Suicide

I am now middle aged but every day for the last few years I have thought about killing myself. Just about the only thing that is stopping me is remembering how devastating my father’s suicide was for my mother and brother. But I don’t know how long that is going to be enough of a deterrent

princess

i do not even know where to start i have spent the last 3 hours reading all the messages. so here is my own.

he broke my heart, i loved him, i gave him everything and i did make him a better person, our families loved each other, we were to move in with each other. he promised me the world.

though he never did treat me right. i am writing this because i stayed with him because i didnt want to be alone thats no reason to be with somebody. i did love him i still do. but i was with him for the wrong reasons. people reading this you its ok to be alone.

i miss him like hell, but my heart is now happy. and yes i am a fully grown woman but i still want to treated like a princess.

scary

I am always feeling alone and I don’t know how to deal with it. It got so scary sometimes; I always imagine myself dying alone which is my biggest nightmare. I want to do something about it, I want to be normal, but I don’t know how to start. Truth be told, I’m too scared to begin living. What the hell is wrong with me?

i don’t know..

i’ve seen
my parents have sex
when I was about 10-11
i hated it
i just wanted to tell them to just shut up
and close their door

Do I have to ??

Well, Im engaged. Its been about 1.5 year
I fell in love first. I wanted him so much. He’s so sexy, cute with a great sense of humor and knowledgeable about almost everything. He is independent as well.
I loved him throughout this time despite of the fact that he was so aggressive sometime and he made me feel stupid in public.. Also I hated his parents since very first moment I met them & they never seemed kind 2 me although they know Im really the best he can have..
We went to a trip to Cyprus for a week, his behavoir was beyond tolerable..
After that I thought about breaking up with him every now & then. I threatened him so he started to be more considerable and apologized so many times and admited his mistakes.
Now it’s time to marry. Although he’s 30 he hasnt saved so much. His parents aren’t eager to help.His sister is my boss, she teases me in her very own way at work. His mother doesnt invite me for events, she just call him and that’s it.
Everything related to marriage & his family just gets on my nerves. What should I do ?
Please help me. Should I postpone the wedding? or I should break up? What can I do with my in-lows?

tip of an iceberg.

So many people claim that they admire me because I’m “so smart”

because I’m “so independent”

because I’m “so strong”

I’m tired of being strong. I’m tired of having to do everything for myself. I’ve just turned 22… and I’ve already been on my own for 5 years. I lost my mother about a year and a half ago and I still haven’t let myself grieve about it because I’m afraid that if I do, I’ll finally break and there will be no one around to pick up the pieces. I want someone to save me. Is that so bad?

If it’s not… then why is it so hard for me to admit it?
And why can’t I stop feeling so lacking inside?
Then I feel guilty for allowing myself to express how I feel. I know I have no right to complain when there are so many other people who have it worse.

And if one more person tells me that all I need to do is pray… I’ll ******* scream.

Long distance relationship

Hello I am a 27 year old who just had an amazing relationship with a student i met in my home town. Well I moved to another country and after 6 months she will finish her school and we will be together again.

Now heres the problem . I am addicted to sex and so is she.. We are both modern attractive people and can get whoever we want.

But… We decided to stay together so that means no cheating on each other..
Well when we were together we`ve made love 2-3 times a day for 6 months not excluding periods.. :-P I love it and she loves it.. Now 1 month of loneliness has passed and we are both going crazy with the fact that we dont want to cheat on each other but have an irresistable urge to have sex…

I have the opportunity now to cheat on her and i know she will never find out.. Do i have the right to cheat on her if i know she will also do the same ??? I mean we really love each other but we are both seriously addicted to sex…. What shall we do ??
I am afraid bringup the issue of leaving each other free for the 5 months left will result in me or her falling in love with somebody else … I really want to marry her and she really loves me..

Girls please tell me… Would you cheat on me if you were in her situation… I really need some re-assuring here.. I dont want to be the only one sticking to the deal… If we both dont cheat on each other its okay… i will wait for her.. but i know she loves sex so much she wont be able to stay faithful…. Help me make up my mind please??

I hate my best friend’s wife

I’ve been very close with a friend of mine for over a decade, now. It’s actually the epitome of what a “best friendship” is. Because of that, when he started dating this girl, I expressed my reservations but was very supportive of him in every way. Eventually, they got married and I’ve always been very sweet to her and never express anything to either of them.

But I can’t deny the truth that everything about her bothers me more and more. From the irrational behaviour and beliefs, to the general white-trashy attitude, to the idiotic certitude in the face of overwhelming evidence to contrary positions.

I don’t know what to do.

Gah..

Wow.
What a convenient site.
Well, I’ve just started a year at a new school, and as usual I’m having no issues whatsoever making friends. But, my two best friends who I trust the most are at a different school. I haven’t seen them in a while, and I’m terrified of losing them.
I do have a really close friend at my new school, but I don’t feel that she’s the sort of person I’d tell important things…
So, to replace the contact I usually have with my best friends, I’ve begun writing on sites like Livejournal, Mibba, Quizilla etc. and building ‘no-strings-attached’ friendships with people I can relate to. I don’t know if this is a good thing or not, but I really don’t need any lectures on ‘internet safety’ or ‘the dangers of online predators’. Spare me the repetition.
I’m pretty sure it’s better than keeping everything bottled up, I guess. My parents are thinking of sending me to see a therapist, since I’ve been depressed. They recently found out I’ve been taking pain medication when I didn’t need it and they think it’s ‘unhealthy’ the amount of time I spend alone in my room.

Waiting

I’ve only had one boyfriend in my life, and I was the one to break it off. Not because it ‘wasn’t working’ or anything like that. I just felt like there was something more I was missing.
I met this guy about 5 months back. I think we’ve hung out maybe… six times? He seems completely perfect, and I can’t seem to get him out of my head. We have the same interests, laugh at the same bad jokes, etc etc.
But, on the other hand, I have a really sweet friend who is apparently completely in love with me. I don’t like him ‘like that’ but I feel pressured to, just because everybody keeps asking ‘are you guys dating yet?’ and such. I mean, he sent me roses on Valentine’s day. I can still only think of him as a friend.

Confused….

I still love my ex but I just can’t get back to him. The reason why we broke-up is that he keeps on insisting to have sex with me and I don’t want it. Not because I don’t love him but I feel like he just want my body. I gave him my time, I lied to my parents and I even escape from work just to be with him. Now, his texting me…and I always into temptations of replying him but I force myself not to. What should I do??? My parents and friends don’t like him and we had a different religion. Please…help me

So scared.

My dear friend of many years, who I’ve known over the internet, is coming to visit me for the first time next week. Last night we had phone sex; the anticipation is too much. I recently got out of a really bad relationship of five years. I feel like his coming down to meet me after all these years is going to determine whether I really feel what I feel for him or not, or if it’s just a fantasy. I want him. But I don’t want to ruin the friendship or seem like I’m on the rebound. I’m scared that others will think I’m wanting to do this way too soon. I’ve kept in contact with him throughout my previous relationship. I want him. Badly. But I am so scared.