Im going to hell, that is for sure.

Its true, I will be going to hell when I die. My real life is unknown by all but one person. I hide the real me to everyone, even my family. I’m divorced (with children), have been dating a married man for almost 2 years (with NO plans on stopping)and he isn’t the first married man I have been with either. I also have a guy in my life that I am pretty much using for his money, and he has NO clue. I used to like him but he just irritates the hell outta me now and he did some things to me that weren’t right. So, now I feel like making him pay for it. Do I feel bad? Not in the least bit. He’s stupid enough to let me do it so I will keep on as I am with him till I have what I want and then kick him to the curb. He won’t know what hit him. I am also guilty of wanting to kill someone from my past who hurt me real bad. I even know where I would put the body. I sometimes daydream about putting a gun to his head and watching him squirm and the sweat run down his head as I laugh in his face. Then pull the trigger and watch his lifeless body fall to the ground. I also sometimes secretly wish or would like to get back with my ex husband, and have my family back. Shhhhh don’t tell. So yep, I’M GOING TO HELL FOR SURE !!!!!!

I’m a horrible human being

I don’t love my step-kids and it FILLS me with rage that my husband pays child support which supports his ex-wife’s social life mortgage etc. Is this normal???

Wants to forgive a lost soul

I want to forgive the man that molested and tortured me from age 5-13 over 10 years ago. Im not sure why I just feel compeled to forgive him. I think in a way Im more godly then I thought and this is god telling me too. I just want to give myself to my husband and children whole and healed and not be so scared of every odd looking man I see. I know this will ruffle alot of feathers and piss many people off but I want to do this for myself and for my family most of all.

Laptop

i effing found porn on my dads laptop

I have a confession to make….

I set up a fake Facebook account using pictures of a friend that my ex never met. I requested to be his “friend” and now we chat on FB daily. He has no idea that it is me. I feel so guilty, but I love knowing what is going on in his life.

i can’t stop seeing your husband

i am guilty as charged

your husband called and he said he’s in town…
he picked me up at my place and we went back to the hotel he’s staying..

i don’t think i have to explain what’s happened next..

saying sorry would not make us stop. so i won’t said it..

This is who i am becoming.

This was me:

1)A fat Bitch
2)A bulimic
3)A person who hated themselves
4)a person who hated life

This is who i am becoming!

1) a slim person
2) a successful TV presenter
3) A person with perfectly straight teeth
4) a celebrity
6) A girlfriend to lead singer/guitarist of a band. and maybe become his wife
7) a model
8) A happy person

And for all the bullying from friends, family and enemies.
To the people who treated me like crap
To the people who made me feel like i was worthless, to the point i used to try and kill myself, hit myself or punish myself.

do you know what they get?

Nothing

they get to see me at my glory for once in my life. And watch me in through the tv screen and the papers. living my life and wishing that had given me the chance, instead of making me feel like that.

I believe in 4 things.

1)Dreams always come true
2)Mine are coming to me before my 19th
3) The universe delivers things you ask for, no matter what
4) The most important… IS ME! I finally Believe that i am worth something. that those years behind me, are just memories and that come september my life will change

Pop-Pop

I secretly wish you would die soon so i dont have to cry myself to sleep every night ’cause you dont even remember who i am.

College Fantasies

I’ll make this short and perhaps not so sweet. I am an older guy attending college. I am also a married man. In college, obviously, there are a lot of eighteen year old and older girls. Some of them are very sexy and hot. I sometimes fantasize about having sex with them. Actually, I would never hit on any of them but I sure would take a “hit” from them and take it as far as I could. So, there you have it, my confession. I want to have sex with a few of the girls I go to college with. So much so, I would easily cheat on my wife.

I Sometimes Starve Myself

I am a 28 year old woman, weigh 124 and am 5’7. I sometimes stave myself. I can go a long time without eating anything. And if I do, I binge on candy, or stuff that is not what I should be eating. I tried to tell my boyfriend about this and he said that I didn’t have an eating disorder, I just don’t want to get up and actually make something to eat…which is partly right…but the other part is not. I feel a sense of control when I don’t eat. It is not that I think that I am fat, because I know that I am not. It is more of the control thing. My life is stable, my boyfriend and I have been together for 9 years, we live together, have had the same job for 7 years. Why do I feel this way?

Huge Mistake

I had an affair with one of my best friends wife. I had always lusted for his wife, but kept my urges to myself. He left for a month long business trip, and his wife asked me to help her move something she couldn’t lift. I went over to their house, and moved the item, after which she insisted on making me dinner. After dinner, we were sitting on the couch talking and watching TV, and she started rubbing my shoulders, and then other parts of my body once she found out I was aroused. I couldn’t control myself, and returned the favor. One thing led to another, and well you know. After that we sort of developed a sexual relationship, and had sex 4 or 5 more times. I’ve since moved away, and don’t have to worry about seeing either of them. But the guilt that I have is eating me up inside. Almost to the point where I’m suicidal. Now I could never bring myself to act upon those thoughts, but they are strong. I’m not looking for a lecture on how wrong it was, because I know already. I just really need to get this off my chest right now.

Drug Addiction

I am addicted to Pain killers and i cant stop taking them i know i am killing myself and i dont want to die but i cant stop i love my kids so much that it hurts but that is still not enough to make me stop i guess you could say i am selfish and stupid i dont know how to quit !!! HELP ME PLEASE….