Dear “Love”

You Make me angry, i hate everything you do. I hate the way you treat me, i hate you more than i’ve ever hated anyone before…
But i wouldn’t leave you for anything!

EX-Fiance’

I was engaged to a girl for a year and a half. We left Austin and moved home trying to save money to move to California. While working at a newspaper I met and fell in love with a much more intelligent/talented woman.

I didn’t know what to do, but I stuck with my Fiance’. I was offered a full time job at the paper and moved back for good. My fiance’ decided to stay behind and a week later was dating my best friend ( and bandmate) of 11 years.

Was it happening while we were toegther?

I saw her at a concert for the first time since I left our apartment in tears three months ago. She was with him and he couldn’t look me, I could see his guilt in his entire body. As we passed each other, she grabbed my arm and looked into my eyes, saying nothing and everything at the same time.

What does that mean?

I love him.

I thought I had really loved until I met him, then I realized that I had no idea. Every day I fell, and still fall, more and more in love with him. On New Years’ Eve he stopped talking to me for a month, and I know that’s a shitty thing to do. It broke my heart. But no matter how hard I try, I can’t stop loving him. I don’t know if he wants me back now or not, but every day is like limbo.

I never thought that my first TRUE love wouldn’t love me back.

I suck

I have cheated in my past 6 relationships. I met this girl. we have been dating for 4 months and I promised myself it wouldn’t happen. She is away at her brother’s wedding. I had some friends over. at the end of the night it was just me, and my girlfriend’s best friend. We kiss. We make out. We kiss in the bed. We make out in the bed. Her best friend.

I love her but I can’t have her

I love her so much. We hang out whenever we can. I used to call her out and now she calls me out. It’s so frustrating to look at her and feel the way I do and not be able to act on it.

She has a boyfriend.

I’m just waiting now. I’m waiting for that one moment where she’s single and I can finally tell her how I’ve felt for so long. Even if she doesn’t feel the same way, at least there will be no more secrets.

It would be something if she did love me, too. But even if she did have feelings for me, I don’t think she would tell me. I think it’s best this way given the circumstances. Oh… how life can be so absurd…

afraid of being cheated on

Ok, so this is kind of complicated and probably all my fault, i’ve been dating my girlfriend for almost two years now, my last relationship ended horribly and i only found out later that she had cheated on me. my g/f now tells me that she loves me and only me but every once in a while i get the feeling like she’s been doing something (i don’t know what exactly) behind my back, kind of like my ex was acting before we broke up. what’s worse is that i have a friend that i love spending time with, but every time i see her or talk to her, i get this feeling like i just want to end my relationship and ask out my friend. help please?

Baby Maybe?

You were so scared babe when i told you i had missed. What IF? What is i was going to have your child, what if i wasn’t? And i thought you would be relived when i wasn’t, but i think you wanted to have a child with me, maybe. You just seemed so dissapointed. My secret? I was a little dissapointed too.

I Hate My Father

I hate my father. I don’t care that some people think “hate” is a strong word. You don’t have him as a father. You don’t have to sit back and listen that he “regrets the day you were born”, or how he gives you the silent treatment.

I hate my father. I hate him and I can’t believe I defended him after all these years.

I Confess

People
I am going to make him pay for what he did.One day,I’m going to make him commit suicide,just the way I tried because of him.One day,I’m gonna ruin him,destroy him.He would be devastated one day just like me.One day,I’m going to kill him.
And I am waiting for that day.

dead ex gf

so im going to camit suaside in about a week no one gives a shit and when ppl does they dont try very hard i lost my gf of 3 years we planned a life together started at 15-18 she was sepos to call me to tell me on my 18th b day she will pck me up … the years go by all is great we never get in any fights and we loved eatch other very much she called me when i turned 18 she was 19 then she tells me she is dumping me i balled my eyes out i then tried to kioll my self all that did is send me to the hospitol i got out she called me 2 weeks after i got home i told her i cant handle this and hung up i went on msn to talk to my best friend she went on and put her cam on she had a gun to her head i begged her not to all she said while ballin is i am so sorry and 2 seconds latter blood galor its bin 6 years and a half and i am still in love with her .. WHAT THE **** DO I DO

I love her but

My girlfriend’s madly in love me, but I’m madly in love with him.
He’s amazing. I’m in awe; infatuated. He’s so beautiful and nice and- I just want to be with him.

Why is this happening to me?

They would hate me if they knew

Oh, my family and friends think i’m just a “normal” kid. Well guess what f*ckers. I’m not. I watch weird sick porn, i fantasies about killing ppl, i cut myself and love too see my blood running down my wrist! I have even tasted my own blood, makes me feel like a vampire. I smoke, i drink, and i am everything they think i’m not. They will never know, and i love just smiling at them somethimes and having them say ” what are you smiling about?” just that i tasted my blood last night.. but u will never know ” nothing..”