Change

I want to go away for a week and have no one know where I am, that I am gone, or when I will be back. I don’t want any questions or comments, I just want a break from my life.
Its really confusing. I cheated on my boyfriend with my best friend, now I want back with my boyfriend but I hate the thoughts of being a prick to either one..I really love them both.
I wish I could make things right again..but I am not sure what right is.. The trip away would help..problem is I have too many people nosing into what I do to get away like that…I wish I wasn’t 30 and still at home.

Oh, by the way.

Dear Space Case.;

Long story short.
we were best friends, I fell in love with you. you liked me, but never really cared enough to be in love. You used me. I knew, but, I didn’t want to let go.

You then dumped me over EMAIL.

You are not innocent at all, church boy.
And it’s your own fault. You decided to keep going, and you made all the first moves.

It;s not that I hate you…but.

I just hate the fact you can lose your memory, and then I have to pretend like it never happened.

Enjoy your life.

– The Lost Memory.

I regret stealing

Today, I don’t know how to make this right. I stole your prized possession and sold for $$. I wish I could get it back… I tried and it impossible.

Someday soon you will find out it missing.. I lost your friendship after 30 yrs.

The Man I Loved

I fell in loved to guy who is already married, have 2 kids and I believed having an affair with another female officemate (i felt). We always greet each other as in, everytime see each other in the office (weird did you think?). I always pray for him as in EVERYDAY, for heath, his family and good fortune. My officemates always tease me to him which i always denies it and treat them i will burn them to stakes (im so evil….). But, deep inside i really, really, really loved him. Btw im gay.

Complex

I’ve only known you for two weeks, but I already love you so much. The problem is I can’t really tell you, because you’re from my same gender. I’d love to hear you love me too, but we’re 4,000 miles away from each other. You’re the only one I think of when I feel down or in trouble. I guess I’ll never tell you. I don’t know what you think about me. I feel so sad when we don’t talk.

Confusion

Im Straight with a girlfriend but now i have a secret boyfriend who i do so stuff with all the time and i have even had sex with him and now i think im half gay.

I feel like a caged bird

I love my boyfriend with all of my heart, I really do, but sometimes it feels like he is a little too controlling. He’s never actually forced me to do or not do anything, but he’s so judgmental about other people, he whines a lot, he has really high standards, and when he talks to me he uses language like “you can’t” or “you won’t”, and even though those are just words and he would never really force me to do or not do anything, those words bother me because of the implication that he is dominant. Maybe I’m just rebellious and picky with words, but it really bothers me that I can’t do anything without worrying about what he will think about it.

Because I know him better than anyone else, I know he doesn’t have a malicious intent when he does these things. He has stated that he’s trying really hard to not be so picky and annoying about everything, and I know that he really just wants to protect us, because he hates the world and believes that everyone is out to screw everyone else, but sometimes I really wish he would give the rest of the world a chance and allow me to be an adult and make my own mistakes every once in a while.

I want to be able to be on my own every once in a while and not have to worry what he thinks. I want to be able to be reckless and stupid every once in a while without him getting angry about it. I want to be my own person.

Secretly Lovin A Friend

I knw i love this guy…hes kind and cute and caring….all these things made me like him…i even liked him more because he cares for me…were just friends hes got a gf….i knw im on the wrong track but…I’m still hopin that he would love me back….

Bisexual

Lately am starting to wonder if i’m sraight or not, am kind of attracted to men, but i like man to man sex more than man woman sex,(am a 23 year old women), where as i get sick even thinking about lesb. sex. am soooo confused, unsatisfied, and getting depressed.

Millie

God, I love you so much. I don’t think you’ll ever know how much i love you… <3

xx

It’s amazing how tiring life has got

****. It’s amazing how tiring life has got. Can’t believe you’ve managed to **** me up when i tried to help u. U nothing but a two bit twat who’s not even worthy to breathe air on this earth. Lemme explain to all u readin on this. I’ve known this guy for years on end. He tried to commit suicide and i thought i’d be that supportive frend. now pumpin in life to him and rescuing him from that its left me drained, exhausted and ****** up. he got better and happy when i was helping. somehow we ended up having sex. i was not that into it but it was good. next thing he started having mood swings and i knew he had to be bipolar. he got angry and punched walls i thot he was going to hurt me. he forced me to have sex and he was happy again. little did i knw he was controlling me. only when i was in a well so deep did i realize it was emotional abuse. i tried to keep afloat and help him. i moved faraway, but he hounded me with phone calls every hour of the day threatinin to kill himself or sayin he had bought a gun and was shooting himself, or jumping off a roof if i ever stopped talking to hm. i got him to calm down a few months later, but by then the same feelings of depression and suicide started to plague me. stupidly i tried to get help from him. all he did was degrade me and force me to do sexual acts. the last time he forced himself on me and anally raped me. he was like another person and he jus would not stop when i tried to get him to. i tried to tell him i was leaving and told him i was going to approach his parents to get him institutionalized, but he blackmailed me sayin he wud expose personal information about me to my friends and family. felt so locked, trapped and alone. cause i could not talk to any1. managed to get things together and breakaway from it all. but feel like i am losing it. feel my head is constantly trapd in this past bullshit. my self confidence has been robbed. i was such a bubbly outgoing person. now i cant even concentrate on the simplest tasks at work. my mind is trapd. i am a very intelectual person. have tryd to read books even turn to god. but i still have these feelings. the other day i was happy to know he was hurting and in pain after being attacked. feel like its karma. i am not a horrible person. just now wana be able to live a normal life again. its not easy to let go of the past. especialy if wounds have been inflictd for yrs. this site has let me say this. this is the first time im sayin help me…

Best friends?

After we’ve been done dating for 2 years we are closer than we’ve ever been. You are my best friend. I can tell you anything and everything about me. Nobody understands me better than you, and no one understands you better than me. Can’t we just give it another go? If not I think we need to stop talking all together, because I can’t imagine ever not feeling this way.