them. What makes me feel bad though is that even though I defended her to my sister, the signs show. Even I’ve noticed a lack of… affection in between my parents. My mom spends more time on her computer and webcam now than ever before, even though she says she doesn’t. My dad is absolutely clueless. I don’t know what to do. I’m trying to be strong for my sister, but I have so much piled on my shoulders right now, I don’t know how much longer I can stay standing.

I still check my ex-boyfriend’s emails

I know I shouldn’t but I can’t help myself. I want to feel connected to him in some way, I want to know what’s going on with his life and I want to know whether he has replaced me. I guess, I really want to know whether we could be together again.
I know it’s sad and I know that I should move on but I can’t stop myself.
I wish he would change his password.

Is it considered rape?

I was really sick with the flu last week, and I had to take alot of medicines for my coughing and congestion.
My husband knew that I was sick and gave me the medicine. Hes a good husband and always tries to take care of me when I’m sick…
but it kinda bothers me that he kept insisting on me taking more meds until I was too drowsy to even move out of the bed.
I even told him that I was feeling super drowsy and was concerned about it.

He kept on kissing me and taking off all my clothes. I love my husband but it was disturbing how he kept getting on top of me repeatedly having sex, kissing all over etc…
when he knew that I couldn’t move at all.
I feel sad about it, and it bothers me.

I mentioned this to him the other day and he said that I wanted it just as much as he did, when in fact I was really drowsy and needed to sleep. I was feeling like crap, sicker than a dog and all he could think about was having sex :(

I don’t know what to think about it. I feel like it was a violation, yet I know hes my husband.

dont know…. :(

ok, so i am sure that there are plenty of people who are going to think that i am a terriable person. I am married and have been for a while, but we are sperated. I have been seeing a man for a while from work. we had to keep it secret for a while, but due to a change of circumstance and location its no longer something we have to hide. so anyhow, this new guy came over and finally spent the night and wow, its totally amazing. For the first time in years, it felt right. i was left with butterflies in my stomach when i was leaving for work. I felt young and in love again. my husband and i have never had that kind of intimacy together. the new man held on to me or held my hand all night long while we were sleeping and the sex was WOW!!!. it was completely amazing. It was wrong, yes i know, but we are both in terrible marriages and both have reasons to stay married. I am totally completely head over heals for the new guy, but i dont knwo what to do. We started our relationship strictly based on sex, because humans have needs. I am afraid that i might be the only one that has feelings in this now, which i tried to not have. do i tell him, do i keep it a secret, or do i do something else? who knows, but now its out and i am going to go to bed and wish he was there.