Secret Confessions

I used to cut myself… I am trying not to do it but its really hard not to. Mainly because of all the pressure that has been put on me. And I hate where I live b/c my mom and stepdad. My dad moved away from me about 5 years ago and he is the best thing to me and my bf whom I love so very much is moving away in about 3 or 4 months. I am afraid I might start cutting myself again. The guys at my school aren’t making it any easier on me…. I fear cutting again but I don’t think I will beable to stop myself from it. I don’t know what I am going to do…

i have liked you for almost 2 years and have watched you seemingly lead me on 2 times. a few days ago you told me you have liked me for almost 2 years as well but your still with yoru boyfriend. its frusterating. i honestly think i love you. you make me feel like know other girl has ever made me feel even after dating them for almost a year. you make me feel happier than i can describe and more amazing then you even know. i only wish i would have my shot with you…

I love you so, so, so much. I really need you to be there for me. I wish I could tell you how I feel, but I know for sure you’ll never want to talk to me again. I really want to tell you so bad, but I don’t want to lose you.

i am 45 yrs and i am married but my husband never seem to think to help me to fix my ugly mouth maybe becaues his mouth is so perfect or maybe because if i get my mouth fix i may attract someone else so please someone please help me ASAP.

I don’t know what to do…I really like someone @ work and its kinda a long story..try to make this brief…I transferred into this new dep’t and right away instant chemistry with him…we laughed all day and talked all day..he would buy me things…but i couldn’t tell if this was b/c he was being friendly and nice/generous…but really liked him..well still do…anyway..heres the thing..sometimes he would flirt with me..it would turn into teasing and then kinda insulting…but I would come back with whatever he would say..I find this fun..I think he did too…anyway..a supervisor put an end to it…I think alot of people didn’t like how our banter was…but the supervisor wrote an emaill about his so called “sexual harrassment” on me but it was nothing of the kind…anyway i got nervous..talked to a girl in the office and she mentioned to me that I liked so an so…I felt kinda naked about it so i said I didn’t like him that i have a boyfriend…well it turned out that the situation goto really bad..the weekend came about…monday morning arrived and the guy I like got mad @ me..(i think b/c that girl told him I had a boyfriend)…anyway.and he was standing there with the supervisor (he is friends wit h the supervisor) and he started in on me…I didn’t want it too get ugly and I was just protecting myself..so I went to a higher authority and told him about this e-mail and how I didn’t like how things were being handled..seeing how the guy I like and supervisor are friends..I felt my job was being threatened..anyway I think things are calming down..but I still like this guy…I guess I will never know…

we took in extended family members because their house was reposesed due to some moronic financial decisions. It was only supposed to last 6 weeks at the most. Cut to three months later, and here we are. Their driving me insane. All of them. I feel like i no longer have any control in my own home. I can’t do the things i want when I want. There are two young girls who represent everything I hate about little girls. and everyday, the frakking spanish soaps. Oh my God, how I hate the spanish soaps. If I never have to watch Univision again it’ll be too soon. The day they leave cannot come too soon. Rant over.

I havent been able to get a job that i would be proud of and currently am without any, it hurts because am a law graduate and everytime i apply nothing comesthrough. i have thought of ending my life because not having a source of income this long has affected my confidence and personality, i lie to people by talking alot but really i want to end my life real soon.

I Can Count My Favorites On One Hand.
REDToasters.Robots.Vampires.
Candy.Piercings.
I Can Count My Love On One Finger.
You.

But the number of butterflies in my stomach is endless.
<3

[Do you want to die with me.?]

I don’t know if I am angry, frustrater or hating the fact that he’s ALWAYS around ! I don’t want him hanging out with me and my friends !! he’s using me to get closer to them so he wont be lonely in college!! I don’t judge but I see bad intention vibes coming from him !! I don’t TRUST HIM!!

okay one day i was playing with my cell phone and i turned it on vibrate and all of a sudden i had an idea!

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first let me start by saying im a lesbian and i was trying to live a lie before, until i came out, but thats not what i want to talk about.

i met this girl like 2 years ago, we dated and we fell madly in love, i was the happiest person alive, when we were together i felt like nothing could go wrong and i felt like i could do anything. she has the most beautiful blue eyes and perfect blonde hair, she is just gorgeous.
after 3 months of dating, i was supposed to go on a trip to another country, to visit my moms family and stuff (my mom is the biggest homophobic, tho she didnt know about my relationship) when i was there, somehow my dads part of the family found out that i was dating a girl and my aunts started telling my mom, so i was stuck in another country while my mother was getting brain washed by my own family..

well my mother found out and decided that i wasnt gonna go back to the states, me and my gf continued our relationship for a few more months, i neve actually knew i could miss someone so much to the point ur heart hurts, just the urge to hug them and kiss them and just look into their eyes, its was unbearable.. my gf decided that we should take a break cause she wanted me there and it was too painful not to be with me.. we would still talk everyday on the phone and the computer, it didnt feel like we werent together anymore..

but not long ago she started dating, she has dated a few girls and i just get so jealous and i start bitching.. then she would tell me that she misses me and that she thinks of me when she was with any girl.. then it doesnt work out with them. but now she has found one and she is in a relationship with her.. when i saw her status i just wanted to break down and cry, it felt so horrible, my whole day was just weird and i couldnt take that off my head, just made my daily activities harder than ever.. today was the first day that we talk in weeks, i miss her terribly..

ive tried so hard to move on, tried dating, tried being with someone, just tried everything.. i dont know how to do it, i dont know what to do to forget her. its so scary to read and hear of people that cant forget their first true love..
im gonna be 20 by the end of the month and if wished would come true, id wish to see her one more time.
but ive wished so much and so hard that i stopped believing in them..
i would give anything to be able to hold her in my arms one more time, maybe thats what i need to finally realize that she is not mine anymore, even if her actual relationship is not going well and its only been 3 days

if anyone know what to do to forget someone, please tell me, cause i just dont know how

i love my boyfriend. he’s smart, funny, and really sweet.

the only problem is he makes me almost physically sick by the way he looks. i hate kissing him, and i hate going anywhere in public with him.

i was never shallow before i met him. what the hell is wrong with me. he’s really a great guy.

Hm.I hate it when my Mom and sister let it all hang out instead of looking presentable in front of their husbands.
But I’m actually really jealous that they have some to be so comfortable around.

I was unfaithful to my wife. I love my wife very much and want our marriage to work. I never should have let it go that far with this woman. It was extremely wrong of me. I am scared to tell her because I know that will be it for her and the marriage will end. I don’t want it to end, but i am having a hard time forgiving myself. This guilt is killing me. MAD please forgive me for doing this to you. I would tak it back if I could, but I can’t. I love you more now than I ever have and don’t want to lose you. God please forgive me for being unfaithful to my wife. Bring me peace and faith.

About six month ago I really hate my mother and I really wish she would die soon, sometimes I want to kill her by my self.

But now….. something change and we go along great.

I really wish it stay that way.