i don’t think i really love you

i don’t think i really love you. i mean i would be stupid if i did knowing the kind of person you are.
you cannot and will not ever stop trying to meet other people . you will always chat on the internet with stupid people and flirt and make sure you rub it in my face.
i just really want you to love me and then turn around and hurt you like you have hurt me so many times since we have been together.
vindictive
yes !

I love my bf but I like you

You sit next to me at work and I cant help but to like you.
I know it might sound silly but its the weird true, though I wouldnt accept if you ask me out yet it would make me happy enough to fly without wings .
I cant say I love you but still I’m not sure what those feelings are. And hopefully I never want to know what they are as I love my bf as much as I like you

I can’t believe him

I feel so alone nearly all the time.
I go on chat sites and talk to strangers to help me forget. I use these people to erase the lonliness I feel. When I’m filling my time talking to strangers who tell me I’m sexy and gorgeous I don’t feel so alone.

My mother doesn’t take me seriously when I agree that I should go to counselling or whatever. She just thinks I’m being sarcastic and insolent.

I have to fight the urge to start hurting myself again.

I have someone who takes away the lonliness. He’s lovely and sweet and kind-hearted. He says he loves me and he wants to be with me.
I can’t believe him because I don’t understand what he sees in me.
And I don’t want to be hurt again.

Only 2 other guys have told me they love me. One ended up telling me he didn’t love me and he never loved me, after months of letting me think he cared for me. The other said he’d love me forever. Let’s just say i no longer belive in the word forever.

Forever doesn’t exist and all guys lie.
I don’t want to think this but I can’t help it.

I don’t want to be alone anymore but I’m too scared to let anyone in.

Lonely

I think I’ll be single for the rest of my life.
The sad part is that people actually say I’m pretty and guys do hit on me, occasionaly.

It hurts to love you

It hurts knowing that I screwed everything up once before. I was young and not ready for the same commitment, so when things got out of hand I did the easy thing and ran. You’re still one of my bestfriends though, and it’s taken so long to build up to that. I don’t want to ruin it. I don’t want to make you hate me for falling for you.

I don’t think you’ve ever loved me.

You say you love me. You say you want this to last, yet you show me no effort. No calls. No visits. It was my birthday yesterday. You magically “got sick.” Today you didn’t do anything, yet still didn’t come over to try to make up for yesterday. I can’t stand you sometimes, but it’s hard to picture things without you. You’re a bitch. I’ve been here all along. Always. And you can’t even make an appearance. I can’t do this. I won’t. You make me miserable and you wear on my faith of humanity. I would try to fix this, but you’ll never change and we both know that.

oh god.

i have always wanted a kid, but recently i am single and i had sex with someone that was a one night stand after breaking up with my bf…now im worried i may be pregnant. im about to take a test but it might be too soon. i always said i would never abort, but if i am, i most likely will. i dont wan tto be that girl who doesnt know who the father of her child is.

Stunned

I love my best friend. I really do. But to her, I’m just the crazy, sarcastic, friend that’s walked with her to school every day since 1st grade. It’s been years now. And we’re still stuck like glue. But she made a mistake today. She lashed out at me unintentially, stunning me within seconds with her words. I sat there, next to my computer, thinking that her email was a mistake. But she did it again. My best friend told me to ‘piss off’. She never swears, not Sam. I left, and now she’s crying, saying that she didn’t mean it. I’m reading her emails, not knowing if I should reply. But best friends can become strangers in mere seconds.

It’s been a year

He broke up with me a year ago because he just didn’t love me enough to marry me. Truth is, at that very moment I felt relieved (I could actually breathe again). I didn’t want to marry him either. But it’s a year later and sometimes I wish that we were still together, unmarried, but happy. I miss him. And I still love him.

Its complicated..

I love her.. I’ve loved her for the past 2 years.. i know she loves me back.. but its been difficult.. She went off with this boy, and ive tried soo hard to get her back, she’s cheated on him with me, but i dont think she wants a relationship with me anymore.. I want to shout and scream and confess my love for her to the world.. but i will be judged.. the only thing wrong with us at the moment is my anger, her leaving me for this boy has triggered off my anger in a massive way.. i hit her almost everyday, but she doesnt understand why.. I hate hurting her because i love her..

Please some one help me!!

Just want to die

well, that’s a big question. Why I want to die? And the only reason is “i m so alone”.
I make friends easily, but everyone takes me as granted soon or later. They think “oh! this guy is going to be with you always.! Just Show him a little affection.” I don’t know but i think that’s true.

Why am i so Hungry for a little love, a little affection, Can’t i get that, Don’t i deserve that.!
Sometimes, i hide myself from my family and cry a lot.
The problem in me is i am a FAT guy. But, there is no place for Love nowdays. Everyone needs Looks.
I just want to Die! just want to Die

two faced

YOU DONT KNOW IT BUT I KNOW YOU ARE JEALOUS OF ME YOU PRETEND TO LIKE ME BUT YOU CALL MY BOYFRIEND MORE THAN I DO YOU ARE DATING HIS UNCLE BACK OFF YOU B***h EVERYTIME I’M AROUND THE PHONE RINGS AND ITS YOU WANTING TO COME OVER NEWS FOR YOU THE UNCLE ISN’T STUPID ITHER WE BOTH KNOW SOMETHING IS STRANGE WE JUST DON’T SAY ANYTHING OUT LOUD WHEN I CONFRONTED MY BOYFRIEND HE SAYS I’M PARANOID AND HE ONLY LOVES ME I ALSO NOTICED HE TALKS MUCH NICER TO YOU ON THE PHONE THAN ME AND WHEN YOU COME OVER I WANT TO LEAVE BUT HE GETS ALL PISSY I HATE YOU EVEN THOUGH WE HAVE BEEN SHOPPING TOGETHER I WAS BORED AND COULDN’T WAIT TO GET BACK HOME AWAY FROM YOU YOU CAN’T BE TOO SMART DON’T YOU SENSE I HATE YOU ,YOU SKANK!!! GO AWAY !!!