Secret Confessions

I want to humiliate my uncle, one who comes next to my father, in front of other family members, publicly till he starts hating himself. The thought of killing him had also crossed my mind at times, after a long drawn-out session of torture but just humiliating him enough so that he is not able to see me eye to eye ever again is sufficient, and to live with that humiliation for the rest of his life would give me immense satisfaction

How do I tell my family and friends im bisexual? Im scared of what they will think

My best friend’s husband made a pass at me a couple of years ago when he was drunk and walking me home after a party. I pushed him away and ran. I never told her. I’m not the first he has tried it on with. I know he cheats on her regularly. I wish I could tell her what he’s like but it would break her heart and I can’t do that to her. She’s been through so much heartache. He’s a jerk.

I cheated on my husband with both of his best friends. Both of whom he’s known since grade school. I feel horrible about it now, but we got together very young, were eachother’s firsts, and he was always so involved in himself he didn’t have room for me. His friends did. One even wrote me love letters and told me he’d marry me if i left my husband. Now, almost 2 years later, we have a wonderful relationship and I never even look at anyone else. I want to tell him because he deserves to know but i dont want to lose him! I’ll guess I’ll always carry this burden with me. But I do know the saying once a cheater always a cheater will not apply to me.

I thought you loved me. But clearly I am not worth risking it all to be with. I am tired of being your mistress, where all I get is bits and pieces of stolen time from her. And we have to be discreet, so I feel like I’m something to be ashamed of. Well I am tired of this shabby relationship. I deserve a full time lover,someone to love me ALL the time, not SOME of the time. If you loved me at all you would give me that. But you haven’t so I’m moving on. Thank you for loving me, but I guess you just didn’t love me THAT much.

Why don’t you have any ambition? You always think that whatever you’ve done is some kind of herculean effort that deserves praise. And if something goes wrong it’s everyone’s fault but yours.

But I work my ass off and no matter how much I do all I see is what’s still to be done…and if I screw up it’s my fault, it’s ALWAYS my fault.

I think you’re getting a better deal out of this partnership than I am. I feel used and screwed and lonely. I don’t ask much of you, but you could try to act like my requests aren’t so damned unreasonable. All I hear from you is how hard school is and how you wish you could quit your job to focus on school and how lucky I was that I could do that. You know what? You’re remembering it all wrong. I went to work too. Maybe not fulltime, maybe not every semester, but I also managed our home which is a job all its own. I worked so much harder than you’ll ever admit, and when I tell you how much I do, all you say is ‘well do you want me to do it?’

HELL YES I DO! But you know what? I don’t say that because I know you’ll never actually ante up and DO THE WORK. You just wait until I get frustrated and do it myself. You’ve got a pretty freakin’ sweet deal here!

What am I doing with my weekend? CLEANING THIS HOUSE. COOKING FOR YOU. LOOKING FOR THINGS THAT YOU WANT.

What am I doing with my life? CLEANING THIS HOUSE. COOKING FOR YOU. LOOKING FOR THINGS THAT YOU WANT.

I want more from life than this. I feel like I’ve grown up and you haven’t. I feel like I’m turning into someone that doesn’t need you anymore.

When’s it your turn to grow up? I can’t wait forever.

I was raped two to three times a week from my seventh grade year to my freshman year in high school by someone I considered a grandfather figure. I’m now a senior in high school. To this day after everything, I can’t hate him. Yet at times I hate myself for letting it happen especially for as long as it did. I have flashbacks frequently, and I feel as if I don’t deserve to be happy (I don’t know if this is from the rape or not, but I assume it is).
I hate that I can’t hate him for what he did. He’s roaming free and carelessly, while I have to live with the pain and scars every single day for the rest of my life.

I was your mistress for so long and at times I still miss it. I met you at work and we started having intimate relations. It was incredible and some of the best i had at that point. But you had a girlfriend. You told me you loved me and i fell for you to. Thats why it hurt so bad when i saw you and spent the night with you on a Friday and you proposed to her that Sunday. You didn’t even tell me you were gonna do it. It hurt me to know that you asked her to spend the rest of her life with you. I am the one that was supposed to get that ring!! You still tell me you love me, why couldn’t you leave her then?

That’s all it takes. I can’t have a “best friend” because in a period of two years I will hate her. It has happened four times. It started when I was eight years old and hasn’t stopped since then. I don’t know what’s the problem, maybe it was the fact that all of them were using me and I was stupid enough to believe they were my friends; either way I hate the four of them. I can’t see them because I get mad, full of rage and with desires to punch them.

Tonight I burst into tears when I walked into the door after you and your husband dropped me off at home. In front of your parents, his brother, sister and husband, his cousin and all the friends assembled he insulted you!!!

I could not believe that he used the phrase “make me” after you righteously told him to control his outburst of expression. I sat frozen, but [name withheld] who was to my right on the same sofa looked at your husband with total shock. After your correct chastising comeback to him your father patted his hand on your knee. What a gentle way of expressing to you that “this was not the time – not in front of everyone.”

You had every right to say whatever you had to say because he was wrong and had it coming. It was your house, but if the same thing happened in my place, your husband and I would have gone outside and I would have had a “Come To Jesus” talk, and told him to apologize to you!!!!!!!

I sense that you two made up, but I think he should have manned up and told everyone that what he did was wrong and that he was sorry for it and that all of it was his fault.

My heart is sad because I know how much you try in this marriage and I’m just an outsider who only knows how much you hurt when you have needed and ear to nibble on.

I will say nothing more of this matter to you when we hang out again, because you will tell me that he apologized and so on, and so on, and so on………….

I heard it with my own two ears; those two words that were said purposeful to pull you into a fight and showed a lack of maturity and a disdain for YOUR correct chastising!!!!

I hurt also, ……because I would never treat you like that……and I think YOU know that.

I wish you would just give up your rights as a parent… All you do is lie to our children on the phone saying your going to come get them and you never do come.

I hate you and I bet our youngest will to, she doesnt even know who you are.

Sometimes I wish you would fall off of a tower when your at work, atleast then the girls would get social security. Because your a deadbeat and dont pay child support.

I HATE you hate hate hate hate hate hate HATE you. I want to punch you in the face, I want to light you on fire!

You are a worthless peice of crap, how could you cheat on your pregnant girlfriend while she is on bedrest? I almost DIED having your child and you abandoned us… I bet you wanted me to die.

Why can’t you just give up your rights so we can all move on and be happy now?

You suck. I hope you develop erectile dsyfunction.

I married someone and had a child, you married sometime later and have 2 kids. 12 years ago we found each other (again), and I wish I had been mature enough to see what was going on..but I wish you had expressed what you really wanted. BTW: the sex was awesome…I wish we had had more of it..and had more time. So much different than when I lost my virginity to you. You were good.

I think, although I will never really know, that you wanted to marry me. But you never said it, and I married the man I was with at the time…you know him, and he knows you. You both have always been in my life. And yet, I am so unhappy.

I love my child, but I married the wrong person. You should know that, you deserve to know that. I feel in love with you the first time I ever saw you …. but I was just a kid. But it was powerful, so powerful that I still remember the exact moment and exact feeling.

Are you happy? Is she what you have always wanted? It took my personal situation for me to see exactly what I should have done, and where my feelings lie.

My husband cheats on me, did you know that? I think he always has…maybe you did know it…you two seem to know things about each other, but never sharing that info with me. Are you laughing at me now? Are you happy I am being cheated on?

I should have never ended it with a stupid phone call…”are you in love with me, do you still love her, are we going to be together?”, then click. I hung up. I should have never done it that way. Did you hate me for a long time? Did you know that the real reason I broke it off was because he proposed to me? And I said yes.

I think you discovered that fact a few years ago when I ran into you and shared how long I had been married. I thought I saw a gleam of “oh, now i get it? in your eyes. Even my best friend caught on before I did when I told her I saw you.

I think about you everyday…I even see you sometimes. I bet you are a great dad. I know you alwasy wanted a family. I wish you would have told me…I wish I would have known.

I wonder if you ever think of me. I wish my mind would let go of you..it hurts alot. But I want you to be happy, and if you are happy with her, then so be it. It seems she has provided you with a home, and a family.

Anyway, you deserve to know these things, and maybe you hate me enough that if you did, you would say Karma is a bitch. But if you still have feelings for me, love me, we need to talk.

i constantly have dreams where my brother and i are in a sexual situation. it disgusts me but i dont know why i have them

My mother’s birthday was last month and that day all the family had a good time together.
When sleep time came, i wasn’t sleepy cuz i had drank lots of coffee, so i just lyed on my bed.
After more or less 1 hour i started hearing noises like sighs or moans, so i got afraid. Then i heard my father’s voice whispering something and my mother’s giggles. Right after that, their door was closed, but i could still hear everything that was going on there…
I know that they are married and they can do whatever they want to, but still i feel so unconfortable when i’m with them…
Now, I think they are noticing that i’m acting different toward them and I don’t want to tell them anything about what I heard…

The idea of having sex really scares me…my friends tell me how beautiful i am, but when i look in the mirror all i want is to look like someone else…

how could anyone love me or bear to look at me naked when i cant like my own face!

perhaps its because i was fostered and adopted lots of times that i cant learn to love myself….how can i when so many of my ‘parents’ couldnt bring themselves to love me?