The baby

Everyone thinks this pregnancy was an accident, but we planned it. I bought ovulation tests and pregnancy tests in bulk, charted everything online, and we tried so hard. Boom! Got it our first try! It’s going to set us back in our lives, but we’re happy.

I’m sorry

I’m sure that you like me, and you’re the perfect guy for me; smart, funny, musical, sensitive, easy to talk to… everything that I could want.

The only reason I’m struggling to make a move: I think that you’re ugly. And I feel so shallow for it.

I’m so sorry.

xxxxx

getting older.

i am 23, almost 24. but i cannot help but feel like i have wasted my youth. people will tell me that i am still young but i don’t feel like it. i feel like i should have accomplished so much more by now, and i just haven’t.

is this feeling going to get worse as i get older? i want to die.

Lesbian??

So I’m a lesbian and I’ve been with the same woman for close to five years now. I’ve started getting on xtube a few nights a week, sometimes more. But the only thing that turns me on much on there is men masturbating or 2 men having sex. Some of the straght sex is good…. but I don’t like any of the lesbian stuff on there. I’ve started getting real turned on by the thought of d**k. What’s going on here?

My Desire

It’s been almost 17 years since I had this man in my life.. and I still want him so bad. We had a brief, intense sexual expierence together, and it was sooo great I really wanted to further our relationship, but that didnt happen.. not sure why not. But I have found him again, and I cannot get him off my mind. We have been communicating thru text, and have spoken to each other, and we are both very flirtatious. 1 BIG problem, I’m married. I never really had a chance to close the door on what we had before… He wants to meet, and I’m hoping he’s ugly and has bad breath, so I can close the door, but I’m afraid I will become weak and let my desires take over…

Dear Mother

Dear Mother,

The last time i went to Cancun (when i was 14), i was literally drunk the entire week. one night i snuck out, found a random guy who was 20 and made out on the beach with him. He fingered me and I gave him head. I don’t remember his name. Another night, i snuck out, found a guy that was 19, went down to the beach, made out, got fingered, gave him head and then had sex with him. His name was Ray. One time at R’s house, i snuck out and gave head to the chorus teacher’s son. When i get bored, i go on groups on facebook, wait for some guy to hit on me, and then is send them naked pictures of myself. I also sent pictures to our neighbor’s bf because he asked me. We talk dirty online all the time. One time this summer, i hot boxed with A and T. I smoke cigarettes to take the edge off, sometimes.

p.s. if you ever hear me talking about “playing chess”, i really mean “getting drunk”. “playing monopoly” is smoking weed.

Love,
Your 16 year old Daughter.

losing faith

my mother is dying they have given her 1 year or less. i am grown adult but i feel like a scared little child, my heart breaks everyday at the thought of losing her. i know everyone will die but to be given a time frame is just harsh. i want to believe a miracle will happen but the truth is its a very rare diease and i know there are no other options for her. i can’t stop dwelling on this even though i should be enjoying the little time i have with her i can’t because i wonder what if this is the last time? i feel selfish for feeling this way because she doesn’t complain just accepts whats going to happen and goes on. if i could have one wish it would be to just be able to go to the mall with my mom like we used to do before she got so sick and just talk and walk around drooling over everything we couldn’t get. if you pray please pray for my mother. i love you mom always and forever.

I Lost My Virginity

I lost my virginity with a 38-years-old man. I’m 15, three months short of 16. It was on new year eve. We were in a party. I didn’t know anyone and he was there. I didn’t even ask his name and he didn’t ask mine. It was great. At first I wasn’t sure because he was too old but then he begged me and said that he was strong, that he could **** three times in a hour. I’m not sure what led me to do it but I did it. I want to see him again.

Should i try harder?

me and my wife get in occassional arguments about certain issues. Im 27 and she two years older than me. One in particular that bothers me is that we dont have a substanial amount of money saved up. Another problem is that were both not were we want to be career wise. My wife a teacher and im currently enrolled in nursing school and work part time with the federal government. It’s frustating because she always complaining that we dont have this or that… I try to stay focused with school and our issues but it can just be overwhelming at times. Im not a perfect husband, but i try to do my best to please her in anyway i can. To make things worse, she also has insecurity issues about her appearance. I also struggle with an addiction to porn. I try my best to stop and make my amends, but end up falling trap to it again. Ive stop for many months in hope of changing completely to no avail at all. I found that i usually result back to lusting for it after difficult situations in my life, such as my marriage difficulties. Nevetheless, a new year is right around the corner and i must do better to change completely, but i honestly dont know where to start. I want to be a better husband to my wife, become a successful nurse, stray away from porn and also pursue a few business ventures i have in mind. I pray every day that god will give me a better outlook and give me the wisdom i need to accomplish my goal; yet its still very hard at times and any comments would be appreciated. I will never give up, but do you guys think i should be trying harder…….