Secret Confessions

My boyfriend and I were together for 9 months… I started growing away from him and he tried so hard to keep things working. But then he started pulling away. I tried to stop what was happening but it was too late and we broke up. Then I found out I was pregnant. So we got back together. He says he can’t believe he’s back with me because of the way I treated him at the end of out relationship. He refuses to sign the birth certificate because if his school finds out he would be kicked out and lose all chance of becoming an officer in the Army. He says he’ll sign after school, but it hurts. He’s 1500 miles away and I would give anything to have him at the birth, to have him sign. He feels lost and confused, unhappy. But I don’t know what to do. No matter how much I love him, I can’t make him feel the same as he did before… I love him so much and would do anything to have him be a part of our lives. But I don’t know what to do.

I hate you. I cant believe what you did. You promised me. You swore on your life. But you broke that promise. Now people dont see me the same. They all think I have a problem. And its all your fault. I thought you were my best friend. Thanks alot.

I’ve never been one for the epic sadness… But I guess that’s a lie.

I climb into bed only to stare down at it and realize it’s empty. And I feel empty. I always have to put on a face for someone, sometimes I have to be someone worse than I actually am to please people. And I love to please them.

My boyfriend, for one… I’m only seventeen but he means everything to me.

Sleep means nothing without him.

I just wish he wouldn’t ignore me, I wish he would scream at me and hit me and call me names. I wish he would acknowledge that I am here, and that he is safe and that I won’t use him like the others did. I could never use him, I could never hurt him.

And yet whatever he asks of me, even if it kills me, even when he shows me a picture that some girl sent him of her breast on his phone, even when he tells me I should get bigger breasts… Even when he ignores me, I still love him because he is the best I’ve ever had. I love him, and I wouldn’t trade him for the world.

I’ve been told that so many times, and I never listen.
I probably should… heck, I know I should.
I’m a fifteen year old bisexual female, and I got dumped by my girlfriend two months ago.
And I guess that’s where it all started really.
She broke up with me because she said I needed to get help, I wasn’t self-harming at the time, but ever since she broke up with me I’ve tried to kill myself twice and even at school I sometimes just go to the bathroom and cut myself.
I know I’m being stupid and I’ve been told so many times that I need help, but I feel like I don’t want to.
My writing has always been where I turn when I need help and I spill my thoughts onto paper instead of to other people.
But recently it seems like I need to be bleeding in order for me to write. Otherwise the words just get choked up and I can never get them down.
I know I need help, I just don’t know what to do with my life any more.
Please help me.

I know everyone would judge me but I’ve been in love with this guy for about 3 years now. I only think about him and do anything I can to be around him. I finally told him I loved him a few moniths ago and we ended up getting very intimate. I believe I’ll marry him and even though I’m a christian, I have slept with him. The problem is that he is my youth director and 10 years older than me.

Now I can’t be with him cause I do want him to get into to trouble and can’t tell anyone what is wrong. I wish it could all be ok again. I wish I had never messed up his life.

So I work at a homeless shelter. The burnout rate for social workers is extremely high, and I now understand why.

I genuinely care about a lot of the people I work with. Many of them are good people who have fallen on hard times. Some of them work a hell of alot harder than I do, but things just cant seem to go right.

Others are system abusers, con men and women, and generally nasty people.

Some have some interesting mental disorders that make them the most annoying people in the world (through no fault of their own, of course).

I feel myself getting jaded. My smile is now fake when I tell the forgetful woman what time curfew is..every single night. I am having trouble listening to that guy who just wont stop talking in circles, and going off on tangents, you know, the crazy one who talks for thirty minutes to an hour, but never finishes a thought.

Worst of all, I feel myself not caring as much as I used to. I feel resentment. I catch myself blaming people for the crappy hand they have been dealt, which is something, as a sociologist, I promised I would never do.

My job can be very rewarding, the feeling of helping someone get back on their feet and independent again is wonderful. I see people on the street who came to me without hope, and leave with confidence and stability.

I just dont know how long I can keep going before that doesnt affect me either.

After you decided I didn’t mean enough to you for us to carry a meaningful relationship, I drove all the way to California and slept for six whole nights in his arms…
We are getting married in a few months.

Ok where to start im a girl im 19 and my lover happens to be my cousin. i first fell inlove with her 2 years ago when we spent all our christmas holidays together. it was so obvious that we were both into each other but none of us was willing to make the first move until about 5 months ago when she came to stay at my flat whilst she was looking for a flat to rent she seems so natural around the house she would often walk around naked and culdnt help but stare about 1 week after she moved in we were having a few drinks by ourselfs and she then confessed her love to me i replyed sayin i loved her to we then spent our first of many nights together as a couple we have decided not to tell family about this as it would break there hearts as we are a close knit family we planb to mave interstate so we can live our life as a couple.

My parents were missionaries. My dad is a pastor. They’re supposed to be good people. I wonder what my church would say if I let them know that my dad has broken three of my ribs, two of my teeth, and given me a concussion. I hate smiling during his sermons like a hypocrite. I hate him. I hate that I hate him. I wish I had the strength to forgive but I can’t. I hate who he’s made me.

I still love my ex-boyfriend. We broke up about two years ago and there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about him. I wish I could forget b/c I know that nothing will ever surface again. He was the sweetest person in the world.

I am a 15 year old girl and i have been in love with a guy for 3 years, he is one of my bestfriends brother. i knew him before i even knew my bestfriend when it was the summer we went to the same place together and we practically spent the summer together they even slept over in our house and god how beautiful he is when hes sleeping. he is so not my type and hes nothing what im looking for but its something about him that my heart loves. i told him i liked him every single year of our friendship and the first time he told me that we should stay friends. the second time he said stay friends and i have tried but i just can’t when i told him the last time he didn’t say anything but after a while he told me that he didn’t say or do anything when i told him because our parents know each other and that he knows my brothers and that im his sisters bestfriend, but the thing is i see those as good things. i think its a way of seeing each other more than we already do but i guess he just doesn’t see those things the way i do. now its even more hard on me cause he has a girlfriend but the girl he is with doesn’t love him the way i do and im sure of it cause she told me that she used to love him but she doesn’t anymore and that she only likes him now and thats shes fallen for someone else i want to tell him that but i don’t want to break his heart. i really don’t know what to do anymore i love him so much i mean seriously and why can’t he just see that ive never felt anything like this before in my life, part of it is that im young but in the same time its just him. i want him to badly im actually at his house right now. everyone says we are perfect for each other. i need help i dont know what to do im going crazy!!!

Im in my final year of high school and recently a new guy came to the school, its been about 2 weeks now, and I’ve noticed I really like him. But the problem is he doesn’t notice me and im to afraid if I go up to him I will make a fool of myself. Also the popular girl likes him, but she has a better chance then me, because when he first came to school she took him under her wing, im so confused and don’t know what to do.

I’m sorry I was a bitch at your wedding.

You probably think it’s because I don’t like you any more, or because I don’t approve of the marriage. That’s not true. You’re amazing. Your partner is amazing and the wedding was amazing.

So the truth of the matter?

It was because you broke my heart when you didn’t ask me to be a bridesmaid.

Im sleeping with a man who has a serious girlfriend. And I feel completely fine with it. Not a hint of remorse,or guilt, or shame. And to my surprise I feel so natural and at home with him and our relationship. He is giving the best sex of my life…and I mean that literally.
I pursued him just for sex because I knew he was in a relationship, but last night he told me he bought me to his house to make love to me, not to **** me. When I walked in the bedroom it music was playing and candles were lit and I was about to shit bricks.
He told me that because we’ve shared our bodies that Im a part of him and he’s a part of me and that makes me his.(Im CTFU while writing this)and he taught me how to make love.
For 15 years seems like all I’ve been doing is screwing around with boys…this man(Im 29 and he’s 38) made love to me and he taught me how to make love back to him. My entire body is sore, my legs, thighs, back, neck, arms and of course my in between.
Im afraid Im going to fall inlove with him…I want to leave him alone but he has me addicted to his dick and I’ve been thinking about him all day.

Im so afraid Im going to fall in love!!!

Yes, I understand that you have lived and worked in the office longer then me. But I am higher ranking then you and it pisses me off that you are always going over my head to get things the way you want. I also know about you trashing me behind my back within the community in hopes that people will complain to get me fired. Guess what, I’m not going to play these games. You might get along with the supervisor but I get along with the owner and he sees what you do to. If you didn’t want anyone to have the position then you should have applied for it yourself over a year ago. I’ve only been here for a couple of months but I know what games you are playing. Even if you do get me fired, there are other places that would like to hire me. Just needed a way to vent.