Secret Confessions

I think I’ll be single for the rest of my life.
The sad part is that people actually say I’m pretty and guys do hit on me, occasionaly.

It hurts knowing that I screwed everything up once before. I was young and not ready for the same commitment, so when things got out of hand I did the easy thing and ran. You’re still one of my bestfriends though, and it’s taken so long to build up to that. I don’t want to ruin it. I don’t want to make you hate me for falling for you.

You say you love me. You say you want this to last, yet you show me no effort. No calls. No visits. It was my birthday yesterday. You magically “got sick.” Today you didn’t do anything, yet still didn’t come over to try to make up for yesterday. I can’t stand you sometimes, but it’s hard to picture things without you. You’re a bitch. I’ve been here all along. Always. And you can’t even make an appearance. I can’t do this. I won’t. You make me miserable and you wear on my faith of humanity. I would try to fix this, but you’ll never change and we both know that.

i have always wanted a kid, but recently i am single and i had sex with someone that was a one night stand after breaking up with my bf…now im worried i may be pregnant. im about to take a test but it might be too soon. i always said i would never abort, but if i am, i most likely will. i dont wan tto be that girl who doesnt know who the father of her child is.

I love my best friend. I really do. But to her, I’m just the crazy, sarcastic, friend that’s walked with her to school every day since 1st grade. It’s been years now. And we’re still stuck like glue. But she made a mistake today. She lashed out at me unintentially, stunning me within seconds with her words. I sat there, next to my computer, thinking that her email was a mistake. But she did it again. My best friend told me to ‘piss off’. She never swears, not Sam. I left, and now she’s crying, saying that she didn’t mean it. I’m reading her emails, not knowing if I should reply. But best friends can become strangers in mere seconds.

He broke up with me a year ago because he just didn’t love me enough to marry me. Truth is, at that very moment I felt relieved (I could actually breathe again). I didn’t want to marry him either. But it’s a year later and sometimes I wish that we were still together, unmarried, but happy. I miss him. And I still love him.

I love her.. I’ve loved her for the past 2 years.. i know she loves me back.. but its been difficult.. She went off with this boy, and ive tried soo hard to get her back, she’s cheated on him with me, but i dont think she wants a relationship with me anymore.. I want to shout and scream and confess my love for her to the world.. but i will be judged.. the only thing wrong with us at the moment is my anger, her leaving me for this boy has triggered off my anger in a massive way.. i hit her almost everyday, but she doesnt understand why.. I hate hurting her because i love her..

Please some one help me!!

well, that’s a big question. Why I want to die? And the only reason is “i m so alone”.
I make friends easily, but everyone takes me as granted soon or later. They think “oh! this guy is going to be with you always.! Just Show him a little affection.” I don’t know but i think that’s true.

Why am i so Hungry for a little love, a little affection, Can’t i get that, Don’t i deserve that.!
Sometimes, i hide myself from my family and cry a lot.
The problem in me is i am a FAT guy. But, there is no place for Love nowdays. Everyone needs Looks.
I just want to Die! just want to Die

YOU DONT KNOW IT BUT I KNOW YOU ARE JEALOUS OF ME YOU PRETEND TO LIKE ME BUT YOU CALL MY BOYFRIEND MORE THAN I DO YOU ARE DATING HIS UNCLE BACK OFF YOU B***h EVERYTIME I’M AROUND THE PHONE RINGS AND ITS YOU WANTING TO COME OVER NEWS FOR YOU THE UNCLE ISN’T STUPID ITHER WE BOTH KNOW SOMETHING IS STRANGE WE JUST DON’T SAY ANYTHING OUT LOUD WHEN I CONFRONTED MY BOYFRIEND HE SAYS I’M PARANOID AND HE ONLY LOVES ME I ALSO NOTICED HE TALKS MUCH NICER TO YOU ON THE PHONE THAN ME AND WHEN YOU COME OVER I WANT TO LEAVE BUT HE GETS ALL PISSY I HATE YOU EVEN THOUGH WE HAVE BEEN SHOPPING TOGETHER I WAS BORED AND COULDN’T WAIT TO GET BACK HOME AWAY FROM YOU YOU CAN’T BE TOO SMART DON’T YOU SENSE I HATE YOU ,YOU SKANK!!! GO AWAY !!!

There are things I do… bad things, which I fear to mention even here for legal reasons.

The problem is, I am not scared enough. There is very high risk involved in what I do; not of death, but of an utterly destroyed life. I feel like if I were discovered, my life would drop into an abyss of loneliness and despair, and that case may well drive me to suicide if it were ever to happen.

However, I continue my actions. This is no drug, with no addiction, simply something I like to do. And I know I need to stop, but my willpower is strange in the way that I can go on and stay on a diet for eleven months straight and lose almost 110 pounds, but I cannot stop this simple thing.

And I just needed to vent.

WHEN I WAS 14-15 I WASNT POPULAR AT SCHOOL , AND HADN’T ALOT OF FREINDS BECAUSE I WAS A SENSIBLE AND A SHY GIRL…AND I USED TO SEE ALL MY CLASS MATES(GIRLS) GOING OUT WITH GUY AND ORGANIZING DINNERS AS A GROUP! I WAS JEALOUS AND ANGRY AT THE SAME TIME BECAUSE NONE OF THEM INVITED ME TO SOMETHING…SO I TOOK A REVENGE AND I WENT OUT WITH 8 GUYS AT THE SAME TIME EVERYWEEKEND! I USED TO FLIRT WITH EVERYGUY AND SOMETIMES GIVE THEM ORAL…I WAS STILL A VIRGIN AT THE TIME.. I COULDNT REFUSE TO GIVE THEM PLEASURE…BECAUSE I THOUGHT THAT THIS WAY I WOULD BE LIKE MY CLASS MATES AND BECOME POPULAR !AND THEY USED TO THREATEN ME AND TOUCH ME HARDLY…BUT I CONTINUED TO PLEASE THEM…I DIDNT KNW THAT BITCHING WAS SOMETHING HORRIBLE….TILL THIS TIME , I STILL CANT FORGET THE DAY I USED TO HAVE THINGS WITH THOSE GUYS, BECAUSE I FEEL GUILTY AND PAIN AND HURT AND ASHAMED OF MYSELF AND BECAUSE I CAN’T TELL MY PARENTS :( IF THEY WILL KNOW ABT WHAT I DID, THEY WILL NOT SPEAK TO ME AGAIN!I WOULD HAVE CAUSED A DAMAGE TO THE FAMILY!

I’m about to start cutting off our frequent contacts together. Well to be honest I don’t have a car anymore and because of that I can’t surprise you at work and see your face light up. I won’t be able to do the things that I used to. I’ve been praying for change and I wonder….yes I wonder, is this it? Is this the start of change that I need in my life. I’ve even considered talking to a friend as I’ve already called and am waiting for a call back. I want to be whole and right now I don’t think I can do this on my own. You have no idea how deep I feel for you. You love your husband even thought you questioned it in the beginning, but you have made it clear to me that you do. I would never hurt you like he has or I would never put you second like he has, but he has been coming around and I’m happy that he is wising up.

We are the best of friends and I love it that way. I think of you as the younger sister that I never had and always wanted. I love your heart and I think I always will, but I have nothing to offer you and you have much more to lose. I need to start this distance, but I don’t know how and I also don’t want to. I just don’t know what to do.

I do not want to hurt you, but I need to see you as the friend that I cherish instead of the “almost lover”, and right now I’m not able to do that.

Oh God I just know that I’m going to hurt you somehow and this is going to kill me….

I hate it when people say “Once a cheater, always a cheater.” Because I am trying so damn hard to prove them wrong.

And I’m failing….

we all hate you for al the cursing you do
at work it is really not necessary you can get your point across without cursing
also MS.RUDE we are all sick & tired of hearing you tell us about what you and your girlfriend do if you are lesbian who cares just tone it down we don’t want to hear abot your sex life anymore i know you will read this I say this to help you you look like a FOOL and don’t even know it

I am 34, divorced, a single mother, and am middle class. After my seperation I dated someone (live out bf, who i wanted to be a live in) for about 3 years, off and on. We had a somewhat turbulent relationship. I was still sort of getting over my ex husband for part of the time. He helped me do that. He helped me feel i could make it on my own. Eventually he said he didn\’t feel important but i felt we had come a really long way and were better. Anyhow he broke it off finally for reals.

A few months after i met someone else and started dating this guy. What a super nice and sweet guy too! We are now living together an aside from somewhat boring sex and him being pretty busy with his life (writing a book and stuff), we have NO issues.

I asked my ex bf out for a drink and one thing lead to another and yes we had sex, and we did so about once a week for a month.

I have completely realized i still love my ex. I told my ex, and he seems to be scared to go out with me again.

I feel i have to end it with my partner and he didnt do anything at all to deserve this… I am afraid to do this because my child is rather attached to my new bf. Also because i love him, i am just so confused feeling that my ex is really the “one”. And whats even nuttier is that my ex does not seem to share these sentiments.

I could go on, get therapy, maybe anti-depressants and start to ignore my ex. We are no longer having sex. I feel if i tell my it will hurt him so much and thats so unfair. Also i could make a life with my bf, he is a good guy allt he way around. PErhaps i should just forgive myself, stay w. bf and get some meds to help me get over my ex? I am kind of pretty confused.

I am not an evil person, and i do not want to hurt people! I am not writing this to be judged but to sort of get a sense of what to do. Break with bf, live alone yearning for my ex, and hurt my kid and this sweet man? Make a huge play for my ex since i truly truly love him!???And hurt all? Or just forget my ex?