i have no idea what to do…

so i met this wonderful guy a few months ago. hes charming, sweet, honest, a total dork (i like that in a guy :) and just over all amazing in every way. and he and i have spent almost everyday together. he likes me and i am absolutely crazy about him. the only problem is that he has a horrible ex who cheated on him for almost a year and i totally understant that he has baggage and i dont want to force him into anything that he isnt ready for, i guess it just gets frustrating..but then i feel guilty for feeling frustrated…and i know that he hates his ex and that he wants nothing to do with her, but i always have that nervous feeling in my stomach that he will get back with her. he told me that he does see our weird friendship going somewhere, but he doesnt want it to seem like hes forcing me to wait for him, but i dont mind because there is no one else i want to be with. so we are basically just two people that like each other that are physical at all…which is another frustrating situation, there is some sexual tension..that eventually might become a couple…i worry myself because i think im falling for him hard, and i dont want to like him as much as i do because i always have that looming feeling like its not going to work out and ill get my hopes dashed. its maddening…ya thats pretty much it..thank you for reading

Not Sorry

I know I like him, and my parents would kill me. He isn’t a bad guy, he isn’t even much older than my 17 years.

It’s all because they would say that I don’t know him very well, but I do. There’s just something in the way he woos me, it’s like not much else matters. He makes me feel important, special, and beautiful instead of “hot”. He attracts me like no other guy has ever done before. I’m amazed, scared, and excited.

I won’t be able to actually date him for about a year, because of the fact that he is going home (to England), and because of my parents.
When I’m 18, none of that will matter…and I’ve always wanted to see England anyway.

He’s told me he likes me, and even though I haven’t said anything back yet, I know he can tell. Ever since I’ve known him my skin looks somehow brighter, and my eyes are so…light.

Is it possible that I could already love him?

My parents would kill me if they knew I was planning on leaving. I hope and pray they forgive me..
He tells me he’ll wait.

Bigger

My husband’s penis is very small. I would never tell him that and I know size isn’t supposed to matter but I can’t help wishing he was bigger. I love him with all my heart so I would never consider having sex with anyone else, I just can’t help fantasizing about having something inside of me bigger than a finger.

Virginity to Prostitute

I’m 31 and until 2 days ago was a virgin. Tired of masturbating frequently to fantasies I decided to go to Amsterdam. I lost it to a prostitute in her early 20s and felt really bad as she was really friendly and naive and I had taken advantage of her when I should have tried to convince her to change jobs. I felt really bad afterwards but then later in day went to another prostitute to try and convince myself it wasn’t such a bad thing. The second time was better as I felt more confident but I still feel guilty. I used condoms so on problems there but don’t know how to shed the guilt.

The one I loss

Why did he have to be taken from me? I waited too long! I was secretly crazy about one of my best friends’ brother, since I was 8 years old and I am now 21. Me and her brother argued most of the time but in a playful way. He flirted with me every now and then and would always say “I know you want me”, I would say “boy please” (but inside screaming I want you more than you even know), The last day I seen him a live was on his sister’s birthday. We had a good time he asked me for my number, but because I was trying to save face in front of his sister and our friends, i didn’t give it to him(I wish I did). His mother even joked around with us saying” you see boy u need a woman like her”… and I needed a man like him. We witnessed each others growth from a distanced. He seen me grow from a little girl to a young woman. And I seen him grow from a little “Usher Raymond look-a-like” to a young man.
He got killed almost exactly a month later. Omg did I cry so hard.Its really just setting in today that he is gone and is never coming back:-(. I’m tearing up now. I wish I could show him how much I cared and wanted to be with him. I wish I would have given him my number and maybe he would have been with me that night instead of losing his life at the age of 24. Maybe we could have fell deeply love…even if it was just for a moment it would have been great. He could have been my heart… my nerve.I miss you. The love I never had. See you when it is all over.

i love my best friend but shes like a sister

I love my best friend but shes like a sister should I tell because I want to but Im not sure if I should.
Im want to tell her all the time but do not have the confidence to tell her.
We are always hang out with each other but when I go to tell her I always end up saying “so how are you?”
I know she likes me but not in the way I like her.

I Hate myself

I am 15 years old and I weigh 90kg.I look really ugly, only my face is nice. I am not fat because i eat fast food. My reasons are: i dont work out, I sleep about 4-7 hours a night, I am starving myself, thats how i punish myself, i eat 1-2 small meals on school days , on weekends i eat when i feel like it, I never eat in the morings, I know I should. This isent healty, I know every way to keep fit but havent got any motivation.I live in a place were looking good is everything, everbody says that I should change but I like being this way, it is easier. All of my time goes into doing house work, baby sitting and homework, which is really hard.I am usally were happy when i can sleep over 5 hours a night. Being fat has caused me a lot problems like when takling to other people a feel very uncomfortable, starving has caused a lot sharp paines in my stomach, i have never had a boyfriend, I havent got TRUE friends .I feel like slave in my own home. I dont get along with my parnts that good.My dad is very angry or drunk most of the time and my mom is usally pissed off. So I dont like arguing with them. I think about suicide a lot. For me it is easier to die then to live, I am not scared of dying.If i was a other person i would probably kill myself. I wish i had a purpose in life but all my dreams have been crushed. I dont have reason to live anymore. My life is very hard it is work WORK WORK WORK alll the time. I hated sooooo much. Please help me!!!

Demons in my dreams

I still remember the war…. 12 years of civil war…. the heads of people cut off on the side of the street…. i was a child then … i still remember and at night they come to me in my dreams ….. its 15 years later when will it stop…. i took a gun to my head to night …. almost pulled the trigger, i remembered theirs more to life but i feel like one one this nights… i will make the demons stop and leave everything behind.

best friend

i met my best friend in my 3rd yr of high skool and we’ve been close since then. during our first yr of college she got pregnant and she only told her parents at 7 months. as u can imagin they were angry and still are to this day(its been more than a yr)..though her mother speaks to her now .but anyway.. i allowed her to stay with me and my mom and bro because of her family issues at that moment. but living with her hasnt been easy AT ALL!!! seems i liked her better when we werent spending every day together(bad friend huh) my mom doesnt like her either.. and allows her to stay at home only because she’s my friend. i want her to leave the house now cause nobody can stand her anymore.. she’s demanding,likes everything her way,expects u to bend for her,MESSY and sooo much more.. i dont know what to do. i mean..she’s still my best friend and i love helping to take care of the baby…but i want her to leave..her mom doesnt even mind her coming back home,though her dad does. WHY DOESNT SHE WANT TO LEAVE???WE CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE

I Hate My Dad

Am 23 yrs old, and my problem is my parents, particularly my dad.
he left our family when i was 6 yrs old, but he support us fainancialy, and he thinks by his money he can control us. am still living with my mum because she has no one but me and she is getting old,and am a full time student and that makes my dad still supporting us. i know its its his duty to do so, but he has no right to control my life and my decisions that i make,but my mum keep telling me dont stand aganist him because he might stop his money! I hate it when i fell helpless and untill this age am told what to do, where to go and when, am not supposed to have a boyfriend or even get married (because am still young as he keep saying), i really HATE it. but its almost over and am going to finish school and have a job, i study pharmacy and i know i will get a good one. but i still feel that i dont have any personality and dont know how am going to face the world by myself.because i wasn’t indepedant even for a second in my life.
Do i have the right to hate my dad??!!!!

27 and confused

in 7th and 8th grade my friend and myself experimented with eachother. This lasted about a year. he moved away and we went to different highschools. Since then there are certian urges I get to be with a guy. I have been married 4 years and I love my wife very much. I told her about this time in my life and she seems to understand but questions why I told her. I think I get off on telling her about what my friend and I did and how we got caught by his mother.

Lonely

I’ve had a few problems in the past. Major problems. I used to go to an all girls school and I had a weak bladder, so when all the girls found out they called me things behind my back. I tried to tell them the truth, but I knew they’d just tease me even more. Now it’s the future and I have no friends. No one will communicate with me in my new college. When I do talk to people they just stare and smirk. I hate to say this, but because of this I’ve attempted suicide numerous times. I wonder if I did tell them the truth would the be my friends today? Thanks for reading