Secret Confessions

My ex cheated on me and gave me an STD. Now I am so scared that every single time I start to care for someone that they will reject me because of it.

I feel used and dirty and tainted and it isn’t even because I was out slutting around that I got it.

Add to all that, any person I care about and enter in a physical relationship will always be in danger of getting it from me.

I hate this.

My father is in the military, my mother is a stay at home mom, and I have a 13 month younger sister. My father dosn’t talk to me much thanks to my loss of spot. My mom and I couldn’t clash more, she sees her life as an episode of the desperate housewives (although she refuses her alligations). And my sister and I are practically at eachothers throats whenever my parents aren’t around. I just moved to the other side of the world, and hate it here. My dad’s pretty high ranked, so I have to lie to everyone who is here when I say that I am indeed enjoying it here. I hate this place, let me go home! I’ve always been rather shy, so when I was finally able to surround myself with good friends I could tell the world to, I felt complete in some way. And now that I’ve been dragged over here… my friends, my real family has started to ignore me. I guess you could consider that being a fake friend, but they wern’t fake. My parents keep trying to get me to make friends over here, but I can’t seem to do that. When I thought I did make a friend, she started to boss me around, make fun of me, and treat my sister badly, and I can’t get away from her. There is no sancturary here. I have no where else to turn.