Secret Confessions

So here I am 25 yrs old fresh out of college with “the world at my feet” so to speak. Yet as much as i realize that I am blessed to be where i am i feel like a failure and i feel more than anything alone. I feel completely overwhelmed at the thought of having to repay these student loans which i resent having because I blame my lack of a proper support system for having to take out the loans in the first place. I feel frustrated because I worry that I will never marry or have a child or buy a home. I worry that I will spend the rest of my life living paycheck to paycheck. Worst of all though is the alone feeling the feeling that if i disappeared no one would realize it. Family that is to screwed up to care, friends who are to absorbed in their own lives to call. And a boyfriend who suffers from his own traumas, I dont want to be a burden but I am tired of feeling alone and I am at a breaking point. I would never hurt myself because I realize the senselesness in that, but I just need to somehow get myself back on track before i lose it.

You don’t know this but the day you called from abroad to say you had met someone else and couldn’t talk to me anymore was the day I was going to tell you I had lost our baby a few weeks earlier. That last night we spent together when you made me feel like a hooker cos I had walk out of the hotel alone, was the night our child was conceived. I lost our baby and even though you didn’t know, I hate you for the conversation you didn’t give me a chance to have with you. I hate the fact that I blamed myself - that maybe I had done something wrong. I’m over you but I will never get over the big empty space inside me. You’ll never know how close you came to being a father and I can never tell you. I do wish you happiness and I hope no one ever hurts you as much as you hurt me that day…..

I feel so lonely sometimes, I try to think back to past times, when things were simple. I wish I didn’t drink, yet its what keeps me going, so to speak…

i think i might be pregnant.
I’m a 17 year old roman catholic.
My gran would disown me. So would my dad.
I don’t know who i have to hold my hand while i make the decisions to get myself through this.
The condom broke; a mistake, an accident that couldn’t have been averted. But i still feel dirty. And I still feel like it’s my fault.
I live in Dubai, where there are no abortion clinics or contraceptives due to them both being against Islam. Nobody knows. I feel like the only person in the world.

I’m trying to deal with my feelings of disappointment, anger, frustration, and hurt. I just found out my co-worker got a senior position I also applied for. I really do like my co-worker and I am happy for her, but I am much more qualified and experienced than she is, so don’t understand why she got the job over me. It’s going to be very difficult to go into work next week.

My HS boyfriend. We were almost married, I was so stupid to break up with him. I still love him, even to this day. Now I am stuck. Married to someone I don’t love, with 2 kids I don’t want, living somewhere I can’t stand. My ex-BF is no longer living, so I will never get the chance to have the life I always wanted. I would give anything. Everything & anything to go back in time & change it back to the way it’s SUPPOSED to be. Sometimes, I look around & I say to myself ‘How the hell did I grow up to be ME? How is this MY LIFE?’ How could I have screwed up so badly? I am MISERABLE and it’s all my fault.

Lyndsie, i have known your for years and you are one of my best friends. I have known your boyfriend even longer. Before you and he got together, He and i were having sex. I was cheating on my boyfriend with him. Then he and my bf and i moved in together and were roommates. Once you and he got together we didnt stop. I tried to but he would seduce me and i would give in. On tuesday nights when you were at school and my bf was gone i would go down stairs and we would have sex. It was hot and dirty. I would even go meet him at his shop where he worked and we would do it. I have never told you cause I love your friendship and i don’t want to lose you as a friend. I just cant help it. He and i were together long before he got with you and it’s hard for us to stop.

about a few years back i lied to my bfnd…i lied about me gettin raped..getting gang raped by some men whom i didnt knw..den i claimed that they were mentally harassing me..god knws what had gotten into my head but i did all this to get that attention from him which i always craved for..i did the biggest mistake of my life my doin this..so i thot of confession here as im afraid he might leave me if i tell him the truth..

While mostly everyone in our downtown office was away on a business trip, I screwed my coworker in the server room. We have been screwing for a while but that day i got a text from him to meet him in the server room for a tryst. It was incredible and unforgetable!!!!