Incapable of love?

Posted by Anonymous in Spouse on Jun 1st, 2009 | 11 comments

All my life, I was looking for someone to love me for who I am; I dated so many idiots, but I loved them despite the fact that they abused me in one way or another. Now I am engaged after all these years, to the first guy who has ever been ANY kind of worthwhile, and now I am wondering if I’m doing the right thing by marrying him. People talk about “dying without being with that person”, and I’ve certainly felt that, but it was never reciprocated.

I fear I am making a huge mistake. That I really don’t love him, and I hate myself for even questioning myself. I am so scared….